WHAT COULD BE MORE ALARMING THAN THE SILENCE , OF
THE HOLY SPIRIT ?
FOR DAYS THIS HAPPENED, AND SO FEARFUL BECAME,
AS NOTHING IN THE WORLD CAN EVEN BEGIN TO CAUSE A FEAR
SUCH AS THE THOUGHT OF NEVER HEARING HIM AGAIN.
WHAT IS STUDYING, LONG AND HARD...IF NEVER APPLY IN LIFE
WHAT ONE LEARNS ?
THERE WAS A THOUSAND AND ONE QUESTIONS STARTED IN
ASKING OF SELF;
IN WHAT AREAS OF LIFE HAVE FAILED TO APPLY AND OF WHY ?
THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN REPLACE THE PRESENCE OF
HAVING THE HOLY SPIRIT AS THE COMFORTER AND THE GUIDE,
YET HE WILL EXPOSE TO YOU,OF WHAT YOU HAVE FAILED TO DO,
AND OF THIS , CAN TRULY HUMBLY TESTIFY.
PACED THE FLOOR, AND THOUGHT WOULD GO INSANE...
AND THEN IN THE DARK, WENT AND PRAYED; MAYBE SHOULD
BE FULLY TRUTHFUL; AND SAY BEGGED, AS IF A SLAVE,
BECAUSE KNEW THAT NOTHING MATTERED MORE THAN
HAVING THE HOLY SPIRIT.. THAT SEEMED TO HAD DISTANCED
HIMSELF FOR REASONS, I COULDN'T FULLY EVEN EXPLAIN.
IT'S NOT EASY TO ADMIT THIS, MUCH LESS TO SEND OUT FOR
OTHERS TO READ...YET,THERE IS AN ENDING TO THIS EMAIL,
THAT HAD A GREAT TURNING AROUND...A HARD LESSON LEARNED
IS WORTH IT ALL, WHEN ONCE AGAIN, KNOW THAT THE EARS
AND THE HEART, ARE HEARING, AND THE SILENCE IS NO MORE !
THE JOY HAS BEEN RESTORED ~
THE CHAINS HAVE BEEN BROKEN, THAT SELF DID APPLY TO SELF,
THE PRISON DOORS WERE OPENED, THAT LOCKED SELF IN,
AND WORDS FROM A SONG ENTERED THE MIND...
O' HOLY SPIRIT YOU ARE WELCOMED INTO THIS PLACE,
BECAUSE IT WAS YOU THAT HAS SET THE SLAVE FREE, FROM
SELF'S APPLIED CHAINS ~
WHEN AWOKE, AND THE DAY AROSE, WAS THE BEAUTY OF
THE DISPLAY BREATH TAKING ?
THE ANSWER IS YES, AS WATCHED IN AWE !
IT WAS LIKE A SPECIAL GREETING CARD FROM THE LORD ,
'SPECIALLY, IF ARISE FROM SLEEP, WITH A HEART FULL OF
TROUBLES, THAT OVERLAPPED, FROM YESTERDAY'S SORROWS.
HE NEED NOT TO SPEAK, OR EVEN APPEAR, AS WOULD WISH,
AS THE DISPLAY, SPOKE TO THE HEART, OF HIS DIVINE WAY
OF LETTING ONE KNOW HE IS EVER NEAR, AND IT SO COMFORTS
AND QUIETS EVEN THE MOST TROUBLED SPIRIT ~
SO TENDER IS A LOVE, THAT ADDS NOT, BUT TAKES AWAY
ALL THAT OVERLOADS...WHILE ON EARTH...ARE YET HERE .
IF NEVER HAD A SAVIOUR THAT WAS TEMPTED, AND SO AWARE
OF WHAT WE WOULD GO THRU, WOULD FALL INTO TOTAL DESPAIR.
YET IT IS HIS WORDS HE SO SPOKE, THAT FILLS THE MIND, HEART
AND THE DEPTHS OF THE SOUL; AND IT REFRESHES ANY THAT
ARE BURDENED DOWN WITH A HEAVY LOAD.
BECOMING AWAKE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, AND OF HIS DIVINE ACTS
UPON EACH ONE'S BEHALF, O' WHAT A WONDERFUL FRIEND
WE DO TRULY HAVE ~
HE EVER GLORIFIES THE SON, AS THE SON DID THE FATHER...
AND HOW PRECIOUS IS THE VERY THOUGHT OF THE UTTERINGS
OF THE SPIRIT ...WHEN NO STRENGTH... WE HAVE~
IS IT ANY WONDER THEN, IF THINK THAT HAVE OFFENDED THE
SOUL'S MOST PRECIOUS GIVEN GIFT, OF THE HOLY SPIRIT WITHIN,
O' DOESN'T IT CAUSE ONE TO... QUICKLY REPENT ?
YES, A THOUSAND TIMES YES...MY LORD, IT TRULY DOES !
ALL IS PROVIDED FROM ABOVE, AS REMAIN YET DOWN HERE,
TO COMFORT, ENCOURAGE, AND TO DRIVE AWAY ALL FEARS ~
HE DOESN'T CONDEMN...ONLY SHOWS PITY, UPON HIS ,
AND DOESN'T OVERLOAD, BUT RATHER REACHES OUT WITH
OPEN HANDS, AND DRAWS EVER SO NEAR.
O' THERE IS NO SHEPHERD AS ONE'S LORD IS ~
CAN HEARTS REMIND TROUBLED VERY LONG...WITH WORDS
THAT EVER REFESH...AS DOES HIS ~
THE WARMTH HAS OVERTAKEN ONCE AGAIN, AND THE SUN
HAS ARRIVED IN SUCH A FASHION , AS ONE THAT NEVER AGES,
BUT RATHER, IS EVER FILLED WITH LIGHT AND STRENGTH.
THE PRINT IN THE BIBLE NEVER AGES , NOR LOSES IT'S
LIGHT AND STRENGTH .
NOR WILL THE LORD GOD SHARE OR GIVE GLORY UNTO ANOTHER~
HE SEEMS TO HAVE WITHHELD FOR SUCH A LONG TIME IN DOING
WHAT HE WARNED OF...BUT THE DAY WILL SURELY COME ~
BUT AS WATCH ALL THAT IS TAKING PLACE, DO ASK; HAS MUCH
BECOME POLLUTED ?
HOW MUCH HAS BEEN PUT ASIDE,
EVEN BY ONES OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST ?
WE HAVE BEEN SHOWN SO MUCH BY HIM, BUT DO WE REALLY,
REALLY KNOW HIM ?
IS HE BLIND, CANNOT HE SEE...OR IS IT THE WE...THAT CAN'T SEE ?
HAS ALL RIGHTEOUSNESS BEEN SWALLOWED UP BY THE SEA ?
IS ON DISPLAY FOR ALL OTHERS TO SEE, THE EXTREME FOLLY
NOW, AND OF IT'S SURE ENDING ?
SO TROUBLED, WENT INTO A SEARCH, OF THE WORD...
REALLY MORE FOR COMFORT, AS WATCH ALL AROUND
THE GLOBE, OF WARS, THAT ARE NO LONGER JUST RUMORS,
BUT ARE IN FULL FORCE... AND, THOUGHTS RAN IN A CIRCLE.
YESTERDAY MORNING, AS AROSE...
WAS SO VERY THANKFUL, FOR THE LORD'S SUN OF WARMTH,
THAT NEVER FAILS IN BEING FAITHFUL.
THIS MORNING, THE SKIES ARE ABSENT FROM THE SUN'S GLORY,
YET , AS READ IN THE OLD...BECAME ENCOURAGED...
I LOVE WHERE HE SAYS HE WILL NOT SIT AS A WIDOW...
AND... NEITHER,WILL KNOW LOSS OF CHILDREN...
YET O' MY...WHAT WORDS AFTER THAT DO FOLLOW ...
THAT SUDDENLY CONSUMED THOUGHTS;
IS HIS NAME ONE... YET SO HALLOWED,
AS THE FATHER, BY ALL... IN THIS NATION ?
O' HOW LONG IS HIS DIVINE PATIENCE ?
FOR SUCH A LONG SPAN OF TIME, THERE WAS A BUILDING,
AND UP FRONT WAS A CROSS, NOT OF ANY BEAUTY, BUT
RATHER OF RUGGED APPEARANCE, WITH A SCARLET CLOTH
OVERLAPPING...AND IT TOO, WAS NOT OF ANY BEAUTY !
A TIME CAME THAT THE DOORS WERE GOING TO BE CLOSED
ON THAT SCENE...AND THE HEART BROUGTH A ROSE, WITH A
LONG STEM TO BE PLACED UPON IT...AS IT SEEMED LIKE A
GOODBY TO WHAT HAD SO LONG BEEN...
BUT IT REALLY WASN'T A GOODBY, UNTO WHAT WOULD FACE
LATER ON DOWN THE ROAD OF THE JOURNEY.
SO MANY LESSONS YET TO LEARN, SO MUCH YET TO ENDURE,
THE STUMBLINGS, THE FIGHTS," THE REMAINING IN THE WORD ~"
SO MUCH ALLOWED, EVEN AFTER THE BUILDING'S SHUT DOORS.
OFTEN THERE IS A NEED TO UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF
WHAT IT'S REALLY, REALLY LIKE TO BE AS A PRISONER,
TRAPPED INSIDE , WITH NO HOPE OF RETURNING BACK OUT
INTO THE REAL WORLD.
IT CAN TEST LIKE NOTHING ELSE...
AND IS ALSO TRUE OF TIMES, OF SUFFERINGS ENDURED,
YET, IF REMAIN STRONG, AND FAITHFUL IN THE WORD...
IT BRINGS FORTH GREAT SPIRITUAL BENEFITS; IN THE END ~
BUILDINGS MAY BE BROUGHT DOWN TO A DUSTY END...
MAY NEVER AGAIN, SEE THE FACES OF PRECIOUS FRIENDS,
BUT IN THE MIND ,WILL EVER REMEMBER THAT CROSS, OF
NO BEAUTY TO BEHOLD, AND THE COLOR OF THE CLOTH,
THAT KEEPS REMINDING OF SOMEDAY...OF THE SAVIOUR,
THE EYES OF ALL...WILL SURELY BEHOLD, AND SO...
THE HEART BEAT IS BEATING WITHIN, HOLDING ON TO THAT HOPE...
AS THE GREAT PAUL MENTIONED ALOT, REFERRING BACK TO
THE PEOPLE AND TIMES OF THE OLD...
AND OF HIS WARNINGS, IT IS TRULY YET ,AS WAS THEN.
BECAME DRIVEN TO GO BACK BEFORE THE TIME OF PAUL,
SO BENT IN GOING BACK INTO THE DEPTHS OF HISTORY,
AND WHAT LEARNED, WAS THE STRONG POWER OF SIN... AND
IT WAS A VENTURE THAT MOST WOULD CARE NOT TO ENTER
INTO, AS IT WAS VERY REVEALING.
AS SIT AND PONDERED OVER IT...ALWAYS CAME TO AN
END... A GREAT FALL, DEATH UNTO ALL...THE COLD GRAVES.
IT HELPED TO SEE WHAT HISTORY HAS,AS IT REVEALED MUCH,
ALSO IT WARNED OF WHAT HAPPENS, WHEN THERE IS A
COMSUMING POWER OF DEEP SINFUL LUST...
THAT MAKES EVEN MORE VITAL TO SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM
ABOVE ALL... TO ENTER DEEPER INTO THE TEACHINGS OF PAUL.
IN THE PAST, HEARD OTHERS SAY THAT PAUL WAS A HARD MAN,
YET, HE IS LIKE ONE THAT GOES AROUND LIGHTING THE STREET
LAMPS...CASTING FORTH LIGHT UNTO ALL THAT WILL HEED UNTO
HIS WARNINGS...EVEN YET ~
LONG AGO, CONFESS THAT WHAT OTHERS THOUGHT AND SAID,
WAS SO CONVINCING, AS THEY WERE BUSY IN THE WORKS OF
THE LORD...SURELY THEY MUST KNOW MORE THAN I, AS THEY
APPEARED SO UPRIGHT, IN MY EYES...BUT THEY WERE WRONG,
AND IT TOOK YEARS TO REALIZE THAT THEY WERE... BUT NOW
OPEN ARE THE EYES, AS HAVE PLUNGED DEEP INTO THE WORDS
LEFT BY PAUL ~ BUT; ALSO MUST CONFESS...
IT TOOK MEN FOLLOWING THE EXAMPLES OF PAUL,
THAT FINALLY LIT THE HEART'S LAMP, WITH WORDS SO STRONG,
THAT MADE VOID, OTHERS EARLIER WORDS AND THOUGHTS.
THO' WE MAY SEEM TO HAVE A FULL PLATE FILLED WITH MUCH...
THERE IS WAITING A TABLE... A FEASTING WITH ALL THAT
REMAINED FAITHFUL IN THEIR PURSUIT OF SEEKING FIRST
TO TEACH , AND PREACH OF THE KINGDOM ABOVE...
AND ALSO ...EVER,HEEDING UNTO WHAT WAS PENNED,
LEFT TO BE READ BY EACH OF US..."THE BEHAVIOR, THE
LAW OF LIBERTY AN OF LOVE...GLORIFYING GOD TOGETHER."
THE JOURNEY, THE WALK, THE ANSWERED QUESTIONS THAT
ASKED, AND ALL OF THE WONDERS OF THE LORD'S MIGHTY
ACTS...SOMETIMES...IT'S HARD TO WANT TO LEAVE ALL OF THAT,
BECAUSE IT'S ALL THAT HAVE KNOWN, EVER WONDERING
WHAT WILL HE DO NEXT, THAT ONE WOULD LEAST EXPECT ?
ABLAZE IN THE MIND IS THE SUNRISES, AND THE SUNSETS,
THE RAINBOWS, THAT NEVER FAILED OR LOST IT'S AWESOME
COLORS... LEAVING THE EYES IN AWE.
ANOTHER THING THAT SEEMS TO EVER BE AS GREAT...
WHEN PRAY, KNOW THAT AS A FATHER , HE LISTENS TO ALL
THE CHILD ASKED, AND OFTEN HE ANSWERS RIGHT AWAY.
SOMETIMES, MUST LOOK THRU A CHILD'S EYES...
AS SO HEAVY BECOMES LIFE WITH ALL THE THINGS GOING ON
IN THIS WORLD TODAY !
JUST WANT TO THANK THE LORD FOR THE TIMES OF ESCAPE,
AS WATCH THE SIMPLE FAITH, OF CHILDREN ON DISPLAY...
AND ALSO OF THEIR LAUGHTER, THAT CAN CAUSE A SMILE,
THAT DRIVES ALL TROUBLES AWAY.
WHAT OFTEN HAPPENS, WHEN BECOME A GROWN ADULT ?
WONDER, DOES THE EXCITMENT REALLY LEAVE ANY YET
IN AWE... OR EVENTUALLY, GET BORED WITH BEING TAUGHT ?
WHAT IS IT LIKE, WHEN HE DOES WHAT MAY LEAST EXPECT ?
IF THE HEART DOES ASK, AND HE DOESN'T ANSWER THE PRAYER
AS WE THINK...WILL THE ONES OF FAITH BE WILLING TO WAIT ?
OFTEN, LONGER THE WAIT...THE GREATER IS ONE'S PRAISE,
IF DON'T GIVE UP ALONG THE JOURNEY, AND JUST WALK AWAY...
AS WILL MISS THAT LITTLE FIRE, THAT SETS THE HEART ABLAZE ~
IN THE SWEET SILENCE OF THE MORNING, AND THE SOFT SOUND
OF A SONG...IT IS SO WONDERFUL, BUT DOESN'T LAST VERY LONG.
WE THINK OF WARS ALL AROUND, YET IF LISTEN TO HEARTS THAT
KNOW WARS, AS IN DRIVING SCHOOL BUSES, NOT EVER SEEN
OR READ THE NEWSPAPER...CAN NEVER REALIZE IN FULL, WHAT HELL THEY DAILY GO THRU !
THEY ARE NEVER HONORED IN PUBLIC, OR GIVEN A MEDAL,
AND EACH REMAINS AS A... SILENT-SONG-HERO ~
SO EASY TO GET CAUGHT UP IN ALL AREAS OF WARFARE,
YET FORGET WHAT WARS ARE GOING ON RIGHT HERE, WHERE LIVE.
MOST ARE GOD FEARING PEOPLE, AND WALK IN THE WAYS OF THE
LORD...AND ARE LIVING DAILY, WATCHING THE IMPACT OF ALL
THAT HAS OVERFLOWED INTO THE NEXT GENERATION,DUE TO
SITUATIONS GOING ON IN THE HOMES.
SO MANY HAVE ESCAPED FROM WHAT IS PRESENTLY HAPPENING,
KNOWING NOT WHAT IS REALLY HAPPENING IN OTHER LIVES ~
MAYBE GET TOO WRAPPED UP,WITH MUCH IN THE CHURCH...
FORGETTING THE WARS GOING ON OUTSIDE ?
MAYBE SEEM TOO STRONG IN WHAT VOICE, YET MUST SPEAK
AS LISTEN TO A SWEET SONG;AND OF THE FORGOTTEN, THAT SO
SELDOM SPEAKS OF THEIR PERSONAL WAR ZONES.
EACH ARE AS IF A SILENT HERO ~
IF ALL WOULD DO WHAT HAVE BEEN GIVEN, TO DO FOR OUR
LORD...MANY EMPTY SEATS AT THE TABLE, THERE WOULD BE,
BUT IT DOES APPEAR THAT THE TABLE IS REMAINING FULL,
WAITING TO BE SERVED, INSTEAD OF SERVING.
AS HEARING GREAT CRIES OFTEN , MORE THAN NOT...
THE ISSUE OF TODAY SEEMS...THE CRIES OF ONES OF GOD,THAT
ARE SO DESPERATE, THAT DON'T JUST CRY; BUT DO SO IN DEEP
GRIEF... AND HEAVY HEART SOBS.
IS ANY'S PRAYER LIST GROWING BY THE DAY, AS HEAR THE
REQUESTS ?
IS IT EASY TO HEAR, AND JUST PUT ASIDE ?
THE HOLY SPIRIT, OUR COMFORTER, AND MINISTERING ANGELS,
EVEN IF IN HUMAN FORM, COMES CLOSE,MORE OFTEN THAN
MAY REALIZE...AND IT IS YET TRUE; WILL SPEAK THRU ONES OF
THE LORD JESUS CHRIST.
HE DOES GIVE WORDS NOW, AS WELL AS DID BACK THEN...
AND IT CAN LEAVE ONE IN HUMBLE AWE, THAT ARE BEING
USED BY HIM.
HAVE WE GROWN WEARY OF ONES THAT SEEM TO HAVE A
CLAIM ON THE LORD...WHEN IT IS HE THAT IS OF OWNERSHIP ?
IT IS HIS KINGDOM...AND WE ARE THE SERVANTS OF THE KING.
CAN'T HELP BUT REMEMBER THE HOMES HE WAS INVITED IN
ON HIS WAY, BEFORE FACING THE CROSS...
WHAT DIFFERENT THINGS TOOK PLACE...AND THE WORDS SO
VOICED, BY ONES THAT WERE IN EACH HOME.
SOME REALIZED HIS OWNERSHIP OF ALL ~
SOME JUST DIDN'T REALIZE, AND CONTINUED IN LISTENING,
IN ORDER, TO FIND FAULT, IN WHAT HE DID OR SPOKE.
IT IS HIS KINGDOM WE PRAY TO COME...
HIS WILL, HERE ON EARTH TO BE DONE ~
MAY THE HEARTS DOORS EVER BE OPEN, UNTO THE HOLY
SPIRIT, AND REMEMBER ...OF WHO IS OF OWNERSHIP ~
THE BOOK THAT PRESENTLY AM IN, HAS AT LAST MENTIONED
THAT WE ARE IN A SCHOOL...NOW THAT I CAN BELIEVE !
WE NEVER OUTGROW THE IMPORTANCE OF READING,
AND STUDYING ~AND EVER PRAYING ~
ALSO; THE DAILY FELLOWSHIP WITH OUR LORD ~
THE WRITER REMINDS,AS READ; OF HOW "HE DESIRES" EACH
ONE INTO "GIVING HIM TIME ~"
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OFTEN SEEMS THAT WE MAY HAVE IT BACKWARDS, CONCERNING
OUR OWN DESIRES, AND FORGETTING HIS.
THOUGHT OF HOW , ONCE MANY ARE GROWN , YET HE STILLS
CALLS US.."MY CHILD"...REMINDED THE HEART OF HOW HE
YET SEES US AS SUCH...
A FATHER THAT IS LONG SUFFERING, WATCHING OVER US IN
HIS PURE LOVE, AND DID HE NOT DO THE SAME, WITH OUR
LORD JESUS ?
THIS WORLD DOESN'T SHOW MUCH FAVOR TOWARD THE
DOWN CAST...BUT WHEN WAIT UPON THE LORD'S TIMING,
IT WILL BE SEEN BY ALL ...THAT " GOD DOESN'T FORGET"
EACH ONE THAT ENTERED DAILY INTO FELLOWSHIP WITH HIM !
WHEN IT'S HIS DESIRES, HIS WILL, IT'S VICTORY AT THE END ~
NOTHING SELF CAN BOAST IN, EXCEPT IN ONE'S HOPE,
OF WAITING UPON THE REALITY OF THE HEAVENLY HOME ~
SO MUCH ENTERS THE HEART, AS GET INTO THE WORD;
HOW LONG DID WE GENTILES SEEM AS IF AT THE OUTER COURT,
OR,AS LIKE THE WIDOW, KNOCKING ON THE JUDGE'S DOOR ?
HOW LONG HAS OTHERS MADE US FEEL AS IF OF NO WORTH ?
HOW MANY WITH BOWED HEADS, CAME WITH A PRAYER UTTERED,
AND THE WORDS WERE HEARD IN THE HEAVENLY COURTS~
O' THE JUST GOD...HIS DESIRE FILLS THE HEARTS WITH HIS WILL,
AND NO LONGER, CAN FIGHT AGAINST HIS DESIRE BEING WITHIN
FULFILLED,AND FIND SELF NOT LOOKING DOWN WARD ANYMORE,
BUT RATHER WITH EYES SET UP TOWARD THE HIGH HOLY HILL ~
TIL THEN, HUNGER FOR FELLOWSHIP ON A DAILY BASIS,
WITH THE LORD THAT NEVER FORGETS ~
RECEIVED A CD,FROM MY SON... AND IT CONTAINED WARNINGS~
AS STUDYING IN THE WORD...IT TOO CONTAINS WARNINGS ,
AM IN A BOOK LEARNING...IT TOO CONTAINS WARNINGS, EVEN
THO' IT WAS WRITTEN BEFORE THE SON WAS EVEN BORN.
WARNINGS STARTED IN THE GARDEN, AND JUST SEEMS TO
CONTINUE ON, GENERATION AFTER GENERATION.
HAVING ONLY SEEN FLICKS OF THE MOVIE OF THIS TIME,
IT DOES SEEM SO PROPER, OF THE EVIL BEING EVER NEAR,
EVEN IN THE GARDEN, AS THE LORD POURED OUT HIS WORDS
IN DESPERATE PRAYER.
THE "HISTORY" OF BLOOD BEGAN OUTSIDE THE PERFECT GARDEN,
AND IS YET CONTINUING, AS WATCH WARFARE HAPPENING
EVERYWHERE, ONE MAY LOOK.
IT MAY BE SOMETHING MANY TRY TO BLOCK OUT OF THE MIND,
BUT ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE, AS LIVING IN THESE TIMES !
HOW MANY TIMES, AS PRAY...ARE AS IN A PERSONAL WARFARE ?
OFTEN DOES IT SEEM THAT THERE IS YET AN OPPRESSER
DRAWING NEAR ?
IN MANY DIFFERENT FORMS, COMES SUCH; AND 'SPECIALLY
IN TIMES OF WHEN ARE IN EARNEST PRAYER.
WHO KNEW ALL OF WHAT WE MAY GO THRU, BEFORE HE WAS
EVEN BORN...AND KNEW WHAT WE WOULD FACE, AS ONES
THAT PUT OUR TRUST IN THE LORD ?
DID HE FAIL TO WARN ?
FOREKNOWING ALL THINGS...HE DID STRONGLY WARN ~
DOES HE YET USE COMMON MAN TO DO LIKEWISE..
CALLED OUT ONES, WITH THE SPIRIT OF THE LIVING CHRIST ?
DOES IT CONTINUE ON, FROM THE PROPHETS OF OLD...
SPEAKING WARNINGS...OR IS THAT MINISTRY NO LONGER
NEEDED ANYMORE, TO BE HEARD... "BY THE PEOPLE?"
WHY IS PRAYER MENTIONED , AND WARNING OF NOT GROWING
FAINT ?
ON AND ON, ARE FORETOLD OF THINGS THAT WILL TAKE PLACE,
EVEN OF TURNING ASIDE OF FAITH ~
THO' LOVE IS THE GREATEST, THIS IS TRUE...CAN NOT DENY...
YET, IN WARNINGS...ASK...ARE THEY YET NEEDED TOO, IN WHAT
APPEARS, TO BE OUR LIVING IN THESE FORETOLD TIMES ~
ARENOT THE OPPOSSERS MANY... AGAINST WHAT IS TRUTH,
AND DECEIVING MANY...WITH LIES ?
WHEN A QUESTION COMES TO MIND, WILL DO A SEARCH ~
COULDN'T FIND THE ANSWER, BUT FOUND SOMETHING ELSE,
THAT EXPLAINED WHY MANY LOOK FOR SOMETHING NEW ,
OR, OF HEARING SOMETHING NEW ~
WARS OF ANY DURATION,AND OF; FOOLS LISTENING TO FOOLS ~
IS IT ANY WONDER THAT WHEN JESUS APPEARED ON THE SCENE,
WITH SUCH AUTHORITY IN SPEECH, PEOPLE BELIEVED ~
BUT WONDER, HASNOT ALSO PHILOSOPHIES RISEN IT'S HEAD,
AND ONCE AGAIN...ARE IN ANOTHER KIND OF WARFARE.
DOES TOTAL DISILLUSION CAUSE OTHERS TO MAYBE
LOOK ELSE WHERE ?
SEEMS SO SIMILIAR NOW ,AS DID, BEFORE JESUS APPEARED...
TURMOIL, CONFUSION, AND DESPAIR.
ASKED SELF QUESTIONS...WHY IS SO VITAL; TIME IN PRAYER,
WHY WAS GIVEN THE PRECIOUS HOLY SPIRIT ?
AS IN THE SEARCH, FOUND THE REASON , DURING THIS PRESENT
TIME OF WORLD WIDE WARS, FAR AWAY, AND HERE ~
YET; NOW THE WORDS OF PAUL, BECOMES DEARER THAN EVER
DID AT ONE TIME; AS HE LIVED IN SUCH TIMES...AND ENDURED ~
NOW; DOES IT SEEM THE SAME, WITH ANY THAT ARE IN THE WORD ?
WHAT IS IT THAT OFTEN HINDERS, FROM THE GREAT SEARCH ?
SO HARD IT IS IN THESE TIMES, FOR ANY OF TRUE FAITH, AND
MUST HEED , WHAT THE LORD DID SAY...
"JESUS' WARNING;TAKE HEED THAT NO MAN LEAD YOU ASTRAY."
O' TO EVER LOOK UP...AND NOT DOWN OR AROUND...
TO KEEP IN THE WORD, THAT KEEPS, FROM FALLING DOWN ~
THE SUMMER, AND THE KINGDOM, SEEMS TO EXPRESS THE SAME,
O' THE EDURING, WHILE AWAIT ~
THE MIND IS BUSY, AND ABOVE ALL, IS DRIVEN TO MEDITATE ~
OTHERWISE...BECOME SO DOWNCAST WITH ALL THAT IS
PRESENTLY TAKING PLACE ~
OFTEN, HAVE TO REMINDED THAT THIS IS OUR FATHER'S WORLD,
DESPITE ALL THAT IS TAKING PLACE IN THIS WORLD.
YES THERE IS SICKNESS, AND PAIN, AND GREAT SUFFERING...
YET , IT IS ONLY FOR A TIME, THAT WILL HAVE TO ENDURE,
HIS LOVE WOULDNOT EVER KEEP AS IS... FOREVER MORE.
THE NAKEDNESS HAS SO BEEN CLOTHED...
INSTILLED HAS BEEN A FIRM HOPE,
...OF A WAITING FOREVER HOME...
WHO OTHER CAN TRANSFORM COMPLETELY
FROM HOPELESSNESS, AND DEATH...UNTO...
A UNDYING FAITH ?
SEEING THE CREATOR, IS BEYOND THE HUMAN MIND, YET AT THE
SAME TIME; ARE ENGULFED WITH THOUGHTS, DAY AND NITE ~
WHY IS THIS SO; "WHY" DO LIVE ,WATING FOR WHAT HAVEN'T SEEN?
WHY NOT GIVE UP; WHY STUBBORNLY CONTINUE TO BELIEVE ?
WHY IS THE MIND SO FIXED, AND REFUSE TO DESERT ?
AFTER YEARS, CAME AWAKE AND NOW KNOW, AND CAN I SHARE
JUST A FEW EVENTS PLEASE.
FROM THE 1ST FALL AS A YOUTH, AND 5 CAR WRECKS, NOT DUE
TO MY DRIVING, AND MORE FALLS... THE LAST ONE, THE WORST;
THAT LEFT HELPLESS, AND OF HAVING TO
TEACH SELF TO WALK AGAIN...PLUS MUCH MORE,
HAS MADE REALIZE, THAT THERE'S A REASON WHY WAS BORN.
YOUR STORY MAY BE MORE ...OR LESS, BUT NEVER THE LESS...
JESUS, IS THE REASON...WE LIVE ON ~
THE GREAT PAUL, AND OF ALL HE WROTE, ENCOURAGES TO
ALSO CARRY ON ~
THE GREAT GULF THAT SEPERATES FOR NOW, ONLY MAKES
MORE HUNGRY FOR ALL THAT AWAITS AT THE GATE ~
IT WILL BE THE GREATEST CELEBRATION EVER...
THAT WILL LAST FOREVER ~
READ WHERE SOMEONE SAID THE OLD MAY NOT BE WILLING
TO MOVE ASIDE, FOR THE YOUNGER TO NOW TAKE THE LEAD,
AND ASKED THE LORD, IS THIS MAN'S THOUGHTS O' LORD ?
STRANGE AS READ OF MANY THRU OUT HISTORY, THAT WAS
SO USED, BY YOU, THAT WERE WILLING TO OBEY.
HOW MANY CIRCLES AROUND AN OLD STANDING TREE,
THAT WEATHERED MANY OF A STORM ?
HOW MANY BATTLES WENT THRU, AND FOUND SHELTER
UNDER YOUR MIGHTY PROTECTIVE ARMS ?
DOES ONE EVER GET TOO OLD ?
DOES THE FIRE GO OUT, AND JUST LIKE ASHES BECOME...
THE LONGER, WALK WITH THE LORD, DEEPER GROWS LOVE.
AND WHAT WILL THE SON LOOK LIKE WHEN RETURNS,
SURELY NOT AS MANY SO PICTURE !
WHY IS PSALM 77;YET AS COMFORTING IN TIMES OF DISTRESS,
AS WAS IN WORDS PENNED AS AN ANCIENT SONG...SUNG,
IS NOT IT FOR THE OLD, AS WELL AS FOR THE YOUNG ?
SO MANY YEARS,HAVE WAITED IN SILENCE BEFORE THE LORD,
COUNTLESS, OF TEARS HAVE BEEN OUT POURED.
BUT DO WONDER, AS WATCH ALL THE EVENTS AND WARS...
ONE NEW THING SEEMS TO BE NOW TAKING PLACE..
AS A NATION , WE ARE BEING LAUGHED AT...AND MOCKED !
NEVER DREAMED, THAT WOULD SEE SUCH, AS GROW OLD ~
OR TO SEE WHAT IS TAKING PLACE, IN A NATION THAT ONCE
WAS SO GREAT~
HAS ALL JUSTICE DISAPPEARED, IS THE END GROWING NEAR ?
O' GOD, OUR SAVIOUR , BRING US BACK UNTO WHERE WERE,
LET ONCE AGAIN, PRAYERS BE AS CRIES...AS NEVER BEFORE...
AND MAY ALL DEPEND UPON YOUR STRENGTH,
AND ONLY OF YOURS ~
MAY ALL REMEMBER...THAT ONLY YOU CAN RESTORE ~
O' OF YOUR SPIRIT, MAY YOU ONCE AGAIN POUR OUT UPON
YOURS...GIVING RENEWED STRENGTH...AS DEPEND UPON
YOUR BEING THE RULER, OVER THIS WHOLE EARTH ,
AND PUT TRUST IN YOU, IN ALL OUR WAYS...
AS WE SEEM, AS IF IN A LAND OF DRIED UP SPRINGS ~
THIS DO PRAY UNTO YOU O' LORD, AS SEEK YOUR FACE ...
AS WATCH PRESENT EVENTS UNFOLD, AND THE CROWDS OF PEOPLE...MANY FOR...MANY OPPOSE...
IT SEEMS NO DIFFERENT... THAN WAS OF THE OLD...
THIS CONTINUED ON... EVEN IN THE DAYS OF PAUL,
AND IS IT ANY WONDER, THAT EVEN YET...IT CONTINUES ?
HIS LETTERS SENT, WERE OF SUCH URGENCY,
AS BELIEVERS LIVED IN MIDST OF A PAGAN SOCIETY !
CAN ANY DENY...THAT THIS IS YET HAPPENING ?
DOES THE GOSPEL YET HAVE MANY OPPOSING ENEMIES ?
ARE THEY EVER ONES PLOTTING AGAINST,
OR IN GATHERINGS TOGETHER, CAUSING DISHARMONY ?
IS IT AS WAS... WITH PAUL ALONG HIS JOURNEY ?
SO MANY QUESTIONS CAME TO MIND AS IN A STUDY OF HIS LIFE,
AS ENDLESS WAS LETTERS OF WARNINGS, UNTO ALL IN CHRIST.
HIS WILLINGNESS IN SUFFERING FOR CHRIST, HIS LOVE FOR
THE CHURCH...HIS TENDER HEART TOWARD THEM...EVEN UPTO
TIME OF HIS DEATH... GREAT WAS HIS CONCERN FOR THEM.
HE SPOKE ; OF MAN'S INABILITY TO ATTAIN TO
RIGHTEOUSNESS,THRU ONE'S OWN FRUITLESS EFFORT...
THAT FAITH IN CHRIST ALONE...WILL BRING FORTH INNER CHANGE.
AFTER MANY PAGES OF WORDS READ IN THE STUDY OF A
BOOK, OF 1974...OF PAUL'S MANY- SIDED PERSONALITY THAT
CAN'T POSSIBLY BE GATHERED INTO JUST 1 PICTURE...
YET,THERE IS REVEALED THE SECRET OF HIS FERVENT NATURE;
AS ONE POSSESSED AND EMPOWERED BY THE LIVING CHRIST ~
BOTTOM LINE OF THE STUDY;
AS HE; WE TOO, MUST DEPEND UPON DIVINE EMPOWERMENT ~
WHEN THINK UPON A LIBRARY, WHAT COMES TO MIND ?
WHEN THINK UPON HISTORY, WHAT COMES TO MIND ?
~PEOPLE, PLACES, AND EVENTS ~
DID THE CHURCH GO WORLD WIDE AT FIRST, OR DID IT REMAIN
LOCALLY, SLOWLY...BEING TRAINED IN THE GOSPEL,AS ONE IN
UNITY ?
THERE IS NO OTHER POWER, AS IS IN THE WORD, THAT WILL
PIERCE EVERY FIBER OF THE WHOLE PERSON, AS DOES THE
BOOK, WE CALL THE BIBLE...THIS , HAVE LEARNED, AS DAILY
TAKE TIME OUT...IN THE GREAT SEARCH.
AT ONE TIME IN HISTORY, IT WAS ALL THAT WAS SPOKEN,
WHEN GATHERINGS DID OCCUR...LOCALLY, THEN AROUND THE
WORLD.
AS WATCH THE CRUMBLING OF ALL THAT WAS MEANT TO BE,
FEEL LIKE WE ARE AS IT WAS, BACK IN THE BEGINNING OF
THE HISTORY OF CONFUSION; CONCERNING THE MINISTRY.
WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE WORD...THE UNITY ?
SO OPEN BECAME THE GATES, AND NOW OVERFLOWING
IS NOT WHAT WAS MEANT TO BE.
INSTEAD OF UNITY...ARE CONSUMED WITH MANY FOREIGN ONES
SET IN THEIR WAYS, AND IN THEIR SPEECH.
ARE WE WINNING THEM OVER...OR ...ARE THEY WINNING US OVER
TO THEIR SIDE OF THINKING ?
THE GOSPEL IS A FIRE, A POWER, A LIGHT, GIVING LIFE...
YET ALSO SEEMS TO BE LOSING STRENGTH.
INVASION IS TAKING PLACE, MORE THAN EVEN WANT TO ADMIT,
AND CRY OUT TO GOD...AS WATCH ALL OVERTAKE.
IS THERE AN INCREASE, IS THE LORD'S PRESENCE WITH US,AS
WAS IN THE HISTORY OF THE GOSPEL'S HUMBLE BEGINNINGS?
WHAT WILL BE RECORDED, IN BOOKS, OF AMERICA'S HISTORY ?
THRU OUT IT ALL, MAY SEEM ALL IS HOPELESSLY LOST,
BUT AS LONG AS THERE ARE ONES THAT YET COUNT THE COST,
WILLING TO SPEAK AS OUGHT...GOD'S PRESENCE WILL BE
WITH EACH, AS PREACH THE WORD, OF THE GOSPEL,
WORD FOR WORD...AND NOT JUST STORIES OR CUTE QUOTES ~
[MAY THE LORD STRENGTHEN ONES, THAT ARE SO DEAR TO THIS SOUL.]
[as study and search out]
ARE THESE TIMES MUCH DIFFERENT THAN WHAT TOOK PLACE
CENTURIES AGO ?
IS HISTORY REPEATING ITSELF, AS ALL UNFOLDS ?
MODERN WEAPONS...REPLACING STONES ?
LEGENDS AND FABLES...IN PLACE OF THE GOSPEL ?
GREAT FICKLENESS AMONG PEOPLE ?
CAN NOW RELATE EVEN MORE SO, UNTO PAUL ?
HISTORY ONLY PROVES THAT THERE'S A DESPERATE NEED
FOR ONES IN CHRIST...TO BE FULLY TAUGHT ~
THERE IS SUCH A WORSHIPPING OF CERTAIN MEN SPREADING
LIKE A FOREST ON FIRE, AND HAS CAPTURED MANY HEARTS.
THERE SEEMS TO BE MANY UPRISINGS AMONG PEOPLE,
AND SEEMS IN THIS TIME...EVEN MORE SO.
PRAISING ONE MOMENT... THE NEXT THROWING STONES.
ARE WE LIVING, AS WAS DESCRIBED IN HISTORY...
IN MIDST OF TEMPLES, IDOLS, SHRINES, LUXURY,AND LUST,
AND ; IS PUT ASIDE, WHAT GOD SAID... IS REQUIRED OF US ?
O' SEEM TO BE BLIND, THAT ANY WOULD DARE TO ATTACK
THE STRONG NATION, CALLED AMERICA.
BUT IT HAPPENED ~
ARE WE PUTTING TRUST IN MAN, RATHER THAN IN GOD ?
SEEKING MEN'S COUNCIL...INSTEAD OF GOD'S ?
WORDS ARE SO ENDLESS, AND SO LOUD...
CONFUSION IS SO GREAT, HANGING OVER HEADS LIKE MANY
DARK CLOUDS...
AND IN FEAR, MANY ARE RUNNING ABOUT...
INSTEAD OF SEEKING THE GOD, THAT CAN DELIVER OUT ~
IN THIS SPECIAL TIME, THAT DO CELEBRATE...
MAY ALL REMEMBER WHY DO CELEBRATE ~
AND GIVE EARNEST PRAISE TO THE GOD THAT DOES MAKE
A WAY OF ESCAPE ~
OUR JESUS AROSE, AND WILL BE COMING BACK SOON...
AS HE IS OUR STRONG HOLD, OUR VICTOR, OVER THE GRAVE,
AND IT IS IN HIM, WE PUT TRUST...AS AWAIT ~
DID MEL'S MOVIE STIR UP AN HORNET'S NEST ?
DID IT AWAKE SLEEPING GIANTS?
AS ONE THAT NEVER GOT TO SEE THE FILM...
LISTEN TO ALL THAT HAVE, AND IT'S BEEN THE MOST TALKED
ABOUT TOPIC WORLD WIDE...
AND;EVEN BOOKS PRINTED IN A FURY, TO EXPLAIN THIS OR THAT,
AND FLOODING TV , IS MOVIES OF JESUS CHRIST.
IN BETWEEN ...IS THE WARS THAT SEEM TO ARISE MORE ,AS
TIME PASSES.
THEN THERE'S THE EVERYDAY LIFE OF PEOPLE, AND THEIR
WORK, FAMILY; OFTEN PROBLEMS MOUNTING MORE THAN NOT ~
DUE TO ABORATIONS WORLD WIDE...THERE WILL BE SUCH A
LACK IN THE FUTURE GENERATION, IN CARING FOR THE AGED.
THE TOPICS ARE SO TREMENDOUS, AND YET THERE'S ANOTHER
KIND OF WAR GOING ON...AMONG ONES OF THE LORD.
AS STUDY OF PAUL'S LIFE...AND OF ALL THE REPORTS...
WONDER IF OF TODAY...IT MAY SEEM AS A REPEAT?
THERE IS SUCH A DIFFERENCES IN BELIEFS...
AND COULD IT ALSO BE ...A SATANIC OPPRESITION ?
SURLY SEEMS EVDIENT ~
RECALL A CASE OF ONE THAT KNOW; FOUGHT A LONG TERM
BATTLE WITH COURTS...AND AT THE END, DID WIN...
AND THE COST OF IT ALL,TOWARD THE VICTORY IN THE END.
[EVIDENCE]
IT BRINGS TO MIND, ANOTHER CASE OF THE PAST,
AND OF OUR LORD, AND OF WITNESSES' AGAINST HIM,
YET NONE COULD STOP "THE FATHER'S PLAN, FOR HIM ~"
IT EVEN GOES FURTHER BACK IN HISTORY OF TIME,BEFORE
OUR CHRIST...AND ALSO, EVEN IN THIS PRESENT TIME.
IT IS A HOPE THAT REFUSES TO DIE, AND WILL ARISE,
AND WILL LABOR ON... IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST ~
IF GOD BE FOR YOU, WHO CAN FIGHT AGAINST ?
THRU OUT THE AGES...WAS PENNED GREAT EVIDENCE ~
PRAISE AND GLORY TO THE FATHER GOD, THE...I AM ~
BACK INTO THE RING AGAIN...DETERMINDED TO WIN ~
THE FIGHT... TIL' THE END ~
WHAT A STRUGGLE... IN STRIVING TO ENTER IN ~
THE FIRE IN THE SOUL, CAN'T BE QUIETED...WHEN IN A FIGHT...
NO MATTER HOW WEAK MAY GROW, AM DETERMINDED TO ARISE.
IT IS A MISSION, TOWARD WHAT IS OF UNSEEN THINGS DIVINE ~
WHAT MYSTERY IS YET BEYOND THE MORTAL EYES ~
WHY DOES THE HEART BEAT, FOR WHAT YET HAVEN'T SEEN,
COULD IT BE, THAT THERE IS SO MUCH YET, AS A MYSTERY ?
WHAT CAUSES A TREMBLING; THIS SPIRIT THAT ABIDES WITHIN,
THAT WON'T LEAVE YOU IN PEACE... DURING SIN ?
WHAT MISERY...TIL' EARNESTLY REPENT ~
WHAT A CONFLICT ENTER IN WITH THE GOD, AND THE LOSS
OF WHAT WERE MEANT TO BE... TIL' SETTLE IT AT THE FOOT
OF THE CROSS !
O' JESUS, HIGHT PRIEST, THE ONE THAT INTERCEDES...
SO MANY OTHER DESCRIPTURES COULD DESCRIBE OF THE
KING...YET AT TIMES; THIS ONE OFTEN SEEMS SO FITTING ~
IT WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE...YOUR LOVE AND MERCY
THAT IS NO LONGER A MYSTERY; AS WAS FOR CENTURIES.
WHAT A SEARCHING OUT THAT HAS CONSUMED THE MIND,
CHANGING THE DIRECTION OF LIFE.
NO LONGER LOOK BEHIND, BUT LOOK UP...
FOR THE ONE SO DIVINE , AND KNOW THAT SOON WILL
COME AT THE APPOINTED TIME ~
BECAUSE YOU SEE...HAVE SPENT YEARS IN HOPE OF ANSWERS
THAT SEEMED THAT WOULD NEVER COME...
YET... THE FIRE OF LOVE WOULD STRIVE ON, TIL' THEY DID,
AND, WOULD SEARCH OUT, TIL' THE VERY END; IF HAD TO...
BECAUSE KNEW THAT YOU WOULD TIRE OF THE ASKING,
AND WOULD GRANT A HEART SO CONSUMED... IN THE HUNT
FOR TRUTH ~
WHAT A GREAT SPAN OF TIME HAS PASTED, BUT IT'S OK...
THE ANSWERS WERE WORTH THE LONG WAIT ~
I LOVE YOU, MORE THAN CAN FIND WORDS TO EVEN SAY ~
AS LISTEN TO SOME OF THE YOUNGER PREACHERS/TEACHERS
BY RADIO...
THEY FOCUS IN UPON THE MAN NAMED PAUL~
IN THE BOOK THAT AM STUDYING IN, I BELIEVE THAT THEY MUST
GET ALOT OF WHAT THEY SPEAK /TEACH...FROM SUCH TOO,
FROM A LEFT BEHIND 1956 BOOK.
THE IDEA OF SUCH UNITY, EXCITES THE HEART, AND SEEM TO
BE RIGHT THERE IN A PEW; AS THEY PRESENT PAUL'S EXAMPLES
LEFT FOR ME AND YOU.
HOW MANY OF US, WISH FOR MESSAGES OF GOOD NEWS,
AS ALL ELSE SEEMS TO BE BAD THINGS, TRYING TO COMSUME ?
BELIEVE THAT WE ALL ARE AWARE THAT ARE IN A BATTLE,
THAT WARS AGAINST THE VERY HEARTS, TRYING TO RIP AWAY
WHAT EACH IS STRIVING TO DO FOR THE GLORY OF THE LORD ~
AND IF FULLY HONEST...IT'S EASY TO LOSE HEART ~
CHURCH IS GREAT, YET WHAT'S IT LIKE THRU THE WEEK ,
WHERE THERE'S JUST YOU AND THE HEART'S HEAVENLY KING,
AND NO PEWS, OR ENTERING INTO A BUILDING ?
NO HILL TOP EXPERIENCES, OR SIGHTS OF TRANSFIGURING SCENES ?
NO BUILDING OF TEMPLES FOR THE THREE ?
WOULD THE LORD YET SAY THE SAME, AS HE AWOKE US OUT OF
SLEEP ?
WHY DO WE SEARCH OUT TRUTH ANYWAY ?
WHY ARE WILLING TO FIGHT AS IF LIFE DEPENDS UPON IT...
WHY SUCH BATTLES, WHEN THE HEART IS BENT UPON IT ?
WHY SEEK THE KINGDOM FIRST, AND IT'S BENEFITS ?
WHY MANY ROADS, YET FEW FIND IT ?
WHY STUDY HARD IN THE WORD DAILY, AND NOT JUST SUNDAY ?
WHY ARE IN PRAYER TIME...DAILY ?
PREPARING FOR A BATTLE, TAKES MUCH TIME AND TRAINING...
ON GROUND, IN AIR; IN ORDER TO WIN AGAINST THE ENEMIES,
AND IT'S ALSO TRUE IN THE SPIRITUAL FIGHT, WE ARE IN,
"INDIVIDUALLY"... AS WELL AS WHEN AMONG MANY IN UNITY.
THO' VAST CROWDS MAY COME FORTH, AT A MEETING...
OFTEN IT CAN ONLY BE FOR WHAT THEY ARE RECEIVING,
AND CONTINUE ON FOLLOWING AFTER; JUST FOR THAT REASON.
A HEART'S DEEP EXAMINATION IS VITAL, WITHIN EACH SOUL...
OF WHY EACH HAS BEEN CALLED OUT, AND GIVEN GIFT[S]
AS WAS OTHERS, THAT FOLLOWED EXAMPLES GIVEN FIRST,
BY THE APOSTLE PAUL ~
A GREAT COMPANY
A SHORT TIME AGO, WAS IN A STUDY, AND IT STOPPED ME IN
MY TRACKS...OFTEN GO BACK, JUST TO MAKE SURE THAT IT
HASN'T CHANGED IN THE FORM OF WRITTEN WORDS.
SO MUCH IS TAUGHT OR PREACHED ON, BUT DON'T REMEMBER
MUCH SPOKEN ON HEBREWS 11:40
MANY STUDY OF THE GREAT CLOUD OF WITNESSES, AND
MARVEL AT THEIR COURAGE,AND OF THEIR FAITH ,
AND OFTEN IT CAUSES US TO RE EXAMINE OUR FAITH TODAY.
THEY WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO A FUTURE GLORY,
AND WE ARE LOOKING FORWARD OF THE RETURNING...
SO IN ONE WAY, OUR FAITH AND THEIR'S IS SOMEWHAT
THE SAME.
ONE THING FOR SURE, THEY AND US ...
CLING IN FAITH, THAT SUSTAINS,
WHILE ENDURING EVIL; THAT ROARS AS ONE IN A GREAT CHASE !
SINCE WE HAVE THE VERY PRESENCE OF THE PRECIOUS
HOLY SPIRIT, AND THE WORD THAT IS SO ALIVE...
MUST NEVER LET THE FOCUS OF WINNING THE PRIZE...
BE OVERSHADOWED, AS LIVING IN THESE EVIL TIMES,
BUT RATHER OF... BY THE WORD...BEING SANCTIFIED~
O' THE HUNGER PAINS OF BEING AS OUR BELOVED CHRIST,
IS IT NOT TRULY AS AN ENDLESS FIGHT ?
SO OFTEN, MY SOUL THINKS...OF THIS, WILL I EVER ARRIVE ?
HOW MANY OTHERS, DO LIKEWISE ?
O' THE STRUGGLES, THE UPS AND DOWNS, SO IT SEEMS...
YET OF THE WHOLE TRUTH...WE HAVE NOT BEEN DEPRIVED,
AND IT MAKES MORE AWARE OF THE RISING OF THE TIDE
OF THE FORCE, THAT COMES ALIVE, AS A FALSE SHINING LIGHT.
IN THE OLD, REMEMBER WHAT GOD SAID TO ONE, NOT TO
RETURN TO WHERE WAS SENT, BUT ANOTHER CAME,
SAYING BY GOD HE WAS SENT...AND THE RESULTS AT THE END...
AND IT CAUSES A HOLY FEAR WITHIN~
SO MUCH, AS STUDY, COMES AS IF BY A STRONG WIND,
WARNING AGAINST...
YET MUCH HOPE, AS STUDY DEEPLY OF ABRAHAM.
IF HONEST, IS THERE A DESIRE, TO JUST HAVE A GLIMPSE
OF HIS THOUGHTS, AS HE WAS ALLOWED A GLIMPSE ?
AS SPEND YEARS IN THE PAGES, BOTH OLD, AND NEW...
IT'S LIKE BY ALL OF IT, BECOME CONSUMED WITH IMAGES
THAT TRULY ENCOURAGES US TO FOLLOW THRU ~
IF NOT FOR YOU, MAYBE FOR SOMEONE YOU KNOW ?
IT WAS A GOOD DAY, BUT SUDDENLY ALL GREW DARK,
IN CAME A WARNING OF AN APPROACHING STORM.
WHO WOULD THINK IT WOULD ALSO BE AS SUCH IN THE HEART?
O' LORD YOU KNOW THE HEART, YET IT SPOKE AS IF KNEW NOT
YOU.
YOUR WORD SPEAKS OF ASKING FOR WISDOM, NOT DOUBTING,
NOW, AM ASKING FOR YOUR PATIENCE, WHICH REALLY IS ONE'S
FAITH THAT MUST ABIDE IN, DURING THE STORM'S
FIERCE WIND...BUT; FAILED TO EXERCISE IN THE INNER MAN.
IT SEEMED THAT THE CROWN OF LIFE WAS LIFTED UP INTO THE
CENTER OF THE STORM'S EYE; FOUND NO WAY TO RESIST,
OR TO ESCAPE IT'S GRIP.
O' ONE OF MANY WORDS, YET OFTEN KEEP TUCKED AWAY
IN SECRET, OF WHAT DONOT SAY.
SO MANY TIMES, SEEM AS IF AM A TWO FACE.
LORD, SAY THAT YOU SEE THE HEART THAT LOVES YOU
ABOVE ALL THINGS...
OR OTHERWISE...WILL DIE IN SHAME, THIS VERY DAY ~
RISE THE SOUL, AND GIVE RENEWED STRENGTH,
GIVE FRESH WATER , IN ORDER TO DRINK,
FEED THE SOUL WITH WHAT THE RAVEN BRINGS ~
LET THE SPIRIT ARISE, AND RUN AGAIN IN THE RACE.
NEATH YOUR WINGS, MAY THE WIND BLOW, AND AS
LIKE AN EAGLE, CAN ONCE AGAIN SOAR .
O' LORD, KNOW YOUR LOVING KINDNESS AND DEPEND
UPON IT, AS MANY GREAT THINGS YOU HAVE SHOWN ~
YOUR WORD HAS BROUGHT FORTH, TRUST IN THE SOUL,
AND HAS CAUSED TO REJOICE.
LET THE FIRE ARISE, AND FILL ONCE AGAIN...
TRULY...HAVE KNELT AND REPENTED, AND ASK
TO BE RESTORED ~
CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT SENSING YOUR PRESENCE, O' LORD ~
WHAT IS FAITH...IF NEVER COMES COMPLETE HEALING
OF THE BODY ?
WHAT IF OF NO FAULT, BUT YET ARE HURTING ?
WILL YOU KEEP ON BELIEVING ?
HAVE EVER SAT IN THE SUN FOR YEARS JUST FOR THE
WARMTH OF IT'S RAYS ...
AND JUST WORSHIP, AND CONTINUE IN GIVING THANKS ?
IN THE SOUL IS WHERE HEALING AND FAITH MEET, AND KISS ~
IT'S WHERE UNDERSTAND THAT ONCE WAS A SLAVE,
AND WAS REDEEMED BY ONE... GIVING OF HIS GRACE,
BRINGING INTO YOUR HEART,THOUGHTS OF A YET
UNSEEN PLACE...WHERE BY, THERE WILL BE NO MORE PAIN.
KNOW THAT GOD CAN DO WHATEVER, WITH NO DOUBT...
YET LIKE MANY THAT KNEW, WHAT DYING IS ALL ABOUT,
WERE WILLING TO ENDURE WHATEVER, IN ORDER TO
SPEND AN ETERNITY WITH THEIR GOD ~
IT WAS SCRIPTURE LEFT, THAT ASSURES MANY OF TODAY,
AS WAS IN THE PAST...OF IF NOT !
SO MANY SCRIPTURES ARE LEFT, THAT CAN SEARCH OUT,
THAT STRENGTHENS TO ENDURE ANY KIND OF FIREY TRIAL,
WHEN FOCUS IN UPON THE LORD GOD'S DELIVERING POWER~
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WHY SEEM SO SURE OF WHAT HAVE TYPED...
BECAUSE OF WORDS OF A PREACHER/TEACHER ANSWERING
MORE THOROUGHLY OF THE WORDS OF HEBREWS TYPED
IN AN EARLIER POEM.
IN BOOK THAT AM IN...LESSON ON THE TONGUE, AND FOR
2 DAYS STRAIGHT...JUST WANTED TO HIDE THE EYES
FROM WHAT [SAINT] JAMES HAD TO SAY !
WITH EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON...WHO NEEDS THIS ANYWAY,
TIL' THIS MORNING, THE 25TH...HAD A GREAT-HEART -CHANGE ~
ONE INDIVIDUAL COLLECTED MANY NOTES, FROM MEN OF
OLD, AND INCLUDED THEIR QUOTES...AS WELL AS OF WHAT
JAMES SPOKE...AND AS READ, DID FIND SOME COMFORT,
BUT MOST OF ALL, WHAT IT MEANS TO REMAIN...HUMBLE ~
ONE QUOTE REALLY HIT HOME;SPEAKING OF; IN THE HOMES.
NO MATTER HOW MUCH LOVE THERE MIGHT BE THERE,
BURNING WORDS MAR THE HEART, AND WHILE THEY MAY NEVER
BE DISCUSSED AGAIN, A SCAR IS LEFT.
EVEN GREATER IS REMEMBERING ANOTHER QUOTE;
MY DAYS CONSUME AWAY LIKE SMOKE...
LIFE IS BUT A VAPOR;
OF TOMORROW...WHO CAN BOAST ?
THE CRY WENT UP ; O' LORD KEEP THIS SOUL HUMBLED ~
a very humble sincere poem...
AFTER ALL THE DARK CLOUDS, STORMS, THEN SHOWS UP
THE BRIGHTNESS OF THE SUN...ALMOST TOO MUCH FOR THE
EYES TO BEHOLD !
IF THIS IS WHAT IT'S LIKE NOW, WHAT WILL IT BE LIKE WHEN
OF "ALL" THE LORD'S GLORY...WE BEHOLD ?
ALWAYS SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT, BUT WHEN IT DOES BECOME
A REALITY...WILL OUR HEARTS BECOME AS THE ONE MAN IN
THE TEMPLE ?
SO EASY TO SING THE SONG NOW...BUT WHAT ABOUT THEN ?
HOW MANY OF US SEEM TO BE SO BENT UPON CONFESSING
ALL SIN, AND BEING CLEANSED, BECAUSE OF HIS LAWS SO
GRAFTED WITHIN ?
WORSHIP IS SWEET, AND IS LIKE CAPTURING A VISION OF THE
ETERNITY...AND KNOWING HIM IS THE PURPOSE OF THIS JOURNEY;
BUT REALITY IS ALSO KNOWING THAT AM NOTHING WITHOUT HIS
EVER POURED OUT GRACE AND MERCY ~
SUCH A PASSION ;TO JUST BE CALLED HIS BELOVED CHILDREN
IS MORE PRECIOUS THAN ALL OFFERED BY THE WORDLY ~
MAY BE NOW LIKE A GROWN UP, KNOWING MANY THINGS
OF THE SPIRITUAL REALM...FILLED WITH WISDOM AND GREAT
KNOWLEDGE...BUT IT WAS JOHN'S HUMBLENESS WHEN SEEN
THE LORD...THAT LEAVES A HEART IMPRESSION ;IN THE BOOK OF REVELATION.
LIKE A RIVER OVERFLOWING, IS THE THOUGHTS OF ANOTHER
CALLING JESUS , LORD AND MASTER...
OF JESUS CALLING US, SISTERS AND BROTHERS,
AND TO THESE OLD EYES...MOTHER.
NOW I TELL YOU...THIS DOES MAKE A POINT, A HEAVY ONE...
'SPECIALLY AS READ OF MARY, AND OF HER SONG SUNG.
GUESS WHAT DESIRE TO SAY THIS DAY...IS KNOW THAT HE
IS THE AWESOME DELIVERER ~
HE IS ALL THE ABOVE, AND MUCH MORE...TO ALL THAT KNOW
THAT ALL ELSE IS AS DUNG ...
AND WHEN THE HEART DESIRES MORE THAN
ANYTHING... JUST TO BE CALLED HIS BELOVED ~
THE LONGER THE WALK WITH THE LORD,
REALIZE THAT IT'S NOT EASY, BUT HARD .
WASN'T AWAKE FULLY TO WHAT WOULD FACE,
AND ASLEEP...TO THE IMPACT OF 1 WORD...OBEY,
AND; NOT ANY LONGER DEPENDING UPON SELF'S STRENGTH.
ALSO, THE MORE THE CONSCIENCE AWAKES...IT IS THE SAME ~
ONCE,THERE WAS A GREAT FEAR, AND WANTED ANOTHER TO
SPEAK TO THE LORD, ON ONE'S BEHALF...
BUT NOW AS CHILDREN, CAN APPROACH IN CONFIDENCE,
WHEN HAVE BEEN ENLIGHTENED IN THE INNER MAN.
BUT... MUST EVER BE AWAKE OF...WHAT EVER WE ASK,
WE RECEIVE OF HIM...BECAUSE WE "KEEP" HIS
COMMANDMENTS.
IS NOT THIS HARD...WHEN THE GREATEST DESIRE BECOMES.
ONE OF BEING EVER PLEASING IN THE FATHER GOD'S EYES ...
AND CAUSES DETERMINATION TO WALK, AS DID OUR CHRIST ,
WHOSE SPIRIT ...WITHIN AWAKENS THE SLEEPY MIND.
KNOWING THE TRUE GOD, AND THE WORD "KNOW" IS QUOTED
OVER AND OVER AGAIN...AS READ...
O' THE AWAKING...THE REALNESS OF WHAT THIS MEANS ~
MAYBE EVEN GREATER, CAN SEEM THE WARNINGS TOO,
AND CRY OUT ...O' LORD, MAY THE WALK BE TRULY
ONE ...WALKING IN SPIRIT AND TRUTH ~
IN THIS WAS REVEALED THE LOVE OF GOD, TOWARD US,
BECAUSE THAT GOD SENT HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON
INTO THE WORLD, THAT WE MIGHT "LIVE THROUGH HIM."
BY THIS WE KNOW THAT WE LOVE THE CHILDREN OF GOD,
WHEN WE LOVE GOD, AND KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS...
AND HIS COMMANDMENTS ARE NOT GRIEVOUS~
GUESS WHAT DESIRE TO EXPRESS THIS DAY IS...
DO EVER CRY OUT TO NEVER BE A STUMBLING BLOCK,
CAUSING ANY TO STUMBLE...IN MAKING KNOWN OF GOD,
BUT RATHER, WALK AS DID JESUS; THE SON OF GOD ~
DO HUMBLY CONFESS; THIS IS HARD...
AND,KEEPS EVER MINDFUL, DURING THIS WALK
WITH THE SAVIOUR, MASTER...AND LORD .
NONE WATERED THE FLOWERS, THIS MORNING THEY WERE
SAGGING, LIFELESS !
O' MY LORD, SO OFTEN AM LIKE THE FLOWERS, SO THIRSTY
FOR A FRESH DRINK...
AND OPENED THE WORD, IN ORDER TO BEGIN THIS NEW DAY.
THIS GOD OF THE OLD TESTAMENT, INSPIRES AS READ OF
HIS MIGHTY POWER...THRU LIPS OF MEN, CAME POETRY.
IT CAPTURES THE EYES, AND SEARCH OUT THE MEANINGS,
OF WHAT IT ALL MEANS.
SO HUNGER FOR THAT PLACE, YET SEEMINGLY SO FAR OFF,
CAN NOT FIND EASE WHILE HERE, AMONG SO MUCH SORROW,
AND SEARCH OUT DEEPER MEANING OF THE GIVEN LAWS,
OF THE GIVER...THAT IF MUST...WILL OF HIMSELF EXALT,
WHEN MAY SEEM FORGOTTEN BY HIS OWN CALLED, TO DO SO.
O' LIKE A WELL OF WATER, SO DEEP, BECOMES THE HEART
OF THE THIRSTY ~
LIKE A LIT TORCH, IN THE HEART...A ETERNAL FLAME BURNING,
THE SOUL'S YEARNING, FOR THE KING'S RETURNING.
WHAT DESIRE... FOR ALL TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE LORD OF
HOSTS...AND CAN BRING COMFORT UNTO YOUR PEOPLE,
WHEN THERE SEEMS NO HOPE ~
ALL DOES FADE...IN COMPARSION TO HEARING YOUR VOICE ~
IN THE SOUL ARISES WORSHIPFUL SONGS ~
ALL SEEMS AS DRY DESERTS, COMPARED TO THE HEAVENLY
PLACE, WHERE YOU DO ABODE ~
ALL IS BUT AS DUST; HERE TODAY, GONE TOMORROW...
AND SO PUT THE HEART'S TRUST FULLY INTO THE WORDS
SPOKEN BY THE LORD ~
O' KEEP THE EYES UPWARD, TOWARD THE WAITING HOME,
AS SO EASY, IT IS TO LOSE THE WAY,AS TRAVEL ALONG,
AND SO MANY WALLS SEEM BUILT ALONG THE ROAD...
WHERE THERE IS NO WELCOMING INTO THE DOOR,
INVITING IN TO LINGER AWHILE...
O' KEEP OUR HEART'S DOOR EVER OPEN,
WELCOMING IN OUR JESUS, OUR LORD, OUR GOD ~
HAS THERE EVER BEEN A TIME, AS IN STUDY, PUT THE HANDS
ON THE FACE AND CRY OUT...
O' GOD KEEP ME IN THE CENTER OF THY WILL ?
HAS THERE BEEN TIMES, THAT ARRIVED AT A CERTAIN PLACE,
KNOWING NOT WHY, BUT IT IS SUDDENLY REVEALED,
AS DO ENCOUNTER ANOTHER, THAT IS IN NEED OF HELP ?
LIKE A CIRCLE, THAT HAS NO BEGINNING OR END TO IT,
SEEMS LIKE ARE...AS HIS WITNESSES.
SO INVISIBLE, YET HIS TIMING FOR EACH IS SO PERFECT...
AND KNOW THAT IT WAS THE WHISPER, BY WHICH WERE SENT.
AND WOULD HAD MISSED A BLESSING, IF HAD NOT WENT ~
MANY TIMES BECOME SO OVERWHELMED BY HOW ALL DOES
WORK OUT...IN THE END ~
IT CAUSES A HUMBLENESS, AND HIDE THE FACE IN THE HANDS ~
WHAT ABOUT THE TIMES, JUST SPEAK UP TO THE FATHER GOD
FROM WITHIN YOUR SPIRIT UNTO HIS...
AND, OF ALL SPOKEN... NEVER SHARE WITH OTHERS ...
BUT KEEP IT AS SECRET, BETWEEN YOU AND HIM ?
YET ISN'T IT WONDERFUL, HOW OPEN ALL IS, IN THE TEXT,
THAT WAS LEFT, WHERE BY... FOLLOWING GENERATIONS
COULD SEE, HOW THEY AND THEIR GOD WOULD MEET ~
NONE REMAINED THE SAME, ONCE MET WITH THEIR GOD ...
CHANGE ALWAYS CAME ABOUT ~
WHAT CHANGES AND TURNS ONE IN DIRECTIONS SO
DIFFERENT, THAN HAD IN ONE'S OWN MIND ?
WHAT POWER IS IT, THAT LEADS AWAY OR TOWARD
A CERTAIN PLACE, AT A CERTAIN TIME ?
SO INVISIBLE, YET THE POWER OF THE GRIP HOLDS AND BINDS,
BY A HIGHER POWER... SO PERFECT AND DIVINE ~
WHAT IS LIFE ANYWAY...IF HAD NOT YOUR MEETING PLACE
WITH THE LORD... AND WHERE WOULD YOU BE TODAY ?
O' THE CRY BECOMES STRONGER, AS THINK UPON THIS,
"KEEP THE SOUL AND HEART IN THE CENTER OF YOUR WILL"
FOCUS ON FAMILY HAS REVEALED A SIDE OF PRESIDENT REAGAN,
THAT THE NEWS MEDIA HAS FAILED TO DO.
AND EARLIER, AS IN STUDY OF THE 10 COMMANDMENTS THIS DAY,
THOUGHT UPON HOW THE FEAR OF THE LORD...HAS CHANGED,
AS DAYS DRAG ON INTO MONTHS, YEARS, IN AMERICA.
~O' LORD, WHAT YOU SPEAK, IN FORBIDING THIS OR THAT~
NEVER LET THIS INDIVIDUAL GET PAST FORGETTING THAT.
IN THIS HOUSE IS PICTURES OF 3 GENERATIONS OF WOMEN OF THE PAST,
NOW THIS WOMAN HAS 3 GENERATIONS , THAT PRAY FOR, AND IT'S SUCH
AN EVER REMINDFUL TASK .
CAN TYPE WORDS TO A FEW... YET IT IS BY JUST ONE; AS AN INDIVIDUAL,
YET THE BIBLE SEEMS TO BE AS SUCH TOO, UNTO EACH AND EVERY SOUL !
UNTO ISRAEL, AS WELL AS WE GENTILES...IS THIS NOT SO ?
IT CAN MAKE A POWERFUL DIFFERENCE AND CAUSE TO HUMBLE ~
IT CAN CHANGE EACH ONE'S EVERY SELF- THOUGHTS,
IT CAN RIP AWAY, ALL FORMER DESIRE OF SELF-BEING EXALTED;
IT MAKES AN INDIVIDUAL, REALIZE THAT GOD IS IN CONTROL ~
IT MAKES REAL OF THE GENERATIONS, THAT MAY LEAVE BEHIND,
AND THIS MAY BE WHEN THE HEART CRIES OUT, O WHAT WILL
THEY BE LIKE ?
LEARN THAT IT'S NOT THE YOU OR ME,THAT IS THE GREATEST OF
CONCERNS ANYMORE...BUT RATHER, OF THE SOULS OF "OTHERS" ~
O' TO KNOW THAT THEY WILL FOLLOW NOT MAYBE IN OUR
FOOTSTEPS, BUT RATHER, IN THE FOOTPRINTS EVER SET BY JESUS,
WITH A HUNGRY HEART...OF BEING A FAITHFUL SERVANT, OF THE KING.
WITH FAMILIES WILD SPREAD, TOUCH EACH ONE INDIVIDUALLY...
AND SPEAK BLESSINGS,
AS KNOW THAT SOMEDAY, WON'T BE HERE TO DO SO...
WILL GO TO JOIN GENERATIONS, NOW GONE ON, BEFORE ME.
AS IN STUDY OF THE 10 COMMANDMENTS, AND OF WHAT GOD YET DOES
FORBID...PACED THE FLOOR, AND DID ASK HIM, FOR WORDS...
Humbly sent...
AS DAY CAME FORTH, THE TREES ARE NOT HIGH ENOUGH TO
HIDE THE GRAY AND WHITE CLOUDS THAT ARE SO LIKE GREAT
MAJ ESTIC MOUNTAINS TO THE EYES.
ALL HAS HERE ON EARTH BEEN WATERED BY THE RAIN,
AND MOISTURE FILLS THE VERY AIR.
THE QUIET, IS SO SWEET, NONE STIRRING ANYWHERE.
LOOK OUT THE WINDOW, AND WATCH THE CLOUDS MOVE
SLOWLY, YET NOT MAKING A SOUND,
AND REMINDS OF THE TIME, OF SO LONG AGO,
LEADING ONES ON.
AS AM IN A STUDY,REMINDS OF, ABEL, AND THE SHEPHERD OF
OUR SOULS ~
CAN'T GET AWAY FROM, WHAT FROM THE BEGINNING OF
THE STORY OF OLD, UP TO THE RETURN OF THE SHEPHERD
OF OUR SOULS, DOES UNFOLD.
OF HOW VITAL, IT IS TO EVER KEEP SO CLOSE,
AND OF HEARING HIS VOICE ALONE ~
NO RELATIONSHIP CAN EVER TRULY FORM, IF GO FAR FROM
HEARING HIS CALL ~
HOW MANY OF US, UNDERSTAND IF DO, THE END RESULTS ?
NO SHADE, NO STREAMS OF WATER, NO PEACE FOUND ~
IT CAUSES SUCH ALARM,AND FEAR ENGULFS ~
OFTEN MAY THINK RESTORING OF HEALTH IS NUMBER 1,
BUT, LATER LEARN, IT'S THE RESTORING OF WHAT WAS LOST ,
THE PROTECTION , FOLLOWING BEHIND, REMAINING CLOSE.
IF OUR SHEPHERD HAD NOT OVERCAME, WHERE WOULD
LIE OUR HOPE ?
YET IT IS SO, THAT WE HAVE A HOPE ~
HE IS AS A KING SETTING A PLACE AT HIS TABLE,
HE IS THE COMPASSIONATE HOST ~
AS LIKE DAVID, HE SHOWS GREAT KINDNESS UNTO THE
CRIPPLED ~
O' THE ANOINTED ONE, THE SON...PRIEST AND KING...
OUR LORD JESUS, IN THE HEAVENLIES ~
THO' TIME SEEMS SO LONG, AND SILENT, FOR ALL IN
WAITING...
KNOW THAT LABORING, DOES HAVE IT'S ENDING ~
UNTIL THEN...KEEP ON, KEEPING ON, IN FAITH; BELIEVING ~
CAME TO CLOSE OF A STUDY OF "HEAR, O ISRAEL"...
AND THEN MET THE EYES...NEXT STUDY/ THE 23RD PSALM ~
WHY IS IT, THAT ANY WORDS BY DAVID SEEM TO LEAP OFF
OF THE PAGES ?
IT WAS REPEATED DURING A FUNERAL, JUST LAST WEEK,
AND MANY VIEWED THE CLOSING CHAPTER OF A MAN'S LIFE.
THE LAST GIFT GIVEN, WAS TEARS OF THE WIFE, NOW LEFT
BEHIND.
THE SUN SET BEHIND THE MOUNTAINS, SO PERFECTLY TIMED ~
DOES IT SEEM AS IF THE GIANTS HAVE RETURNED TO WAR
AGAINST, ONE MORE TIME...[?]
AS READ OF ALL THE NEWS HEADLINES ?
WHY DOES PSALM 23, SO BRING COMFORT AND INNER REST,
UNTO ANY THAT ARE OF [IN] JESUS CHRIST ~
OTHER QUESTIONS DO ASK...AFTER HEARING A GODLY MAN,
WHERE HAVE THE ALTARS BEEN HID AWAY ?
WHAT HAS TAKEN THEIR PLACE ?
HOW MANY TEARS NEVER WET , WHAT ONCE DID,
SO QUIETED, SEEMS THE WORD "REPENT."
WHERE CAN ANY TRULY FIND "REST ?"
DO WE NOW, SEEM TO BE THE FOREIGNERS, IN THIS LAND ,
AS WATCH ALL BEING STRIPPED AWAY, BY VOTES...
THAT MUST BE AS A SLAP IN THE FACE OF HOLY GOD ?
O' EVEN MORE SO THAN EVER, IS FOUND COMFORT,
AS READ DAVID'S WORDS...IN THE 23 PSALM ,
AS THE EYES CATCH THE TITLE/ "THE SHEPHERD'S PSALM."
IT ALREADY DRAWS THE HEART INTO "THE RESTING ZONE"...
FROM ALL THAT TRIES TO STEAL AWAY, THE JOY OF THE SOUL ~
now will return to fill the eyes with a lesson following the last,
"HEAR, O ISRAEL."
ALL THE NEWS OF THIS DAY...CHANGES... AND A WOW
AND OF 3 CONVICTIONS, AND 1 NOT CHARGED,
DURING THE PRESENT WAR.
HAVE YOU EVER HAD THE HEART TO BEAT, EVEN BEFORE
ARISING FOR THE DAY, WITH SENSE OF KNOWING THAT THIS
MAY BE, IS GONNA' BE, ONE OF THOSE DAYS ?
SO MUCH THOUGHT HAD SETTLED WITH THE LORD ABOUT
MANY THINGS; YET THE PAST SEEMS TO HAVE WOKEN FROM
A DEEP SLEEP; SAYING, HERE I AM AGAIN,
AND THE 1ST THING THE HEART DOES, IS CRY OUT,
"HAVE I SINNED?"
SO OFTEN THIS CAN COME "AFTER" HAVE SENSED IN THE SPIRIT
SUCH A DEEP TIME, IN THE PRESENCE OF BEYOND THIS WORLD,
AS STUDY IN THE WORD.
IT'S LIKE A WHIRLWIND THAT DOES OCCUR,
BY THE ONE THAT IS FULL OF ANGER, AND WANTS TO WAR,
AGAINST ANY THAT HAS BEEN DELIVERED FROM THE CURSE.
O' WHAT A STRUGGLE IT IS...COULDN'T EVEN THINK
UPON THE USUAL VERSE, TO SPEAK, THAT HAD SO LONG AGO
LEARNED !
SEEKED FOR AN ANSWER, BEFORE DROWNED IN IT ALL,
NEEDED HELP, AND OPENED TO PSALM 104, FOR COMFORT,
THEN ON TO PS. 105; WHERE HAD MARKED VERSE 45...
BEING THE REASON WHY !
THO' FOR THAT TIME DO KNOW...YET IS IT NOT YET TRUE ALSO ?
IF ANY DOESN'T REJOICE IN THE LORD'S WORKS,
HE, HIMSELF WILL REJOICE !
PRAISE TO THE LORD, FOR HIS ETERNAL FAITHFULNESS,
AND, WILL BLESS THE LORD, WITH MY SOUL ~
MADE A COMMITTMENT, TO FINISH A BOOK STUDY...
THE LONGER DO GO INTO IT, THE HARDER IT DOES GET !
IT'S LIKE A STRANGER IN THE PAST, REVEALING ONE'S
MOST SECRET THOUGHTS... THO' HAVE NEVER MET ~
ON THE HEART, IT IS MAKING A GREAT IMPACT !
REALIZE THAT GOD WILL USE WHAT HE DOES SO CHOOSE,
IN ORDER, TO DRAW OUT THE REAL YOU , EVEN IN A STUDY BOOK.
O' THE LONGING OF THE HEARTS THAT DESIRES TO BE FILLED
WITH FULNESS OF THE MEANINGS OF THE BEATITUDES,
YET NEVER DREAM OF HOW THEY CAN ALSO REBUKE ~
O' THE SOUL CRIES OUT;
LET NOT THE WATERFLOOD OVERFLOW AND DROWN ME,
NEITHER LET THE DEEP SWALLOW ME UP, AND LET NOT
THE PIT SHUT HER MOUTH UPON ME.
REPROACH HAS BROKEN MY HEART, AND HAS RIPPED AWAY
ALL THAT HELD ON TO.
O' LORD...THERE IS NONE THAT KNOWS,AS YOU KNOW...
AND IT IS SO TERRIBLY PAINFUL... AS YOU SO EXPOSE ,
UNTO ANY THAT IN THE HEART TRULY SEEK OUT YOUR
INFINITE COUNSEL ~
BUT NEVER THE LESS...WILL DRAW NEAR, AND HEAR,
AS DEAD BECOMES A SPIRIT...THAT REFUSES TO HEAR.
MUST RUN UNTO THE LORD, THAT HAS BLEST WITH
GENERATIONS, OF THE SOUL...PLEADING WITH HIM,
THAT WILL RESTRAIT FROM CAUSING ANY TO STUMBLE ~
I MUST HEAR WHAT GOD THE LORD DOES SPEAK ~
IT IS A CRY, THAT DRIVES TO THE KNEES~
IT IS ...IT IS SO...
[Had typed a poem a while back, hid it in the book, Paul said why ?]
WHY DOES IT HURT, DURING ANY KIND OF LOSS OR WAR,
WHY SO HARD TO ERASE EVERY ARISING THOUGHT,
REGARDLESS OF WHICH WAS RIGHT OR WRONG ?
WITH THIS ALL...RUN TO THE LORD !
SEEMS THAT THE HUMAN SIDE TRIES TO GO FORWARD,
YET, OF THE PAST; KEEPS COMING BACK, LIKE ONE OF DEATH,
THAT HASN'T DIED COMPLETELY YET.
OUT OF SIGHT ...OUT OF MIND, AN OL' SAYING...
BUT IF HONEST...IT ARISES FROM THE GRAVE...
IT CAN BE AS A BODY IN PAIN; HOPING FOR A BETTER DAY.
OFTEN IT'S ALIKE IN HOW GOD CAN WOUND, THEN MEND,
AND CAN'T HELP BUT THINK OF THE FRIEND, THAT DIED FOR
MANY'S SINS.
TRULY IS THERE AN END, OF ALL THESE STRUGGLES ?
O' FRIEND OF THE SOUL, FOR LOSS...THE HEART MOANS...
RUN TO YOU, O' ONE THAT NOW SITS UPON THE THRONE,
AS COMES A TIME; MUST FROM THE HEART, POUR OUT THE SOUL.
WHAT ABOUT THE HUMAN HEART, SOME WOULD SEE IT AS
A WEAKNESS, AM SURE...
BUT HOW MANY YEARS, AND BATTLES, HAVE YOU ENDURED ?
DOES IT MEAN, THAT DON'T UNDERSTAND THE ENGRAFTED WORD,
NO IT ONLY MEANS UNDERSTANDING OF THE EFFECTS OF
THE LOSS... DUE TO WARS.
[poem]
IF ONLY COULD SEE OF HOW THE FATHER GOD HAD GENTILES
IN MIND...THRU OUT TIME,
HIS MESSAGE OF UNIVERSAL LOVE, FOR ALL MANKIND ~
IS IT; BEING BORN IN A CERTAIN NATION, OR FAMILY...
OR; RAISED IN A CERTAIN RELIGION ?
WHAT COULD BE GREATER, THAN THE GLORIOUS VISITATION,
OR ..THE REVELATION OF THE ALMIGHTY CREATOR ,
OFFERING SALVATION, UNTO ANY AND ALL NATIONS ?
WHAT IS PRICELESS; COMPARED TO THE CONTINUING STORY
THAT CAUSES DEATH TO SELF-CENTERED LIVING...
UNTO A NEW BIRTH OF RESURRECTION ...
OR ... OF JOHN'S WORDS SO DIVINELY WRITTEN ?
IS IT REALLY MORE IMPORTANT IN BEING RIGHT...
OR BEING A WITNESS, BEARING THE GOOD NEWS
OF THE GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST ?
This is what had hid in a book, that had boughten in 2001,
and was reminded in the heart, by another, by way of radio,
so; ran and once again,opened and read , during the struggle...
"THE COVENANT STORY OF THE BIBLE."
WHEN COMES THE TIME, THAT ARE NO LONGER WALKING ALONE ?
WHEN COMES THE TIME; THAT TRULY ...YOU DO KNOW ?
WHEN DOES IT SEEM THAT EVERY WALL IS BROKEN DOWN,
AND CAN ENTER IN TO THE VERY PRESENCE OF YOUR LORD ?
WHEN IS IT, HE NO LONGER SEEMS AS ONE INVISIBLE ?
WHEN COMES THE TIME, JUST TALK TO HIM , AS WOULD YOUR
CLOSEST FRIEND ?
WHEN ...FINALLY; FINALLY UNDERSTAND, ALL THAT ONCE
FOR SO LONG...SEEMED SO IMPOSSIBLE ~
SO AM TAKING TIME OUT TO SAY "THANK YOU" TO THE GREAT
APOSTLE PAUL...AS AM SO VERY GRATEFUL...
FOR ALL HE WROTE ~
EVERY THING HAS A BEGINNING AND AN END...
AND HOW PERFECT WAS THE LAST LESSON OF STUDY...
THE BOOK OF REVELATION...EXCEPT TIL' THE WORDS OF
THE MEASUREMENTS ...WHICH WILL LEAVE TO ONES THAT
UNDERSTAND THEM.
BEING A BRIDE; DOESN'T FOCUS IN UPON THE WIDTH OR LENGHT
OF THE PLACE; AS DOES HAVING ONE'S NAME IN PRINT,
IN THE BOOK OF THE LAMB...
THE LAYING ON OF HANDS, BY ONE'S HEART FRIEND,
WELCOMING IN, TO ABIDE FOREVER WITH HIM ~
FOR YEARS, THE STRUGGLES WILL TOO FADE AS LIKE THE
SUN BEHIND THE MOUNTAINS,
AND THE THIRST FELT, AS IN DRY DESERTS...
AS, WILL BE WITH THE ONE OF EVER LIVING WATERS ~
NO MORE BRIDGES TO CROSS, NO MORE BATTLES FOUGHT~
AT TIMES, SEEMED HIS GLORY WAS SO NEAR, IN LIFE...
YET IN HIS VERY PRESENCE...A SONG OF PRAISE WILL ARISE
AS NEVER BEFORE; ONCE IN THE REALNESS OF THE FRIEND
THAT GAVE HIS LIFE...FOR MINE.
THE DREAMS, THE VISIONS THAT ANY MAY HAVE HAD...
CAN'T COMPARE TO WHAT WAS IN THE MIND OF THE LAMB ~
O' THE WAITING HE TOO HAD, WAITING FOR THE COMMAND,
WHEREBY...THE FATHER WOULD SAY...GO TO GATHER THEM ~
THO' ONLY SIMPLE THOUGHTS , MAY SO EXPRESS...
ONE THING DO KNOW; OF WHAT IT'S LIKE WHEN MISS OTHER
BELOVED FRIENDS, AND THE LEAPING HEART JOY, WHEN DO
SEE THEM ONCE AGAIN ~
ONES THAT ARE CENTERED IN UPON THE COMING EVENT ~
THE LAST EVENT, OF THE HEAVENLY ONE SENT ~
WHEREBY...NO MORE TEARS EVER AGAIN ~
O' THE HEART LEAPS WITH JOY, AS WAIT FOR THE ONE,
THAT WILL RETURN...JESUS, THE MOST INTIMATE FRIEND ~
CRIED OUT FOR HELP, AND MANY TIMES IT HAS COME
FROM OTHERS SENT THIS WAY; AND ONCE AGAIN YESTERDAY !
A MAN THAT HAD NEVER MET, TOLD ME ALL THINGS,
AND ALL COULD THINK OF, WAS THE MAN THAT SPOKE TO
A WOMAN AT THE WELL...JESUS WAS HIS NAME.
HE SAID THAT PAIN IS ONLY ENTRUSTED TO OTHERS,
THAT THE LORD GIVES...KNOWING THAT THEY WILL
ENDURE IT, IN FAITH.
A YOUNGER WOMAN CALLED, AND ASKED IF COULD
COME OVER, AND VOICE HER MESSAGE THAT WILL
SPEAK BEFORE A GROUP OF WOMEN, AND A FEW MEN,
AND SAID THAT THIS HOME IS AS A REFUGE, THAT
WELCOMES OTHERS TO LINGER AWHILE.
SENT OUT THE SHORT LETTER, AND THO' KNOW NOT
IF IT WILL BE SENT BACK UPOPENED, OR WILL BE READ...
BUT HAVE NO REGRET IN SENDING IT.
OFTEN DOES ANYONE OTHER THAN ME, WONDER OF WHY
ALL TAKES PLACE AS IT DOES...
OR WONDER WHY GOD SO LOVES, AND REFUSES TO GIVE UP,
UPON US ?
WHY DOES HE TRUST IN US...WHEN IT IS US; THAT IS SUPPOSE
TO FULLY TRUST IN HIM ?
WHO CAN UNRAVEL COMPLETELY... THE MYSTERY ?
WHAT LOVE IS THIS, THAT REFUSES TO TURN AWAY,
AND WAITS UPON THE SUBJECT OF HIS AFFECTION,
TO RETURN UNTO, THEIR RIGHTFUL PLACE ?
IT SEEMS THAT HE GIVES NOT HIMSELF A CHOICE IN LOVE,
AND OFTEN IT SEEMS THAT IT'S ALSO... SO WITH HIS
SUBJECT OF CLAY !
ALL THE QUESTIONS THAT COME TO ONE'S MIND OFTEN
GOES UNANSWERED, UNEXPLAINED.
LIKE A SEA, THE RUSHING WAVES, WITH SUCH FORCE COMES
INLAND...AND ALL IS TAKEN OUT INTO THE DEPTHS,
SO IT SEEMS, AS THE EYES WATCH THE EVENT.
WHY IS THE MIND SO CAPTURED, AND FILLED WITH WONDER
OF ALL THAT CAN'T FULLY UNDERSTAND ?
O' SO MUCH DESIRE, AND IT CAUSES TO SEEK OUT SO MUCH,
ONLY TO REALIZE THAT ARE ONLY AS DUST, AND WILL RETURN
SOMEDAY TO DUST.
WHY IS IT THAT 1 BOOK CAN HAVE SUCH POWER OVER SO
MANY...AND LIVES WERE GIVEN... TO KEEP IT'S FLAME LIT,
CHANGING GENERATIONS , THAT WEREN'T EVEN BORN YET ?
WHY WILL IT NEVER BE DESTROYED...BUT EVER READ ?
WHY DOES ALL THE FORCES OF HELL FAIL...
AND CAN'T SEE...THAT THEIR POWER WILL NOT AVAIL ?
LIKE A RUSHING WIND, FILLING THE SOUL WITH WORDS,
A TRUST FLOWS INWARD, AND CAUSES TO ENDURE...
THE MAN ALSO TOLD ME ONE OTHER THING...
ESPECIALLY CONCERNING THE FACT... OF HATING SELF !
AND I FILLED THE TIME, MEDITATING UPON WHAT HE MEANT.
IT'S SO HARD FOR ME TO COME TO A CONCLUSION OF THINGS ~
WONDER IF ANYONE ELSE FINDS IT HARD TOO ~
THERE IS NOT A HELL SO FIERCE, AS NOT UNDERSTANDING
THE DESTUCTIVENESS OF THAT...OR OF UNWORTHINESS OF LOVE.
IT'S LIKE ARE ALREADY IN A FURANCE, BEING BURNED UP ~
WHAT DOES IT MEAN IN THE SONG MANY MAY SING...
GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME ?
WHAT DOES IT MEAN, THAT DON'T UNDERSTAND...
AND ARRIVES THE MEANING, THE NEXT DAY AS SPOKEN
BY ANOTHER MAN ?
WHY IS GOD SO GOOD ABOUT HAVING A WITNESS THAT EXPLAINS
WHAT YOU HUNGERED TO KNOW, IN ORDER TO FULLY GRASP
WHAT IT MEANT , THE VERY NEXT DAY ?
WHY DO ANY OF US EVEN PRAY ?
WHAT DOES IT MEAN, WHEN WE SAY, "HAVE THINE OWN WAY
O' LORD" ...YET CONTINUE ON IN A DESTRUCTIVE COURSE ?
HOW DID WE GET WHERE WE FINALLY ARRIVE, TO A CERTAIN
POINT, OF WHAT LOVE CAN DO, BECAUSE OF GOD BEING GOOD ?
IT'S GOD'S GOODNESS, THAT WILL COME FORTH...
IT'S HIS LOVE, THAT CAUSES A DIFFERENT DIRECTION,
AND CHANGES THE FORMER COURSE.
IF HE SO LOVED, AND AS UNWORTHY AS WE ALL ARE...
WILL HE NOT ALSO REPLACE THE FLAMES OF FIRE...
INTO DIFFERENT THOUGHTS, AND DESIRES ?
WILL LOVE TRANSFORM, FROM WHAT ONCE WAS ?
WILL NOT HATE, BE REPLACED WITH HEAVENLY LOVE ?
YET, MUST REMEMBER TOO...
OF HIS...HE ALSO WILL REBUKE...BECAUSE OF LOVE ~
SELF -LOVE WILL SELF-DESTRUCT...
BUT THE LOVE HE POURS WITHIN, BY THE FLAME OF FIRE,
THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH...NONE CAN QUENCH ~
IT IS A GOOD THING THAT WE CAN'T SEE WHAT MAY TAKE PLACE,
WHATEVER ...THAT HAS NOT YET TAKEN PLACE.
LIVES ARE FILLED WITH SO MANY UNEXPECTED HAPPENINGS,
'SPECIALLY FOR ANY THAT ARE STRIVING, WALKING IN FAITH ~
CAN REFLECT UPON THE YESTERDAYS; THIS IS VERY TRUE...
YET HOW MANY OF US CAN SEE WHAT LIES AHEAD FOR ME AND YOU ?
TODAY IS ALL WE HAVE, AND HOPE LIES IN WHAT GOD CAN DO ~
AS PONDER UPON THIS, MUST CONFESS AM THANKFUL,
AS CAN TRUST IN HIS PROMISES; AS HE IS GOD,AND SO...
NO MATTER WHAT THE DAY BRINGS FORTH, IN THE LIVES WE LIVE,
UPON HIM...WILL DEPEND...AS HE IS GOD; FAITHFUL AND TRUE ~
CAN WE NOT LOOK BACK, AND SEE WHAT HE HAS ALREADY DONE,
AND CAN WITH CONFIDENCE, KNOW HE WILL SUPPLY ALL THAT
HE PROMISED, THAT HE WOULD ~
OFTEN THINK IT'S THE I, THAT LOSES TOUCH WITH HIM...
AND CONFESS OPENLY...I AM AS ONE OF THEM.
SO MUCH IS PUT FORTH, BEFORE US TO DAILY ACCOMPLISH...
AND LOSE SIGHT OF WHAT HE WANTS TO ACCOMPLISH
THRU US ~ THAT ARE SO COVERED UNDER THE BLOOD ~
AWOKE THIS DAY...AND DID MEDITATE...
REMEMBERING LACK OF PRAYERS OFFERED UP YESTERDAY !
AND MADE SURE THAT IT WOULD BE DONE... FIRST THIS DAY ~
WAS SO BUSY BLESSING OTHERS, EVEN MAYBE ONES THAT
HAD THOUGHT TOWARDS, AS ENEMIES... IN FAR PAST DAYS...
UNTO THE LORD, THAT "ALREADY KNOWS ALL THINGS."
IN THE HEART, GAVE THANKS, UNTO THE FATHER GOD...
FOR THE REMINDER...OF THE BLOOD THAT SO COVERS ~
WHAT WOULD ANY OF US DO, IF NOT FOR VOICES OF OTHERS,
DAILY SPEAKING ...HIS PROMISES UNTO OTHERS ?
IF NO RADIO, TV, OR ANYTHING OF COMMUNICATION...
LEFT ALL ALONE, AND NOTHING, BUT SURROUNDED BY NITE'S
OF DARKNESS...WOULD WE TRULY CONTINUE TO TRUST ?
HAD TO EXAMINE THE SOUL... WHERE DOES LIE ONE'S HOPE ?
ALL IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER, HAS BEEN THRU THE STORMS,
WHEREBY...SUFFERED SOME KIND OF LOSS...
DREAMS DASHED, VISIONS LOST...
BUT MUST NEVER FORGET; WHO DIED ON THE CROSS ALL ALONE ~
AND ALSO;OF DAVID'S WORDS..IN THE 23RD PSALM /IN THE BIBLE ~
"LOOKING FOR"... IS INTERESTING WORDS...
JUST WHAT ARE WE LOOKING FOR ?
AND WHAT IS... YET...THE LORD LOOKING FOR ?
THERE HAS BEEN WARS...AND WILL ALWAYS BE WARS,
AND THERE WILL ALWAYS BE BUILT UP WALLS .
MAYBE GIVE TOO MUCH GLORY TO THE ONE THAT DESIRES
FOR THE SOULS TO MEDITATE IN FEAR OF... INSTEAD OF
GOD GIVEN STRENGHT AND POWER ?
THEN THERE ARE ONES THAT MAKE YOU FEEL LESS; THAN THEY
THINK THEY ARE .
STUDY MADE, SHOWS THAT MANY WERE GIVEN MUCH,
"BUT"...OF OWN SELF GAIN, AND GLORY...BECAME A FIRE IN THE HEART'S DESIRE... OF RISING IN HIGHER POWER;
MORE SO
THAN FOR THE POSITION OR MONEY.
SOME HOW, SEEMS THAT MAY BE TRULY THE MIND OF EVIL,
THE ONE REFERRED TO AS THE DEVIL... GIVEN ENTRANCE
INTO THE HEARTS OF PEOPLE, THAT CAN CAUSE OTHERS IN
FEAR... TO TREMBLE.
[my] PAUL MADE A REMARK THAT MADE SENSE; OF THE LACK
OF BUILT WALLS AS OTHER COUNTRIES; THAT BUILD WALLS
AGAINST ENTRANCES... BY THE FOES !
SURELY, BELIEVE THAT THIS COULD BE SO ~
[ ONLY A THOUGHT] TIL' HEARD A TEACHING BY RADIO,
IN THE LIVES OF DAVID AND SAUL...AS WELL AS OF HISTORY
OF MEN; OF AND IN POWER HERE IN AMERICA...AGES AGO.
ALL OF THIS LED TO GREAT CONCERN, OF HOW THIS IS THE
TIME FOR ALL COMMON PEOPLE, TO PRAY AS NEVER BEFORE;
ASKING THE LORD GOD , OF WHOM TO VOTE FOR ...
AND THE ANSWER IS FOUND, WHEN DO MEDITATE IN THE BIBLE,
OF HOW WRONG CHOICES MADE; DID EFFECT THE PEOPLE ...
AS WELL AS THE HISTORY CHANNEL;AND VOICES , BY WAY OF
RADIO ~ EVEN OF EMAILS SENT..."IF MY PEOPLE"....
"WE HAVE IT ALL...AND YET; HOW QUICK , ALL CAN BE LOST"
IN ALL THE PRESENT EVENTS, THERE IS YET A SWEET SPIRIT
CALLING THE HEARTS SO VERY NEAR !
TOUCHING HEARTS WITH ONLY WHAT CAN ENCOURAGE,
AND CHASE AWAY ALL FEAR !
NO MATTER WHAT... IN THE LIVES OF THE CHILDREN OF THE
KINGDOM MAY BE EXPERIENCING, HIS SPIRIT CAN BRING PEACE !
OUR PART IN ALL OF THIS IS... TO JUST SIT AT HIS FEET ,
AS IF HE WAS PRESENT...AND OF HIS WORDS, DRINKING IN
ALL HE WOULD SPEAK.
IF NOT FOR VISIONS OF SUCH, THAT HAS BEEN LEFT THRU OUT
THE WORDS OF LIFE...AND SOWN WITHIN OUR HEARTS AND MIND,
THERE WOULD NOT BE ANY VISION OF FIGHTING THE GOOD FIGHT
THAT CAUSES THE WEARY BODIES DETERMINDED TO ONCE AGAIN ARISE.
PICTURES OF CHRIST ARE MANY, YET NONE REVEAL OF HIM
TOTALLY... AS WHO CAN TRULY FULLY DESCRIBE ?
IT'S IMPOSSIBLE ~
IT'S HIS VOICE, THAT WAIT TO HEAR...CALLING...
AND OF HIS VOICE...HIS CALLED... KNOWING.
O' SO HOLY IS HE, SO BEAUTIFUL IS HIS FEET,
THAT BRINGS FORTH PEACE...
AND THINK UPON THE INSTILLED VISION OF THAT HOLY CITY
COMING DOWN FROM THE HEAVENLIES !
LET THE HEARTS DREAM ON, AND IT ARISES THE WEARY SOULS
OF WHAT IS WAITING , AT THE END OF IT ALL.
ONLY A TASTE OF WHAT IS NOW IMPOSSIBE TO SEE FULLY,
WILL BECOME A REALITY ~
SEE BOOKS ON SALE, FOR HEALING...
HEAR OTHERS SPEAK OF HEALING.
IT SEEMS NONE, OF GOD'S WILL, BUT OF A REMOVING.
AS STUDY OF YEARS IN ALL THAT HAVE STUDIED,
RIGHT OR WRONG, DREW TO A STRONG CONCLUSION.
WHAT IS SOWN IS LATER REAPED, WE ALL KNOW OF THIS,
AS IT BECOMES EVIDENT.
YET...THERE IS NOT OFTEN SPOKEN OF ANYMORE OF THE
"WILL OF GOD," LEAVING ONE WHERE MAY HAVE TO REMAIN AS IS,
AND OF WHAT IN THEIR LIFE, TAKES PLACE IN THE END.
COULD POINT TO ONES OF THE OLD TESTAMENT, AS WELL
AS TO THE NEW... THAT THEY CARRIED ON , BE WILLING TO
BE USED.
WHY ALL OF THE ABOVE ? ONLY TO SPEAK OF THE ONES, AND
OF WHAT EXAMPLES WERE LEFT, IN THE HOLY BOOK.
WHEN HEARTS SEE THE WHOLE PICTURE , THE VISION OF
JESUS' WILL...IT IS THE MOST PERFECT EXAMPLE , FOR ALL;
HE OBEYED THE FATHER'S WILL; NOT ESCAPING THE CROSS.
IT SO MARKS THE SOULS,AS WELL AS DID IN THE HEART OF PAUL,
AS NOWHERE IS MENTIONED THE REMOVING OF HIS THORN.
SO IMPRESSED IN THE HEART, TRUE WILL REAP, WHAT HAVE
SOWN...THIS DO KNOW. I MUST CONFESS, AM PAYING FOR WHAT
EARLIER SOWED;
YET ... THE MOST VITAL LEARNED , ABOVE ALL IS;
IN PRAYER TIME...ASKING, ACCORDING TO THE WILL OF THE LORD
HAS BECOME THE DEEPEST DESIRE , AS STUDY THE EXAMPLES
WHERE IT WAS SO... IN THE LIVES OF CHRIST JESUS, THE MASTER
AND OUR LORD...AS WELL AS OF PAUL.
UNTO THE FATHER, GIVE THANKS ...FOR THE HOLY BIBLE ~
LIFT THE HANDS IN WORSHIP, GIVING ALL GLORY TO HIM ALONE ~
IT IS SAID, ONCE OLD, BECOME CHILD-LIKE...
AND IT IS TRUE, IN MANY WAYS.
AM THANKFUL FOR WHAT USE TO BE; IN /OF A LIFE OF SIMPLICITY,
* BUT *
WHEN GO INTO THE BOOKS OF KINGS, SAT IN WONDER,
OF HOW THEY LIVED BACK IN THE TIMES, OF HISTORY.
YET ON THE OTHER HAND, SEEMS AS IF OF TODAY, ALL IS AS
A REPEAT.
SEEMS EVERYONE HAS A MESSAGE OF SOME KIND...
AND LIKE A CHILD, ASKED THE LORD, O' PLEASE DON'T
LET THE HEART BE DECEIVED !
AS LISTENED TO A PREACHER/TEACHER EARLIER, HAD TO LAUGH,
AS HIS WORDS WERE MORE TRUE, THAN ONE MAY WANT TO BELIEVE.
[IN CAME THOUGHTS OF A SONG]
REMEMBER THE SONG, OF THE PAST..."I ASKED THE LORD TO
COMFORT ME?"
WE DO HAVE A FATHER NOW, THAT IS YET LISTENING !
AND AS ONE NOW, THAT SEEMS CHILD-LIKE AGAIN, CAN SAY IN
ALL HONESTY...GO TO HIM WITH ALL THE NEEDS ~
LET ME SAY...THAT BEING OLD CAN BE A GREAT BLESSING ~
WHEN MEDITATE UPON THE TIME PASS, AM GLAD THAT CAN
LEAN UPON HIM, FOR EVERYTHING ~
HE BECOMES THE WHOLE REASON OF EXISITING ~
MAYBE BECAUSE OF NOT ABLE ANY LONGER OF RESISTING
AND MORE THAN EVER, BECOME MORE WILLING TO LISTEN .
KNOWING THAT HE WAS THE ONE THAT HAS BROUGHT TO WHERE
NOW AM... BY HIS OWN HAND.
ONE THING STANDS OUT ABOVE ALL ELSE...
EVERY WORD OF HIS MOUTH, IS PURE AND TRUTH,
WHAT HE SAYS, HE WILL DO ~
IF OUR LORD AND MASTER TRUSTED IN WHAT THE FATHER
COULD DO...IN THESE TIMES, CANNOT WE TOO ?
AS HE WENT TO A SOLITARY PLACE, CANNOT WE TOO,
AND PRAY, AS HE DID, WHILE HERE AS SON OF MAN ?
WHEN IN A DESERT, MANY CAME TO WHERE THE LORD WAS,
AND WE TOO, CAN DO THE SAME AS THEY OF BACK THEN ?
[WONDER ,SHOULD THERE BE A PAUSE BETWEEN
ROMANS 7 AND 8 ?]
O' THANK YOU PAUL FOR ALL YOUR REMINDERS, UNTO ALL OF US,
"FOR THEY THAT ARE AFTER THE FLESH DO MIND THE THINGS
OF THE FLESH; BUT THEY THAT ARE AFTER THE SPIRIT THE THINGS
OF THE SPIRIT.
FOR TO BE CARNALLY MINDED IS DEATH; BUT TO BE SPIRITUALLY
MINDED IS LIFE AND PEACE ~"
DETERMINDED TO DRINK IN ALL OF WHAT HE LEFT TO READ,
MADE THE HEART LEAP, AS A CHILD AGAIN, WITH MUCH HOPE,
EVEN THO' HAVE GROWN OLD...HAVE REASON TO REJOICE ~
HAD THE GREAT OPPORTUNITY OF ESCAPE, WITH FRIENDS
FROM THE PAST...FROM THE COUNTRY...
YET AT THE END OF IT ALL, THIS IS WHAT THE SPIRIT DID
REVEAL TO ME ~
WHAT KIND OF FRIENDS, DOES EACH CHOOSE...
AND WHAT IS THE REASON OF CHOICE ?
DID YOU GO TO OTHERS, AND WEIGHT THE VOTES,
BEFORE YOUR FINAL CHOICE ?
UNTO THE OTHER OR OTHERS...WHY WAS YOU EVEN DRAWN ?
WHAT IS FAITH, WHAT IS THE SOUND OF GOD'S VOICE LIKE,
WHY DOES HE SO CHOOSE, OFTEN ONES SO UNLIKE HIMSELF,
O' THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN BEING HUMBLED, AND PRIDE...
IT'S THE MOST UNDESERVING THAT CAN TRULY TESTIFY ~
AS SPENT 36 HOURS AWAY, WITH ONE NOT ABLE TO SPEAK,
AND PEOPLE STARED AT, AS THAT ONE SHUFFLED... AS WALKING,
THEIR MINDS WERE FULLY EXPOSED, OF WHAT THEY WERE
THINKING ! THANK GOODNESS THAT'S NOT ME !
BUT YET, THEY ARE THE ONES SO UNAWARE OF ...IT COULD BE !
NEVER KNOW WHAT MAY LIE IN THE NEXT MOMENT OF LIFE,
OR OF WHAT IT'S LIKE, TO BE BORN AS WAS THAT ONE,
THAT HAS NEVER BEEN ABLE TO SPEAK; BUT YET UNTO OTHERS
CAUSES LAUGHTER,JOY, AND TEARS, BY BEING IN HER COMPANY.
DOES NOT THE LORD JESUS COME FORTH IN THE MIND,AS A
PICTURE OF THE PAST,AS OF THE ABOVE READ; OF HIS MINISTRY ?
IT'S PEOPLE LIKE THAT, SO UNLIKE OF THE REST...
THAT AT THE END OF IT ALL...SENDS YOU AWAY, BEING BLESSED,
BY THE OPPORTUNITY , OF SPENDING TIME IN THEIR PRESENCE.
AS ONE THAT KNOWS WELL THE DOWN TIMES IN SICKNESS,
IT WAS LONG AGO, HEARD A PREACHER TEACHING ON THE PEOPLE
OF THE OLD TESTAMENT.
YOU KNOW THOSE CHOSEN, OVER MANY OTHER MIGHTY NATIONS,
AND IT WAS THE BEGINNING OF A ENDLESS STUDY...
TO BE TRUTHFUL, IT WAS THE BEGINNING OF A LOVE STORY.
IT THEN WAS, SO MANY YEARS LATER, BEFORE UNDERSTANDING
THAT JESUS WAS THE THEME , LIKE A ENDLESS LOVE SONG.
OF ALL HE DID...A BOOK; THE WORLD CAN NOT FULLY KNOW,
OR CONTAIN...SO WE ARE TOLD.
AND WHAT ABOUT PAUL...AND THE WITNESSES, AND ON AND ON
IT GOES...THAT CAPTURES THE VERY DEPTHS OF MANY SOULS.
TRUE ENOUGH MUCH EXAMPLES LEFT, A PATTERN TO FOLLOW,
AS MEDITATE UPON THE DIVINE WORDS, SO PENNED BY HIS FOLLOWERS...THAT YET MANY TREASURE ABOVE SILVER OR GOLD.
BEING GRAFTED IN, SEEMS NOT SO EASY, WHEN TRULY READ,
AND UNDERSTAND WHAT IT REALLY MEANS, AND OFTEN WONDER
WHY ISN'T THIS BEING MORE TAUGHT, OR PREACHED ON ?
IS AMERICA GUILTY, OF HIDING AWAY ANY IDOLS, IN THEIR HOMES ?
DOES NOT FEAR OF LYING TO THE HOLY GHOST, GRIP THE VERY
SOULS , AND CAUSE TO TREMBLE ?
YES IT IS A LOVE SONG, WORDS SING...WORSHIP THE KING...
OFTEN WAIT IN SILENCE, IN FAITH DO BELIEVE...IN THE UNSEEN,
BUT FORGETTING WHAT GRAFTING IN... REALLY MEANS !
ONLY SAY WHAT SAY...AS HEARD SOMEONE TEACH, ON THIS SUBJECT RECENTLY ~
ALSO HEARD TEACHING ON THE SUBJECT OF HEAVEN ALL WEEK,
THAT GAVE A POWERFUL GLIMPSE OF WHAT IS AWAITING...
SO BETWEEN THE 2 SUBJECTS...THE BALANCE WAS PERFECT
IN TEACHING ~
IT'S BOTH SIDES OF THE STORY, THAT CAUSES THE SOUL TO
GO INTO A GREAT INWARD EXAMINING...
AND THAT'S THE REASON, AM UP AND TYPING...
HEARD A PROGRAM ON; FOCUS ON FAMILY YESTERDAY AND
TODAY...BY A MAN OF MUCH TO SAY.
IT WAS SO REVEALING OF THE WEAK, HURT, AND THE STRONG.
[IN CAME THOUGHTS; OF A LONG AGO EXAMPLE GAVE.]
REMEMBER OF HOW DAVID , THE ONE OF MANY PSALMS,
DEALT WITH THE KING SAUL.
MAYBE DAVID DID DO ALOT THAT WAS WRONG IN LIFE,
YET IS STILL CARRYING THE TITLE; A MAN AFTER GOD'S HEART !
MOST KNOW THE STORY OF JACOB TOO, AND YET HE WAS
GIVEN A GREAT NAME, IN EXCHANGE.
JOB IS ANOTHER ONE THAT, MOST CAN RELATE TO,
IN MUCH THAT IN HIS LIFE, DID TAKE PLACE ~
THE EXAMPLE GAVE ~
MOST ARE AWARE OF THE HUNDRED OF YEARS, OF NO
VOICE, SPEAKING ON BEHALF OF THE LORD GOD,
AND OF ALL THAT TOOK PLACE, WITH OUR JESUS CHRIST,
AND FOLLOWING, CHOSEN MEN THAT WERE WILLING TO DIE.
IN THE LAST DAYS...WHAT DOES THE BIBLE SAY ?
AND WHAT IS IN HISTORY ...NOW TAKING PLACE ?
YET, THERE IS ALSO ENCOURAGING NEWS, FOR ALL IN HOPE
FOR ANOTHER PLACE, CALLED HEAVEN, UNTO ALL THAT
LIVE OUT THEIR LIVES, IN FAITH.
AS WATCH ALL THAT IS HAPPENING, WHAT COMES TO MIND,
ARE THERE STILL WATCHMEN; THAT HAVE OTHERS IN THEIR MINDS,
WHEN PRAY ?
WHY ARE GIVEN GIFT[S] UNTO THE WEAK, OR STRONG IN STRENGTH
AND MOST IMPORTANT; IS IT BEING USED FOR HONOR OF THE
GOD...BY WHOM IT WAS EVEN GIVEN ?
IT HAS BEEN SO ENCOURAGING, TO HEAR ALL THAT ONE HAS
TAUGHT, BY RADIO... UPON HEAVEN ~
IT'S CAUSES AN IMPACT UPON THE WEAK, THE STRUGGLING,
TO ARISE IN STRONG STRENGTH, AND ALSO,TO KNEEL AND PRAY
AS BECOME SO AWARE OF THE NEED MORE SO, IN THESE DAYS.
REMEMBER, WHAT WAS SAID OF OLD...
THE COMMON PEOPLE...AND THE ONES WANTING SAUL...
AND OF HOW GOD GAVE THEM, WHAT THEY SO VOICED ?
THERE'S A DIRE NEED FOR WATCHMEN ,EVEN TODAY,
THAT WILL STAND GUARD, ON THE WALLS ...
WILLING TO PROTECT THE PEOPLE ~
WHAT IS IT LIKE, TO KNOW THAT MUST WAIT UPON THE LORD ?
WHAT IS IT LIKE, TO UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WERE EVEN BORN?
AFTER YEARS OF BEING PUT IN SITUATIONS, THAT COULDN'T
ESCAPE FROM...WHAT DID YOU LEARN FROM ALL OF IT ?
WHEN DID , FINALLY REALIZE IT WAS FOR OTHERS' BENEFIT ?
WHEN CAN'T ESCAPE WHAT THE LORD ALLOWS IN YOUR LIFE,
IN THE END...IT'S FOR YOUR PERSONAL BENEFIT ~
WE STRUGGLE THRU, WONDERING, ABOUT ALOT OF THINGS,
AND OFTEN, IT CAUSES US TO GROW WEARY AND FAINT.
BUT THEN, LIKE A FLASH OF LIGHT, AND THUNDER THAT ROARS,
ARE REMINDED THAT IT'S ALL WORTH THE WAIT ~
NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE WENT THRU, AS MANY OF US HAVE;
THE GREATEST LESSON LEARNED, IS TO WAIT UPON THE LORD ~
EVERY LESSON TAUGHT, WAS AS A LESSON LEARNED,
WITHOUT...WOULD HAD NEVER STEADFASTLY LOOKED UPWARD ~
THO' ARE HERE; BUT FOR UP THERE...THE HEARTS SO YEARN ~
THE GREAT ESCAPE, MUST NOT FOCUS IN ON TESTING TIMES,
BUT IN STRIVING; IN BECOMING MORE CHRIST LIKE .
DOESN'T THAT SEEM BEYOND OUR REACH HONESTLY...
YET...SO DETERMINDED TO BE ?
WARS FAR AND WIDE...YET GREATER IS THE WAR, IN THE SOUL,
IS THIS NOT HONESTLY TRUE... AS IN TRUTH...WE GROW ?
HOW MANY TIMES...ARE THE CRIES AND DO MOAN ?
WHY DO WE MEDITATE UPON THE WORD, AS AN INDIVIDUAL,
AND...WHY IS THIS SO ?
WHY SUCH A HUNGER, FOR A WAITING HEAVENLY HOME ?
WHY DID PAUL, EXPRESS OVER AND OVER AGAIN THE "I'...
AND LEAVE SO MUCH FOR EACH TO READ ?
WHY DID DAVID DO THE SAME...TO READ ?
WHY DOES MEDITATING, ALWAYS BRING FORTH REMEMBRANCE,
OF GOD'S RIGHTEOUS JUDGMENT...AS WELL AS HIS GRACE
AND MERCY...AND OF MEETING EVERY NEED...
ONE OF THE GREATEST IS PSALM 77, PENNED BY DAVID THE KING
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TOLD THAT YOU ARE AS A WARRIOR ?
IT IS SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ANOTHER GO INTO A
GREAT SEARCH.
ANOTHER THING THAT CAUSES A GREAT SEARCHING OUT,
IS OF THE GODHEAD... AND OF THE HOLY SPIRIT , BY JESUS
BEING SENT.
WHAT ABOUT PUTTING ON THE WHOLE ARMOUR OF GOD...
AND IN ANOTHER SEARCHING...OFF WE GO AGAIN.
WE REALLY DON'T DESIRE WHAT SOME CALL A NEW WORD...
ONLY DESIRE WHAT "NEED" IN THE NOW, THIS PRESENT TIME,
IN ORDER, TO FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT.
IT WILL BE THE "I" THAT STANDS BEFORE THE SEAT,
BEFORE THE CHRIST, THAT JUDGES, EACH OF THE
FOOLISH AND ALSO THE WISE.
THE DEEPER IN THE STUDY, THE STRONGER BECOME CONVINCED,
THE TOTAL DEPENDING UPON THE HOLY SPIRIT SENT,
AND HUMBLES , TIL' CRY OUT...O' I, OF UNCLEAN LIPS ~
WHO WANTS TO STAND NAKED BEFORE THE THRONE...
OR OF BEING FULLY CLOTHED ?
SO, NOW FOR THE PRESENT, WHAT DOES EACH ONE PRAY FOR ?
WHAT IS AT STAKE... IF IN SLUMBER REMAIN ?
THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE QUESTIONS OF SELF ASKED,
AS WAITING...PREPARING SELF FOR HIS COMING...
EVEN IF IT MAY SEEM HE IS DELAYING,IN HIS COMING...
THAT CAUSES TO EVER MEDITATE ...
AND EVER WATCHING...AND PRAYING ~
O' HOLY SPIRIT, OPEN THE EYES, AND OPEN THE EARS,
FILL WITH WORDS, DEEP WITHIN, PIERCE THE HEART
AS ONLY YOU CAN...CONVICTING OF SIN...
CAUSING EVER TO SINCERELY REPENT...
AS IT IS A FEARFUL THOUGHT OF STANDING BEFORE THE
THRONE, NAKED, AND NOT FULLY CLOTHED.
IT'S A FEARFUL THOUGHT, OF THE DOOR CLOSED.
HOLY SPIRIT, SO MANY SHADOWS OF EVIL ARE AT HAND,
TRYING SO HARD TO ENTER IN, AND TAKE CONTROL,
MUST BE EVER SO MINDFUL, OF THE PROMISES OF THE LORD,
AND OF WHY HE SENT YOU, TO ENCOURAGE HIS OWN,
AND WHY WE SHOULD EVER REMAIN IN BEING EVER WATCHFUL,
PREPARING FOR THE RETURN OF OUR LORD ~
THE LOVE OF AND FOR BROTHERS AND SISTERS, IN CHRIST...
WHEN THEY ARE HURTING...DO WE ALSO LIKEWISE ?
HOW MANY MAY NOT TELL; WHAT THEY SAY AS LIE IN BED AT NITE?
BEING ONE OF MUCH PAIN MORE OFTEN, THAN NOT ...I WILL;
I SIMPLY SAID...JESUS I CAN'T COPE WITH ALL OF THIS,
EITHER TAKE ME HOME, OR PLEASE GIVE ME RELIEF,
I'M SO WEAK, AND HAVE NO STRENGTH LEFT.
WHEN I SPEND THE WHOLE DAY WITH PAUL, NOT SAYING A WORD,
HE ACTUALLY CAN'T COPE WITH MY BEING QUIET, AND MINISTERS
TO ME. "ALOT PROBLEY ARE NOW SMILING ~ "
IT IS ALSO TRUE WITH OTHERS THAT ARE IN GOD'S FAMILY...
SOMEHOW, THE PAIN OVERFLOWS, OF WHAT THEIR EXPERIENCING.
AND LOVE WANTS TO MINISTER TO THEM, BECAUSE OF LOVE ~
IT REALLY DOESN'T STOP THERE THO'...IT COVERS ALOT MORE
OF AREA THAN JUST THAT OF FRIENDS...
IT DESIRES THAT ALL WOULD UNDERSTAND THAT JESUS ALSO
UNDERSTANDS.
WE HAVE BEEN GIVEN THE RICHESS OF THE HOLY SPIRIT...
AND DESIRE THAT OTHERS COULD SEE THAT WITHOUT HIM,
ARE AS ORPHANS; AND ARE AS IF ONES LEFT TO CHANCE.
WHAT CAN COMPARE TO THE RICHES, OF HAVING IT ALL,
BUT NOT THE HOLY SPIRIT ABIDING WITHIN...THE INNERMAN ?
HOW MANY BECOME WEARY OF THIS TEMPORARY TENT OF
FLESH, AND LOOK SO FORWARD TOWARD WHAT AWAITS,
WHEN WILL BE PERFECTLY LIKE our JESUS IN ALL WAYS ~
WHAT IS IT LIKE TO BECOMED AGED... IN THIS AGE ?
IT'S LIKE , WHERE MEET...MERCY AND GRACE,
COMING TOGETHER, AND TOUCHING YOU IN A MIGHTY WAY ~
IT'S LIKE A LOVE SONG, THAT TOUCHES THE VERY DEPTHS
OF THE SOUL...
QUIETS THE RESTLESSNESS, THAT WAS A DRIVE FOR SO LONG ~
IT'S LIKE A RIPPING AWAY OF HAUNTINGS THAT SEEMED TO
EVER TRY TO CONTROL ~
WHAT USE TO SEEM HARD WORDS, NOW HAVE A SOFTER TONE ~
"BUT"...NEVER IS THERE A LACK, IN STUDYING THE BIBLE ~
IT HAS BEEN LIKE BREATH...A WIND THAT FILLS , AND MORE
IMPORTANT, THAN ANY TREASURE THAT ONE CAN EVER OWN ~
IT'S LIKE LETTERS, THAT READ OVER AND OVER AGAIN...
AS TRULY, IT RISES UP AND REMINDS, LEST ONE MAY FORGET ~
WHY DOES THE HEART DESIRE TO REMAIN AS A TENDER PLANT ?
WHY MUST THE MEMORY DAILY ... BE REFRESHED ?
WHAT MAY HAVE SEEM AS A MISFORTUNE IN ANY LIFE,
CAN BE AS A BLESSING...IN DISGUISE ~
WE GET TOO BUSY, WITH LIFE...AND OFTEN NEVER STOP,
IT'S LIKE WE ARE RACING AGAINST THE TICKS OF THE CLOCK ~
SEASONS CHANGE, AND AS WATCH,...SEEMS THAT MANY ARE
NOT AWARE, OF WHAT ALL THIS IS REALLY ABOUT ~
ASK SELF...WHERE LIES ONE'S MOST EARNEST PURSUIT ?
HOW CAN ONE COME INTO THE DEPTHS OF TRUTH,
IF PUT ASIDE LETTERS... MEANT TO REFRESH YOU ?
EVEN SOLDIERS NEED TIME, TO REGROUP ~
LIKE A CHILD, IT'S IMPORTANT TO HAVE A ROOM,
WHERE CAN QUIETLY GET INTO THE DEPTHS OF A BOOK ~
IT IS A CHALLENGE...IT IS HARD...NO MATTER WHAT AGE YOU ARE ,
BUT IT'S END RESULT IS , A HEART SET AFIRE, FOR THE LORD ,
AS WAS, IN THE LIFE OF APOSTLE PAUL...
LETTERS LEFT THAT TRULY INSPIRES US TO CARRY ON~
WONDER...WHAT FORCE...WHAT PICTURE COMES TO MIND,
AS TOWARD THE END OF HIS LIFE ...HE DID WRITE ?
SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT...
[words expressed by one that has grown old.]
THIS MORNING, TURNED ON THE RADIO, AND THE SUBJECT WAS
ON "FAILURES." AND IT SURELY RUNG A BELL ~
HOW MANY TIMES WALKED AWAY FROM TEACHING CHILDREN,
DUE TO DISAGREEMENT WITH OTHERS.
THE OTHERS CONTINUED ON...I FELT EMPTY AND LOST.
WHEN MY MOM BECAME SICK FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE,
I WANTED TO HIDE AWAY, BUT IMPOSSIBLE IT WAS TO DO SO.
WHY IS IT THAT FAILURES SEEM TO BE SO MANY IN ONE'S WALK,
WHEN SO MANY EXAMPLES WERE LEFT FOR ALL, IN THE BIBLE ?
IN LIFE, WHERE IS LEARNED MORE LESSONS, ON A MOUNTAIN TOP,
OR BEING LEFT BEHIND, IN A DESERT SO DRY ?
HOW MANY HAVE WALKED 40 YEARS OR SO, NEVER GETTING TO
WHERE WERE SUPPOSE TO GO ?
WHAT DID GOD TEACH YOU, WHERE THE GRASS NEVER GROWS ?
WHAT MAKES YOU DETERMINDED TO CARRY ON ?
EVERYTHING SEEMS TO WORK AGAINST YOU ACCOMPLISHING
YOUR MOST DESIRED GOAL ~
WHAT IS THIS INVISIBLE EVER ATTACKING YOUR INNER SOUL,
WHY SEEMS THE ENDLESS WAR ZONES ?
IT'S EASY TO MAYBE BLAME OTHERS, BUT IS IT REALLY THEM,
OR THE FEAR OF SELF, FAILING AGAIN ?
HAD TO TAKE A VERY LONG LOOK , WHERE IT ALL DID BEGIN~
WHY IS IT THAT HAVE TO GO BACK; IN ORDER TO ADVANCE ?
WHAT MAKES YOU PICK UP THE PIECES OF YOUR LIFE,
AND MAKES DETERMINDED TO GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE ?
IN THE BEGINNING, IT WAS JUST YOU, AND YOUR CHRIST ,
BUT ALONG THE WAY...WHO WAS THE ONE THAT LOST SIGHT ?
O' WHAT A PICTURE WE CAN PAINT, OF EVERYTHING IN THE MIND,
YET, A PICTURE IS ONLY A PICTURE; NOT REALITY OF REAL LIFE.
IS IT TRUE...WHAT OTHERS MAY SAY...
EVERYTHING IS GONNA' TO TURN OUT ALRIGHT ?
REALITY IS... ALL IS GONNA' DIE, AND SOMEDAY WILL ARISE,
AND THERE, WILL STAND BEFORE THE ONE THAT WILL JUDGE,
WHAT WAS DONE OR NOT DONE... IN YOUR LIFE.
AS COULDN'T ESCAPE CARING FOR ONE; DID TEACH LESSONS
OF HARD KNOCKS...YET THRU IT ALL, CAUSED A GREATER
DETERMINED FIGHT... TO WIN THE PRIZE !
WHILE HERE...THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A FIGHT TO FIGHT ~
FAILURES ARE REAL...CAN STAY DOWN, OR ARISE ~
AS ENDLESSLY TAKE NOTES, HAVE LEARNED ALOT...
THE SERIES HEARD ON THE MASTER'S MEN, HAS AWAKEN
THE HUNGRY INNER MAN ..OF THIS WOMAN.
ALSO TALENTS; DISCUSSED BETWEEN 2 MEN, AND 1 WOMAN;
WHICH I THOUGHT ... WOULD NEVER COME TO AN END.
[almost ran out of paper, taking down notes.]
[at 65...am learning, as never before.]
[as read over all of them, thoughts overflowed.]
EXAMPLES LINGERED ON ...THRU OUT THE WHOLE BIBLE,
FOR ALL GENERATIONS ...EXPOSING UNTO ALL SOULS
OF RIGHTS AND WRONGS.
ARE GIVEN ABILITIES,AND OPPORTUNITIES, BY DIVINE PROVIDENCE,
TO BE USED...AND NOT TO BURY.
NOTHING IS EVER ACCOMPLISHED WITHOUT THE HOLY SPIRIT !
HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN KEEP SAFE FROM ERROR ~
WHAT BLOWS THE MIND, IS OF HOW THE ALMIGHTY WOULD EVEN
TRUST SUCH WEAK VESSELS WITH GIFTS BESTOWED...
POURING OUT SUCH RICHES UPON ...THRU THE HOLY GHOST ?
BUT, ALSO; WHAT HAPPENS, IF USE FOR PROFIT OF SELF'S SOUL ~
SO MIGHTY IS EXAMPLES...THRU OUT THE WHOLE BIBLE ~
ON OUR PART... WE TAKE A RISK, WHEN ACT IN FAITH...
YET IT'S END IS WORTH IT ALL; IN CONFIDENCE...WE GAIN,
NOT IN SELF...BUT IN ORDER, TO EXALT HIS NAME...
BY EVERY GIVEN GIFT HE SO CHOSE TO GIVE ~
IF HE SO BELIEVES IN ME, OR IN YOU...
AND REVEALS UNTO THE SOUL SO MUCH OF WHAT HE CAN DO...
"THRU ME AND YOU"...IT BECOMES SO EASY... JUST TO OBEY !
~BEING COMMITTED IN STUDYING, IS NEVER IN VAIN ~
BEING COMMITTED TO JESUS, IS A MUST, AND THE EXAMPLES
BY HIM GIVEN, AS WELL AS BY PAUL...
THAT...WILL CAUSE AN OVERFLOW OF HOPE,
DESPITE ANY EXPERIENCED WAR ZONES...
THIS CAN FIRMLY TESTIFY... AS INTENSTLY LISTENED TO OTHERS
MESSAGES BY RADIO...AND A SONG HEARD BY PHONE~
MUST REFLECT UPON YOUR GOVERMENT OF NO END...
OR WOULD GO CRAZY WITH THE CONFUSION OF THE PRESENT
EVENT; ONES WITH SUCH OPPOSITE PLANS.
MUST REFLECT UPON YOUR BEING "JUST A BREATH AWAY,"
AND MEDITATE UPON ...THAT DAY, OF BEING WITH THE HEART'S
FOREVER LOVER OF SOULS, AND INTIMATE FRIEND ~
SO EASY TO FADE AWAY INTO ALL THAT CAUSES HEART PAIN,
MUST REFLECT UPON SEEING YOUR FACE SOMEDAY ~
IT'S SO EASY TO STRAY, TIL' AWAKE; RETURNING BACK...
OFTEN SEEMS A MUST; BEFORE REALIZING, WHY YOU LEFT.
IF A VOW HAS BEEN BROKEN...IT WILL HAUNT, ESPECIALLY
IF THE FOOLISH ONE CHOSE TO LEAVE THE HOME.
WHY DOES THE FREEDOM BECOME EMPTY, AND SO VOID,
FINDING SELF TRAVELING DOWN A ROAD ALL ALONE ?
WHAT DID YOU MISS THE MOST ?
MAYBE THE GREATEST OF ALL...
WAS THE ONE JUST A BREATH AWAY, THE LOVER OF YOUR SOUL,
AND HIS WHISPERING VOICE ~ HIS PRESENCE EVER SO CLOSE ~
THIS CAN HIT THE VERY DEPTHS, AS EXAMINE ONE'S OWN SOUL !
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THE LORD IS GRACIOUS, AND FULL OF COMPASSION,
AWAKES A SLEEPY MEMORY... OF HIS GOODNESS,
AND THE SONG WITHIN...OF HIS GREAT MERCY,
"AND OF HIS PURE RIGHTEOUSNESS.
OF HIS KINGDOM EVERLASTING ~"
WILL ARISE AND SING PRAISE OF HIS POWER,
AND HIS PROVIDENCE...
OF HIS STRENGTH, AND PLEASURE NOT IN STRENGTH OF MEN,
BUT RATHER IN THEM THAT FEAR HIM...THOSE; WHOSE HOPE IS
IN HIS TENDER MERCY ~
THE NOISE, THE CONFUSION, HAS GROWN LIKE A WILD WEED,
AND WONDER, ARE ONES TRULY SEEKING THE COUNSEL OF
THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY ?
THE ONE THAT CAN CONSUME, OR RESTORE ~
ARE WE SEEKING THE LORD...WITH MUCH WEEPING,
OR...ARE WE SO FILLED WITH OUR OWN THINKING,
AS IF HAVE ALL WISDOM AND KNOWLEDGE ?
WHO IS THIS GOD, THAT ANY EVEN DARE TO BATTLE AGAINST,
THAT CAN BRING DOWN, WITH A VOICE OF THUNDERING COMMAND ?
WILL ANY BE WILLING TO DESERT THEIR PRIDE...
OR; ARE DETERMINDED TO HOLD ON TO...TIL' THE BITTER END ?
MAYBE; HAVE FORGOTTEN THE RESTING PLACE / THE REFUGE...
WHERE AS A LITTLE CHILD, CAN RUN TO , WHEN ARISES ENDLESS
EVIL WAITING IN THE DARK, WITH FIXED PLANS OF AMBUSH.
WITH SUCH TERROR WIDE SPREAD...WHO DO WE RUN TO...
ONES WITH A MULTITUDE OF WORDS... OR TO THE LORD ,
ASKING FOR DISCERNING, IN MAKING CHOICES THAT ARE
"FOR ALL PEOPLE'S GOOD."
IS ANY WEARY OF WHAT COULD CALL A POWER STRUGGLE,
DURING THIS PERIOD OF TIME, OF IT SEEMING SO ?
IS IT NOT TRULY A TIME TO SINCERELY SEEK GOD'S COUNSEL ?
AS READ A TESTIMONY OF ANOTHER, UNTO HIS GOD, OF
WORDS I HAVE SAID IN THE SAME-LIKE FASHION UPTO GOD,
MY HEART LEAPED, AS NOW KNOW OTHERS SAY THE SAME.
[it was exciting, and brought to mind/ of what i had expressed.]
[maybe also in your minds,and hearts as well ?]
HAVE YOU EVER TOLD GOD THAT YOU WOULDN'T STOP LOVING
HIM...NO MATTER WHAT ?
it seems that others are always saying...THAT GOD SO GAVE HIS
BELOVED SON...BECAUSE OF LOVE...
yet how many of us, dare to say "I WILL LOVE YOU GOD, NO MATTER
WHAT ?" REFUSE TO STOP OR TO BACK OFF FROM WORSHIP
THRU UPLIFTED WORDS; RATHER STAY UNDER OR GO BEYOND
THE HEAVENLIES CLOUDS ~
IF THIS EARTH WAS ALL THERE EVER WOULD BE...
I WOULD STILL WORSHIP AND GIVE THANKS TO THEE ~
IF ALL THAT WOULD BE THE END OF THIS LIVED LIFE; IS DEATH...
WOULD CONTINUE ON WITH LOVE WORDS DAILY EXPRESSED ~
MANY OF US, HAVE SEEN DEATH FACE TO FACE...
YET OF THE MYSTERY OF IT ALL, CAN'T FULLY EXPLAIN,
MANY OF US HAVE STOOD BY THE MADE READY GRAVES,
AND HAVE FELT THE DEEP PAIN,
OF LOSS OF WHAT WAS; THAT WILL NOW BEGIN TO DECAY.
FROM THAT TIME FORTH, ARE NEVER REALLY THE SAME ~
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YET...WHAT ALSO CAUSES TO CLING SO TIGHTLY UNTO
ONE BOOK THAT CAN BRING LIFE, UNTO THE DEAD...
AND REFUSE TO LET DUST COLLECT ?
WHY YEAR IN AND YEAR OUT...SEARCH IT OUT ?
COULD IT BE, BECAUSE IT WAS WRITTEN FOR US...
THAT YOU REFUSE TO STOP SEARCHING, TIL' HE ANSWERS ALL
YOUR QUESTIONS...OF WHAT THIS LIFE IS REALLY ALL ABOUT ?
SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT...
DURING THE DARK, THE STREET LIGHT CAUSES LIGHT TO SHINE
UPON THE ROSE BUSH RECEIVING A MUCH NEEDED DRINK OF
WATER.
HAVE ALL THESE PRAYER REQUESTS, AND PRESENT THEM TO
THE HEAVENLY FATHER ~
ON THE DESK IS A BOOK, WITH A PICTURE OF THE WAITING FATHER
EMBRACING THE RETURNING SON...
IN THE BACKGROUND IS NOT A HOME, BUT LAND WITH BUSHES AND
TREES... WITH A SKY MINGLED WITH COLORS.
THE MIND IS FILLED WITH PICTURES OF NAMES, CRYING OUT
IN SOME KIND OF PAIN ~ MOSTLY IN LIVES OF "OTHERS."
THE NEEDS ARE OVERWHELMING, SEEKING MERCY FROM THE
HEAVENLY FATHER.
AS WAS IN THE LORD'S DAY, SO IT SEEMS A GREAT CROWD OF
NOISE...THE UPWARD CRIES OF MASS VOICES ~
RATHER NEAR OR FAR OFF...THE CRIES ARE NOT AS ONES
MUFFLED ~
THE FACES BECOME SO CLEAR UNTO THE MIND, AS SEE THE
HORROR OF DEATH SURROUNDING, LEAVING BEHIND SCENES
OF GREAT HORROR, AND HOPELESSNESS ~
ALMOST MAKES ASHAMED, OF WHAT COMFORT ENJOY,
THE QUIET OF JUST WATCHING THE RAIN FALL ON THE ROSES,
OUTSIDE THE WINDOW OF THIS HOME.
THE COMFORTS THAT MANY OTHERS, CANNOT VISION THIS EVER
BEING SO ~
OFTEN WORDS SPEAK OF BEING SO VERY THANKFUL,
BUT MORE SO OF SAYING...O' FATHER , KEEP THE SOUL HUMBLE !
KEEP THE HEART SOFT, KEEP QUIET ANY TIME MIGHT DESIRE TO
BOAST ~
DON'T LET THE EVIL FOE HAVE OPPORTUNITY TO REJOICE ~
IT'S SO EASY, TO STRAY, AND BECOME LOST...
KEEP REMINDING THE HEART OF THE GREAT COST, WHEN DO SO ~
MUCH HAS BEEN FORGIVEN, AND MUCH GRACE AND MERCY HAS
BEEN SHOWN...NEVER LET THE HEART THINK THAT NOW AM ONE
THAT KNOWS IT ALL ~
O' THE TREMBLING INWARD...OF FEAR, OF OFFENDING THE SPIRIT
THAT ABIDES...THAT GIVES THE SOUL LIFE...
CAUSES TO FULLY REALIZE, WITHOUT YOU...WOULD SURELY DIE ~
WHAT POWER IT IS, AS IF A REMINDER, UNTO THE HEART !
WELL... ON TO SOMETHING ELSE CLOSE TO THE HEART...
AS LISTENING ENDLESSLY OF ONES TEACHING ON MATT. 25,
CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER HOW LONG IT'S BEEN .
IF THINK ANY CAN REALLY RETIRE, GOT NEWS FOR YOU,
CAN REMAIN AS BUSY, OR MAYBE BUSIER THAN WHEN AT
A JOB YOU ONCE WORKED AT !
SO NUMBERED ARE OUR DAYS, THIS IS DEFINITELY TRUE...
AND IT'S A TIME OF... OR NOT OF BEARING FRUIT ~
IT'S A TIME OF WHAT GOD CAN DO...THRU YOU ,
WHEN THE HEART KNOWS THAT HE WORKS OUT "ALL GOOD"
FOR YOU !
YET WHAT PAIN OF REGRET, OF MISSED OPPORTUNITIES HAD,
AND IF HONEST, ARE ANY REALLY ABLE TO TOTALLY FORGET ?
WHAT IN LIFE, DO WE REALLY INVEST OUR WHOLE BEING IN,
IS SOMETHING THAT I'VE HAD TO TRULY EXAMINE, WITHIN , NOT
JUST 1 TIME, BUT OVER AND OVER AGAIN...
GUESS IT DOES SEEM, THAT AM STUCK ON THIS SUBJECT ALOT,
BUT TRY TO UNDERSTAND, AM OLD NOW.
DON'T WANT ANY TO MISS OUT ON THEIR OPPORTUNITIES,
THEIR GIVEN GIFTS GIVEN TO USE...FOR GOD'S GLORY ~
NOW, NEED TO MOVE ON TO SECRETS, THAT HAVE NOT SHARED,
FOR A TIME NOW...PAIN HAS BEEN LIKE A STRANGER, AS IF THE
BACK HAS BEEN RESTORED...AND THANK ALL THAT SENT UP
THEIR PRAYERS.
MUST SPEAK OF A SON'S REBUKE, WHEN WANTED OUT OF
A MARRIAGE LONG AGO...THAT NOW IS TOTALLY RESTORED ~
MAYBE WE THINK THAT THE GIVEN GIFT[s] ARE ONLY TO ENJOY,
BUT FORGET THAT REBUKES ARE A MUST TOO , FOR US ALL.
ALSO; GOD DOES WORK OUT ALL FOR EACH ONE'S GOOD,
UNTO ALL THAT PUTS THEIRSELVES IN HIS HANDS, AND
LETS HIM COMPLETE HIS INFINITE PLAN ~
LET US NEVER FORGET THE RACE THAT WE ARE IN...
AND ENJOY THE THOUGHT, OF HOW THE PEACE OF GOD CAN
REIGN...WHEN WE LET GO UNTO HIS LORDSHIP !
WHAT A GIFT OF CHRIST JESUS, PEACE... GIVEN UNTO HIS...
IT DOES SEEM AS IF WE ARE IN A GREAT PARTNERSHIP,
WITH HIM ~
[ SO IMPORTANT IS THAT LITTLE WORD..."LET." ]
THERE WAS A TIME, WE MARCHED OUR 5 LITTLE CHILDREN INTO A
LITTLE CHURCH, WHERE A GROUP SUNG "HOW BIG IS GOD."
THAT MEMORY LINGERS MORE SO NOW, THAN EVER BEFORE...
AS WELL AS COMMENT, HEAR OVER AND OVER AGAIN, OF ONES
THAT BECOME AS BROTHERS, DURING TIME OF WAR.
CAN'T HELP BUT THINK ...ARE WE NOT AS SUCH IN THIS TIME
OF ENDLESS TYPES OF WARS ?
IF NOT FOR THE VISION OF... HOW BIG IS GOD... WOULD JUST PUT
DOWN THE WEAPONS, AND SIT DOWN... WAITING TO DIE.
WHY DO WE CONTINUE ON IN THE REALM OF A SPIRITUAL FIGHT ?
WHAT WAS IT THAT IMPLANTED IN THE MIND, A VISION THAT
REFUSES TO DIE ?
WHAT CAUSES YOU TO SEARCH OUT THE WORD, TIL' THE ANSWER
FINALLY DOES ARRIVE ?
GUESS MUST ASK SELF...WHAT EVEN CAUSES THE ENDLESS
PASSIONATE DRIVE ?
WHAT BRINGS JOY... MORE THAN VICTORY; AT THE END OF WARS...
FOR SOLDIERS; IT'S THE VISION OF...GOING HOME !
HOW EXCITED THEY BECOME, AS VISION THE CELEBRATION THAT
AWAITS ~
BUT HOW OPPOSITE IT DOES SEEM IN THIS LIFE,AS HEAR STORIES
OF ENDLESS DEATH, EXPERIENCED BY ONES THAT FOUGHT
ON GROUNDS, SO FAR AWAY ~
IT'S THEIR STORIES, THAT NEVER FADE, BUT EVER REMAIN
AS CLEAR IN THE MINDS, AS IF IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY !
WONDER, DOES ANY EXPERIENCES OF WAR SCENES REALLY DIE,
IS LIFE NOT AS ONE IN THE CIRCLE OF HISTORY ?
WITHOUT HISTORY...HOW DOES ANY REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT
THE PRESENT AND FUTURE MEANS ?
WHAT CAUSED A DRIVE TO READ, IN ORDER TO GAIN DEEPER
UNDERSTANDING ?
WAS THE SPIRITUAL FIRST, OR RECORDING OF A HUMAN BEING ?
WHY IS IT A MUST TO GO BACK TO THE BEGINNING ?
... HOW BIG IS GOD REALLY...
HE'S BEYOND AND ABOVE ALL THINGS...CREATOR OF ALL THINGS,
ENDLESS ...ARE HIS RECORDED NAMES ~
WHY IS THERE SUCH INTIMATE HEART WORSHIP AND PRAISE UP
TOWARD HIM...WHY DO WE CELEBRATE ?
WHY FAITH IN THE UNSEEN...BUT WILLING TO DIE BECAUSE OF A
FIRM BELIEF....
ARE WE TOO...A PART OF THE CIRCLE OF HISTORY...
A PART OF THE GOD OF NO BEGINNING OR ENDING...
NOW GET TO HEAR ALL THE MEN THAT PREACH BY RADIO,
AND I TELL YOU...THESE YOUNGER GUYS ARE JUST GREAT !
THEY CAN CORRECT, EDIFY, EVEN REBUKE, AND IT'S OK BY ME ~
WHEN ONE REALIZES THAT NO MATTER WHAT, GOD'S IN CHARGE,
AND THAT THERE WILL NOT BE AN END OF THE GOSPEL,
I SHOUT ..."PRAISE THE LORD."
JUST BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW THIS CRAZY MACHINE THAT WANT
TO JUST BLOW AWAY...EMAIL WORLD-WIDE IS JUST GREAT.
THE GOSPEL IS SPREADING LIKE A WILD FIRE, DRAWING MANY
BELIEVERS TOGETHER, AS NEVER BEFORE, AND TOUCHING
BASE WITH MANY OF A SOUL, AS IS THE RADIO.
IN A WORLD OF SO MANY HAVING TO WORK OUTSIDE THE HOME,
I HEAR OF HOW THEY LISTEN, AS DRIVE TO THE WORKPLACE.
THIS WILDFIRE CANNOT BE PUT OUT, WITH GOD IN CHARGE !
CAN BURN A BIBLE, BUT CAN'T STOP A REVIVAL !
THE WORD IS ALIVE...AND IT WILL CHANGE LIVES !
WE HAVE COME A LONG WAYS, IN HOW CAN COMMUNICATE,
BUT YET...IN PRAYERS REACHING HEAVEN, IT REMAINS THE SAME ~
O' MY LORD...MAY THE HEART ALWAYS DELIGHT IN YOU...
AND TO REMEMBER THAT CAN'T EVEN LIVE WITHOUT YOU.
REMIND THE HEART THAT ONLY YOU SUPPLY ALL MY NEEDS,
FOR THE HEART OFTEN LACKS IN COMPLETE UNDERSTANDING
AND CAN'T REALLY SEE...AS DO YOU OF ETERNALLY ~
HELP ME TO ACCEPT THAT ONLY YOU CAN CHANGE ANY OF
THE SITUATIONS...THAT I CAN'T.
ONLY YOU CAN BRING FORTH BEAUTY, OUT OF ASHES...
LIKE A POTTER, ONLY YOU CAN MOLD AND FASHION...
AND LIKEWISE...SHAPING A HEART INTO ONE OF COMPASSION.
IN HUMILITY..THERE COMES A JOY UNSPEAKABLE...
WHEN KNOW THAT OF MUCH; THIS HEART ISNOT IN CONTROL.
REMIND THE HEART OF YOUR WILL , SET IT AFLAME IN ME...
SO THAT I WILL OBEY, WHAT YOU HAVE DESTINED ME TO BE.
ABOVE ALL; MAY THE SACRIFICE BE EVER ONE OF THANKSGIVING,
DECLARING YOUR WORKS, IN MUCH REJOICING !
O' THE LOVINGKINDNESS THAT YOU POUR OUT FROM THE HIGH
HEAVENLIES...KEEP UPON THAT... THE MIND SO FIXED...
THAT IT BECOMES IMPOSSIBLE ... TO EVER FORGET ~
IT IS YOUR WORD THAT HEALS THE BROKEN SPIRIT,
IT IS YOUR WORD THAT SO CLEANSES...
IT IS YOUR WORD THAT CHASES AWAY DISTRESS LIKE A FIERCE
MIGHTY WIND ~
IT IS YOU THAT DOES ALL...BECAUSE OF YOUR HEART OF MERCY,
AND I CAN RUN WITH MY ALL, UNTO THE EVER HIGH PRIEST !
O' LORD...PRAISE TO YOU WILL BE AS ONE OF... FOREVER ~
MAY "BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD" ...OUR DELIVERER...
BE THE HEART'S SONG; SUNG, BY EACH AND EVERY SERVANT ~
tho' not as educated as most....FELL IN LOVE WITH THE SAME GOD,
THAT WAS THE ONE TRUE GOD OF ISRAEL ~
THRU OUT THE YEARS, READ HIS WOES, AS WELL AS OF HIS LOVE,
AND DELIVERANCE OF HIS PEOPLE.
THEN CAME LATER, THE GREAT MAN SAUL, CHANGED NAME; PAUL ~
ONCE WAS AMONG A FEW EDUCATED WOMEN, WHO SAID THAT HE
WAS A HARD MAN...AT THE TIME I DIDN'T FULLY UNDERSTAND
WHAT THEY MEANT...BUT LATER DID...THEY WERE AGAINST, AND
NOT FOR... OF HOW GOD SO CHOSE HIM ~
I THOUGHT... HOW CAN WE IGNORE WHOM GOD SO CHOOSES ?
AS WAS READING IN ISAIAH, WONDER OF HOW PEOPLE CAN BE SO
BLIND, UNTO WHAT HAS BEEN LEFT TO US , AS A GREAT WARNING ?
AT TOP OF ONE PAGE WAS "CONSEQUENCES OF COMPLACENY."
ONE THING ENTERED THE MIND; HAVE WE FORGOTTEN HIS FURY ?
AS LISTEN TO PROMISES BEING MADE, ARE WE BEING SWALLOWED
UP, IN OUR OWN THINKING ? IN OUR OWN STRENGTH ?
ARE WE SEEKING OUT IN ISAIAH... IN CH.29 & 30 ?
WAS THE WOES ONLY FOR THEN ?
HAD TO GET BACK INTO ROMANS ONCE AGAIN...
AND SHUT OUT ALL OPINIONS EXPRESSED BY MANY,
SO DIVIDED FROM THE LEAST, TO THE TOP OF THE LIST ~
WHAT KIND OF NATION ARE WE...IN THE EYES OF OUR ENEMIES ?
ARE WE ONES OF HOLINESS AND PURITY ?
something to think about, more so...than ever before...
IT IS VITAL,as never before...AS A PEOPLE...
HEARD FROM THE LIPS OF A CHILD...WANT TO BE ONE IN A
STUDY...OF HEALING OF CANCER, WHEN GROW UP.
WAS SO TAKEN BACK OF SUCH A MIND, WHEN MOSTLY HEAR
OF WHAT MOST JUST WANT ,WHILE YET YOUNG.
TAKES THE MIND BACK TO WANTING TO BE A NUN ~
THAT NUN, WOULD CALL JUST TO TALK WITH MY MOM,
ONE ON ONE.
DIVORCE WAS NOT AS IS NOW, AND OF CHILDREN BEING LEFT
HOME ALONE...AND OF THE SITUATION...THAT NUN KNEW , AND IT
SO TOUCHED THE MERCY IN HER SOUL !
BUT NOT SO, OF THE NEIGHBORHOOD, FILLED WITH PEOPLE ~
THAT NUN DIED WHILE YET OF YOUNG AGE, AND THE COMMENT MADE, BY A CHILD... OF FINDING A CURE FOR CANCER...
TOOK BACK TO THE CANCER'S DEATH'S CLAIM UPON ONE OF A HEART OF MERCY !
THEN THERE WAS A CHILD NAMED MARINIA IN FL...AND WHILE
VISITING FAMILY ...WATCHED HER BATTLE WITH CANCER, AND IT SO
TOUCHED THIS HEART, THO' NEVER KNEW HER, STARTED
PRAYING FOR HER. SHE DIED LAST WEEK, AND NOW, IS FREE !
DO WE JUST PRAY FOR ONES CLOSE BY, AND FORGET TO LOOK
BEYOND... ONES NEAR BY ?
WHAT DOES ESCAPE THE ATTENTION, OF PAIN, AND DEATH THAT
IS REALLY WORLD WIDE ?
WHAT WOULD SAY...OUR LORD, JESUS CHRIST ?
WHAT DOES HE PLANT IN THE HEART AND THE MIND ?
WHILE ELECTION IS THE THEME, SO PUT BEFORE US...
DO WE DARE TO FORGET; IN GOD WE TRUST...
AND FORGET THAT THERE IS SUFFERING, FAR AND WIDE,
IN MIDST OF PEOPLE ...ALL AROUND US ?
THERE ARE ONES, GIVING UP THEIR ALL, TO BE A NATION
AS FREE AS OUR AMERICA !
NOT JUST SOLDIERS SENT... BUT ONES THAT JOIN FORCES...
THAT ARE DYING ...IN ORDER TO BRING FORTH FREEDOM.
WHAT ABOUT MISSIONARIES, LIVING AMONG PEOPLE , SO
THAT THEY CAN EXPERIENCE WHAT THOSE PEOPLE ARE GOING
THRU;AND ARE WILLING TO BE USED, WITH THE GOSPEL OF TRUTH ?
IS IT ALWAYS ABOUT ME AND YOU...OR IS IT; BY GOD BEING USED ?
SUCH AN EXAMINING AND STRUGGLING DOES BEGIN...
AS THE PICTURE WIDENS FAR PASS THE HOMELAND ~
MAY THE LORD HEAR AND ACCEPT WHAT THE HEART SAYS...
AS AM PUTTING ALL ASIDE, THAT DISTRACTS, IN THIS BUSY LIFE,
IN ORDER TO JUST WORSHIP, ONE SO HOLY...THAT COUNTS NOT
TIME...AS WE DO.
MAY YOU KNOW THAT DO SO DESIRE TO DELIGHT SELF IN ALL
THAT YOU ARE...SO WORTHY YOU ARE...
THO' THE CLOUDS ARE HANGING LOW, AND SEE NOT THE SUN
AS WOULD DESIRE TO SEE...YOUR VERY PRESENCE IS EVER
ALL DO SEEK ~
TO HEAR YOUR SPIRIT WHISPERING IN THESE EARS; PEACE ~
AS LISTENED TO A ROUND TABLE DISCUSSION THIS MORNING,
O' FATHER...SO ENLIGHTENED BECAME OF WHAT HEARD...
THAT MORE FULLY EXPLAINED, WHAT SO HUNGERED TO LEARN ~
AS ONE SO LIMITED IN WHAT OTHERS CAN NORMALLY EAT...
IT'S LIKE BEING AT A TABLE, FEASTING WITH THE KING ~
THE RICHNESS OF THE WORD...IS LIKE HONEY SO SWEET ~
AND THE MIND IS EVER FOCUSED UPON THAT TREE YET NOT
SEEN...THAT TOO WILL BE AN AWESOME SIGHT...INDEED !
NO MATTER WHAT IS OFFERED HERE, CAN'T COMPARE
WITH WHAT IS AWAITING...
SO...ONWARD WILL GO...WITH VISIONS OF WHAT WILL BEHOLD...
YEARS AGO, WATCHED THRU THE WINDOW, AS A PASTOR
WAS HARD AT WORK, ON A CHURCH BUILDING, AND THAT'S ALL
I DID...BUT ANOTHER BROUGHT HIM A COLD COKE.
NOT LONG AGO, TOLD HER, OF HOW SHE DID, WHAT I FAILED TO DO,
AND OF HOW IT HAS NEVER LEFT MY THOUGHTS !
WHY IS IT, THAT 1 SCENE MAYBE NEVER WILL VANISH...
COULD IT BE BECAUSE...THAT ACT COULD HAD BEEN MY BLESSING ?
BEING REAL IN MISTAKES MADE... MAY JUST ENCOURAGE ANOTHER,
THAT NEEDED TO KNOW THAT THEIR ACT OF KINDNESS HAS NOT
BEEN FORGOTTEN.
IF THAT IS TRUE...WOULD BE 7/24 IN HAVING TO SAY THAT TO MANY !
AND WHAT ABOUT THE LORD; O' MY...HIS EVER ACTS OF KINDNESS ?
WHAT CAUSES ANY TO WORSHIP THE LORD AS ONE DOES...
THRU THE DAY, AND OFTEN AWAKE DURING THE NITE...
JUST...GIVING HIM THANKS ?
WHAT DOES THE LORD DESIRE MORE THAN ANYTHING ?
IS WORSHIP FIRST, OR CONFESSION OF MISTAKES MADE ?
THOUGHT UPON "IT IS WRITTEN " AND ALSO OF HOW THE
SWORD OF HIS MOUTH SAVES AS WELL AS DEVOURS, BY HIS POWER !
GOING BACK AND REMEMBERING OF HOW DAVID WENT TO THE
LORD WITH EVERYTHING ~
HE WAS AWARE OF HIS WEAKNESSES, HIS HELPLESSNESS,
AND LIVED LIFE, IN WORSHIP, CONFESSION,
AND EXALTING THE LORD'S HOLY NAME !
WHAT IS IT THAT HAS SUCH A PURIFYING AFFECT, ON ANY ,
ABIDING AND REMAINING FOCUSED UPON THE HEAVENLY ?
WHAT DRIVES TO REMAIN COMMITTED, DURING LIFE'S JOURNEY ?
WHAT CAUSES TO ARISE, AFTER FAILURES, THAT DISTRACT ...
IS IT BECAUSE...OF REMEMBERING HIS MERCIFUL ACTS ...
RECEIVED A THANK YOU FOR OUR SUPPORT; FROM A LADY THAT
HAS SPENT YEARS IN A MINISTRY...
AND I SIT HERE, WONDERING ALOT, AS SEEMS THAT AM NOT
SURE OF WHERE AM SUPPOSE TO BE ?
AFTER YEARS IN TEACHING; DID ASK GOD...WHAT NOW ?
THERE ARE SOULS SO HUNGRY TO BE WHERE THEY ARE NOT ONLY
TO BE USED... BUT ALSO TO BE FED !
BOLDLY... AM GOING TO MAKE A STATEMENT, THAT DAYS AGO
DID SAY...AS PRAYED.
HOLY SPIRIT, YOU HAVE SHOWN THIS HEART SO VERY MUCH,
AND HAVE MADE THE LORD JESUS SO REAL TO ME...
YET THERE ARE TIMES, THAT DO FEEL SO VERY HUNGRY,
AS IF SOMETHING YET SEEMS MISSING .
IN THIS WORLD THAT HAS ENDLESS PEOPLE, AND ENDLESS
TYPES OF RELIGION... CAUSES HUNGER FOR YOUR RETURNING,
AS WHEN YOU DO, IT WILL BE AS A ONENESS OF PEOPLE IN
TOTAL UNITY ~
NO MORE OF...COME AND SEE THE ONE THAT TOLD ME ALL THINGS;
OR OF YOUR ASKING... FOR A DRINK .
NO MORE DIVISIONS, NO MORE RELIGIONS !
NO MORE OF...IN THE WORLD... AMONG ALL OF THIS ~
NO MORE BEGINNINGS ...OR ENDINGS ~
IS IT ANY WONDER, ONCE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE KING,
IT WILL ALWAYS SEEM AS IF SOMETHING IS MISSING ,
ESPECIALLY; THE COMPLETE ONENESS...IN UNITY ~
IS THERE SUCH A THING, AS MAYBE LIVING IN TIMES OF
HISTORY... OF... TWO BABYLONS ?
CAL[END]ER...NOV. / ALL SAINTS DAY/ TODAY...
TOMORROW / THE DAY OF THE DEAD/ AND ELECTION DAY.
WE ARE REMINDED , THAT ARE TO PRAY !
FOR DEFINITE...ALL COULD PRAY, WAS THE LORD'S PRAYER ,
AS HE WAS THE ONE TRUE GOD; EVEN BEFORE WHAT IS CALLED.
THE CHRISTIAN ERA.
WE HAVE THE INSTRUCTIONS ON HOW TO PRAY...
AND WHY ARE TO PRAY...
AND ALSO NOT TO FRET, BUT IT'S HARD, WITH ALL THAT IS ON DISPLAY.
HAVE TO TURN THE COMPLETE FOCUS AROUND UPON THE
FACT...THAT GOD IS GOD; NOTHING ESCAPES HIS INFINITE EYES ~
IS IT YET TRUE:
IS THERE YET DECEIVING...OF BEAUTY THAT DRAWS NEAR,
IS THERE YET A LIGHT OF FALSE BEAUTY, THAT DRAWS NEAR,
THAT TEMPTS, TO CAUSE TO FALL INTO ERROR ?
HAS THE TRANSFORMED LIGHT BEEN FORGOTTEN AND ONLY OF
THE PAST...OR IS IT WELL AND ALIVE YET ?
NO KINGDOM, OR BUILDING A HIGH TOWER...
NO STATUES, OR WORSHIPPED IDOLS; WILL FOREVER REMAIN.
WHY IS WORSHIP NOW MORE VITAL THAN EVER BEFORE...
WHY ARE MANY BEING DRAWN BACK TO THEIR FIRST LOVE,
MORE THAN EVER BEFORE ?
SO MANY QUESTIONS HAVE ENTERED THE MIND'S DOOR...
AS WATCH ALL OF THE ARISING ENDLESS WARS .
REMEMBERING OF THE FAR PAST; AND OF WHAT NOW SEEMS
TO BE.
O' SOVEREIGN LORD...THE ONE OF ALL POWER IN HEAVEN, IN
EARTH, AND THE SEA...
MAY YOU OPEN THE GATES OF HEAVEN, AS YOURS APPROACH IN
UPLIFTED PRAYERS,AND MAY YOU HEAR OUR PLEAS...
AND ALSO OUR HEART EXPRESSED WORDS OF WORSHIP UP TO THEE...IN TIMES...SUCH AS THESE...
ONE THOUGHT HAS ENTERED THE MIND LATELY...
WHEN IT IS FINISHED...IT IS FINISHED.
CATCH SELF SAYING THAT MORE SO, AS TIME MARCHES ON.
THIS MORNING WHILE IN THE WORD...THERE BEFORE THE EYES
WAS WORDS, THAT HAD MARKED WITH A RED PEN, NOT KNOWING
WHEN ?
I THINK UPON OTHERS, THAT I CONSIDER AS ONES YET YOUNG,
AND TENDER; AND THE GREAT WORKS THEY ARE DOING...
TIL' THE DAY, ALL OF THE SERVING, WORKING , AND WORSHIP HERE,
COMES TO IT'S END.
IN THIS SO VERY MODERN WAYS OF FAST CONNECTION,
REALLY FEEL LIKE ONE , SO VERY DISCONNECTED ~
YET, ON THE OTHER HAND; IN AND OF ALL...GREAT IS THE SPIRIT,
AS, IT IS HE THAT REVEALS, UNTO HEARTS ...
UNTO ANY WITH PURE HEARTS...AND WILLING MINDS, IN ORDER
TO DO THE WORK , IN SERVING OF THE LORD.
THE EYES CAUGHT WORDS, AS READ ON; 3 LITTLE WORDS
LEAPED FORTH OFF OF THE PAGE...WHO AM I...AND YES, THAT
IS THE QUESTION IN THE FOREFRONT OF THIS MIND.
TRULY SEEM AS AM A STRANGER AMONG ALL; AND ASK, WHY AM
LEFT HERE ?
AND NOW THE QUESTION TO YOU; WHY ARE YOU LEFT HERE ?
WHY DO ANY STRIVE TO REMAIN HUMBLE...
IS IT BECAUSE, KNOW THAT IN DOING SO...
CAN PRESENT PETITIONS; AND KNOW THAT HE WILL HEAR ?
WHY OFTEN, DOES HE SEEM TO BE STANDING AFAR OFF,
WHY SEEMS , AS IF IN ALL STRUGGLES; UPON HIM; WE CALL ?
O' DOES NOT LIFE REALLY SEEM ONLY AS A SHADOW ?
IS IT NOT TRUE...SO MUCH COMES ALIVE IN ONE'S THOUGHTS !
THE GREATEST OF ALL THOUGHTS;
OUR GOD IS FAITHFUL...HIS NAME WE WILL EXALT ~~~
WE CAN TRUST IN HIS MERCY, AND OUR SOUL WILL REJOICE...
THE SOUL SAYS, I SHALL NOT BE MOVED...
THE CHILL HAS ARRIVED AS AN UNWELCOMED VISITOR,
O' THE MISSING OF ALL THAT GAVE WARMTH, THRU SUMMER.
THE SAME WITH MANY GATHERING IN OF THEIR HARVEST...
EACH SEASON ALSO BRINGS FORTH A CHANGE OF GARMENT.
O' HOW THIS REMINDS OF THE CHANGE THAT TOOK PLACE OF
THE SERVANT, OUR LORD...AS HE BROUGHT FORTH GREAT
PROMISES, UNTO ANY ABIDING, IN FILTHY SINFUL GARMENTS.
O' THE HEARTS CLEANSED, AND MADE CLEAN...
BY THE ONE THAT HAS TAKEN AWAY ALL OF THE INIQUITY...
AND WILL OUR HEADS BOW, IN SINCERE HUMILITY ?
IS IT ANY WONDER, MISS THE WARMTH OF THE RISING SUN,
NOT ONE THAT MANY MAY WORSHIP...AS IT DOES SEEMS TO BE,
BUT RATHER...OF THE SON THAT BRINGS FORTH HEALING.
THE MORE LEARN OF HIM, THE MORE THAT GROW CLOSER TO HIM...
HIGHER BECOMES THE FLAME BURNING WITHIN, TO WORSHIP HIM,
AS HE SURELY HAS SAVED FROM HELL'S FLAMES OF TORMENT ~
SO FEEBLE BECOMES WHAT IS OFFERED WHILE HERE,
ONLY CAN LIVE; AS WALK IN THE POWER OF THE HOLY SPIRIT.
AND O' AS WATCH BLOOD FLOODING THE GROUND OF THE EARTH,
REMINDS OF SUCH EVIL YET RUNNING RAPID ON THIS EARTH.
REMEMBER {?} THE CRIES OF SO LONG AGO...
SEEMS TO BE CONTINUING ON...IN SCENES OF PRESENT WARS.
DOES IT NOT DRIVE THE SOULS, WITH OUTCRIES UP TO THE
GREAT HOLY THRONE ?
MAYBE; DURING WARS... AMONG FAMILIES, EVEN MORE SO ...
IT'S LIKE HEARTS BEING PRICKED BY THE ROSE BUSH'S THORNS.
IS THIS WHY, MANY SO SEEK THE FACE OF THE LORD ?
HE DESIRES NONE TO PERISH...THIS KEEP IN FOREFRONT OF MIND,
OR SURELY WOULD GIVE UP, BUT REFUSE...AND LIFT UP MANY
OF A PRAYER, UNTO THE LIVING CHRIST ~
BEING RAISED IN THE CITY, NEVER KNEW MUCH OF THE COUNTRY,
ONLY LEARNED... AS LISTENING TO OTHERS.
IT WAS THE SAME IN THE BIBLE... IN THE OLD; STARTED READING.
IN CAME A LOVE, LIKE NONE OTHER...
FOUND THIS AS THIS MORNING WAS READING WORDS... BY ONE
THAT DIED IN 735AD./ HIS PRAYERS: BEFORE AND AFTER TIME
IN THE READING OF THE HOLY SCRIPTURES~
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[think it is worth repeating !]
O,KING OF GLORY,LORD OF HOSTS,WHO DID TRIUMPHANTLY
ASCEND THE HEAVENS, LEAVE US NOT AS ORPHANS, BUT
SEND US THE PROMISED OF THE FATHER, THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH.
WE IMPLORE THEE, O LORD, THAT THE CONSOLER,WHO
PROCEEDETH FROM THEE, WILL ENLIGHTEN OUR SOULS AND
INFUSE IN THEM ALL TRUTH, AS THY SON HATH PROMISED.
O GOD,FATHER OF OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST,VOUCHSAFE TO
GRANT US,ACCORDING TO THE RICHES OF THY GLORY, THAT
CHRIST BY FAITH MAY DWELL IN OUR HEARTS, WHICH ROOTED
AND GROUNDED IN CHARITY, MAY ACKNOWLEDGE THE LOVE
OF CHRIST, SURPASSING ALL KNOWLEDGE. THROUGH THE SAME
CHRIST OUR LORD. AMEN...
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LET ME NOT, O LORD BE PUFFED UP WITH WORLDLY WISDOM,
WHICH PASSES AWAY, BUT GRANT ME THAT LOVE WHICH NEVER
ABATES,THAT I MAY NOT CHOOSE TO KNOW ANYTHING AMONG
MEN, BUT JESUS, AND HIM CRUCIFIED.
I BEG THEE DEAR JESUS, THAT HE UPON WHOM THOU HAST
GRACIOUSLY BESTOWED THE SWEET SAVOR OF THE WORDS
OF THY KNOWLEDGE, MAY ALSO POSSESS THEE, FOUNT OF ALL
WISDOM, AND SHINE FOREVER BEFORE THY COUNTENANCE...
AMEN...
[the older of us/ have witnessed many events/ listened to many reports.]
AS HAVE WATCHED FLAG WAVERING IN TIMES PAST,
SPEECHES OF THE PAST.
PEACE AT LAST ? PUT DOWN... HAS BEEN ALL EVIL ?
UPDATED REPORT:
THINK UPON HOW ALL THAT WAS HOPED FOR; WOULD BE SETTLED
ONCE AND FOR ALL; BUT IN REALITY... CAN SEE THAT'S NOT SO.
WHEN DOES COME A TIME...OF NO MORE ...OF BEING PRAYFUL?
THIS IS WHAT THINK, AS LISTEN AND WATCH THE LATEST EVENT,
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOME KIND OF WAR...DUE TO HEARTS
OF MEN !
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE EVIL, BATTLING AGAINST THE GOOD,
TIL' TIME COMES TO AN END.
TO BE AS ONE DOWNCAST, IS NOT WHAT AM AIMING AT...
BUT RATHER, REALIZING... WHERE WE IN REALITY, TRULY ARE AT.
MORE THAN EVER, MUST CLING TO OUR HOPE...
AND BE EVER ALERT...OF THE INVISIBLE , EVER ON THE ROAM,
WITH ONE PURPOSE...DESTRUCTION IN AND OF HOMES.
HOW VERY VITAL MORE SO IS; REMAINING PRAYERFULLY STRONG ~
WHAT WAS IT LIKE, NOT TO HAVE HAD, WHAT MOST NOW HAVE ?
IT WAS A TIME, THAT HAD TO CREATE, FROM OUT OF THE MIND,
WITH THE SIMPLEST THINGS...THAT ONE COULD FIND.
IT TOOK A MIND, HANDS AND LABOR OF LOVE...
TO CREATE, AND TO STAND BACK AND SEE THE FINISHED PROJECT.
ONE HAS TOLD THE STORY, OF HOW THEIR CHILDREN LEARNED
MORE AS GATHERED AS A FAMILY, OUT ON THE LAND BEYOND
THEIR HOUSE...OF THEIR GOD.
ONE HAS RELATED OF LEARNING TO WALK IN ANOTHER'S SHOES,
AND THERE SEEMS TO BE NO ENDING TO RELATED STORIES,
WHETHER ON THE HOMEFRONT...OR DURING TIMES OF WARS.
THEN THERE'S HISTORY, ENDLESS STORIES TOLD...
NOT ONLY IN OUR BIBLE...BUT OF EVENTS OF REAL PEOPLE,
ONES THAT WERE POOR...ONES THAT HAD IT ALL ~
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE ONES WITH HEARTS OF FLESH,
AND ONES WITH HEARTS OF STONE ~
ONE RELATED THAT IT'S LIKE FITTING THE PIECES TOGETHER,
IN A PUZZLE ~
ALSO SPOKE OF THE BIG PICTURE, THAT WE ALL ARE A PART OF,
AND OF USING WISELY THE GIFT.
THOUGHTS THEN TURNED UPON A LIFE LIVED, IN THE SEARCHING
OUT OF UNDERSTANDING...THAT IS TRULY IN THE END A GREAT
BLESSING !
IT TOOK A MIRACLE OF LOVE TO TURN A STONY HEART,
INTO ONE OF FLESH ~
CAN IT BE...THAT CAN PICTURE IN THE MIND, OF WATCHING AND LISTENING,
BEING ONE IN THE BACKGROUND, AS ALL IS HAPPENING,AS JESUS SPEAKS ,
WITH HIS HOLY EYES SO FIXED UPON HIS CHOSEN OUT DISCIPLES ?
FOR GENERATIONS TO FOLLOW, DOES IT SEEM THAT HIS EYES ARE YET
FIXED UPON YOU AND ME ?
HOW MANY OF THOSE SPOKEN BLESSINGS, SEEM OFTEN HARD TO FULFILL,
AND HOW OFTEN... MAYBE, WE REALIZE THAT IN MUCH, YET DO FAIL?
CAN ONE GO FURTHER ON INTO DEEPER TRUTHS, AND FORGET THOSE WORDS,
AND THINK THAT OF MUCH MORE, WILL JUST BE REVEALED ?
WHY SEEMS THAT DESIRE TO GET ON, TO THE GREAT ENDING OF IT ALL,
AND OF THOSE VITAL REVELATIONS...BECOME SO FORGETFUL?
IS OFTEN THE CRY ONE, O' LORD...AM NOT WORTHY OF YOUR ENTERING THIS HOUSE...BUT SAY THE WORD, AND THE SERVANT SHALL BE HEALED.
O' DOES THE HEART AND SOUL, FULLY UNDERSTAND HIS LORD'S GREAT
WORKS OF AUTHORITY ?
WHAT DOES THE STRONG WORDS, DO TO THE MOST INNER MAN, AS READ ?
WHAT COMES TO MIND, AS THE HOLY ONE'S EYES LOOK BEYOND, INTO
THE DEPTHS OF THE HEART, AND SOUL...OF FRAIL HUMAN BEINGS ?
HAS NOT FOR CENTURIES...ALSO YET...IS TRULY TAKING PLACE,
WHAT POWER IS IT, THAT CAUSES CHANGE; BY ONE THAT IS CHANGELESS ?
WHAT IS THE STRONG FORCE...THE DESIRE OF THE EVERLASTING KINGDOM
WHERE WILL BE FOREVER WITH THE HOLY ONE...UNDER HIS RULING AUTHORITY ?
NOW MUST SPEAK, AS ONE OF THOSE WEAK HUMAN BEINGS...
APOSTLE PAUL'S SHORT BUT POWERFUL LETTER TO TITUS ; CAUSED ME TO WEEP,
IF THERE IS ANYTHING THAT CAN CAUSE TO FALL DOWN ON ONE'S KNEES...
AND MAKE ONE SAY; O' BEEN BETTER HAD NOT BEEN BORN, THAN TO KNOW
OF WHAT HAD ALREADY MARKED, YET...O' SO QUICKLY DID FORGET...
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WAS IT FOR ONLY BACK THEN ?
CALLED THE BROTHER OF A LONG TIME AGO WAR, AND HE SAID HE HAD TO
QUIT WATCHING THE NEWS, OR WATCH MOVIES ON THAT SUBJECT.
HE IS ONE THAT NEVER SPOKE MUCH, EXPECT OF HOW CHILDREN WOULD
EAT THE SCRAPES OUT OF THE MAIN KITCHEN GARBAGE CAN, AND OF HOW
PEOPLE WORSHIPPED THE COW, ABOVE PEOPLE.
HE SPOKE OF NO BATHROOMS, AND OF THE WASTE AND SMELL OF THE GROUND,
AND IT WAS MORE THAN COULD HANDLE.
IN HISTORY, THERE WERE WALLED IN PEOPLE, THAT THE STORY IS SO ALIKE,
THE SMELL OF HUMAN WASTE WAS OVERWHELMING.
WE HAVE COME ALONG WAYS, FROM WHAT IS YET FACTS ELSEWHERE...
IN ALL COMFORT HAVE...MAYBE ARE TOO COMFORTABLE ?
MANY SEEK SUN RAYS...FOR DIFFERENT PURPOSES...IN DIFFERENT WAYS;
FOR YEARS,THE SOUL SEEKED FOR COMFORT WHILE IN PAIN.
THE SWEAT WAS GREAT... BUT IT MADE AWARE OF THE LORD,
AS HE ONCE PRAYED.
ONES THAT PLANTS A GARDEN, WITHOUT ALL THE UPDATED EQUIPMENT
CAN ALSO EXPERIENCE THE SAME.
AS IT IS TRULY A LABORING, BEFORE REAPING WHAT EARLIER DID SOW ~
HAVE A PICTURE ON THE KITCHEN WALL, OF FARMERS IN THE FIELD,
PRAYING IN HUMILITY...AND ALMOST UNSEEN IN THE FAR BACKGROUND
IS A CHURCH BUILDING.
JESUS WAS IN A GARDEN, NOT A BUILDING...PRAYING ~
REMINDS OF THE LOSS OF A GARDEN SO LOST, DUE TO SIN OF DISOBEYING,
AND THE REST OF LIVES BEING SPENT IN SWEAT OF LABORING ~
IT ALSO BRINGS TO MIND OF THE MEANING OF THE GREAT INCARNATION,
OF THE MOST HOLY SETTING ASIDE, FOR A TIME; HIS HEAVENLY POSITION,
IN ORDER TO BRING FORTH SALVATION, UNTO HUMANS, MADE IN GOD'S IMAGE.
O' HOW THANKFUL BECOME, AS LOOK AT THE PICTURE ON THE WALL,
REMINDING THE SOUL...OF HUMILITY IN PRAYER, AND LATER REAPING
WHAT EARLIER IN LIFE,ON THE KNEES ... DID SOW.
ALL OF THIS CAME ABOUT AFTER READING JAMES 2; AND OF HEARING THE
TEACHINGS BY RADIO DURING THE WEEK..AND TAKING DOWN NOTES...
NOT JUST BEING IN A BUILDING ON SUNDAY...
BUT ARISING EARLY EACH MORNING... IN THE QUIET TIME, IN THIS HOME.
ONE OF THE PAST, SPOKE WORDS THAT CAUSED THE HEART PAIN..
AFTER COMMENT MADE...THE MIND DRIFTED BACK INTO ABLE AND CAIN~
IS IT NOT A FACT OF LIFE...THERE WILL ALWAYS BE AS IF TWO SIDES ?
SECURITY...OF KNOWING WHOM YOU ARE IN THE LORD...
OTHERS, WITH SUCH DETERMIND MINDS...TO CRUCIFY ~
AS READ, AND GET THE PICTURE IN YOUR MIND, AS A VISION SO REAL,
IT WAS SO IN AND ALL OF THE PAST...AND IT IS YET...CAIN'S SPIRIT IS ONE
BENT UPON DESTROYING; AND TO KILL.
JESUS' MIND SET WAS TO HEAL !
JESUS' MIND SET,WAS AND IS, SEEKING OUT, AND DOING GOD'S WILL !
THE MIND SET OF THIS TIME...SEEMS THAT MANY CONSCIENCES, IS AS IF DEAD,
AND SO HARD IS IT AS WATCH IT'S EFFECT.
ON THE OTHER SIDE...IS LIVE CONSCIENCES, BEING POWERFUL WITNESSES,
AND ALSO ARE HAVING A GREAT EFFECT...
BECAUSE THEY KNOW THE STORY OF THE HOUSE BEING BUILT UPON THE SAND.
* realize that the devil is often the focus, focused upon more so...and taught of...
than of...when another speaks from a jealous and envying heart.
EVERYTHING SEEMED TO BE GOING SO SMOOTH...I WILL NOT BE MOVED !
THEN COMES IN A VERY UNEXPECTED SURPRIZE ATTACK...AND IT'S LIKE
FORGET COMMENT MADE OF...I WILL NOT BE MOVED !
IT'S NOT LIKE THE WAR WE HEAR ABOUT EVERY DAY ELSEWHERE,
IT'S ONE... RIGHT "HERE."
BECAME CONFUSED...TIL' REMEMBER A LONG AGO LIFTED UP PRAYER !
REMEMBERING BEEN THERE , AND DONE THAT...
AND SEEN THE MIGHTY WORKS OF WHAT PRAYER CAN DO !
GOD IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN TURN AROUND ANY SITUATION AT HAND...
O' WHY DOES ONE FORGET SO SOON, AND BECOME ONE TO FRET ?
DID NOT THE SUN ARISE, AND IT'S A NEW DAY ?
DID NOT IT MAKE ONE DETERMINDED MORE SO...TO JUST PRAY ?
OR...AWAKE TO THE FACT...THAT , THE FATHER HAS ARISIN' A NEW DAY...
AND GONE IS YESTERDAY ~
HIS CHILDREN WILL ALWAYS BE FACED WITH THINGS THAT SEEM HARD TO
FIGURE OUT; AND WHO OTHER CAN BRING CHANGE ABOUT...
EXCEPT ONE'S FATHER GOD .
EVEN IF ARE A PRAYER WARRIOR, WHOM DO YOU SEEK HELP OF,
NO MATTER WHAT ?
AS DAVID...SEEMS MANY OF A LIFE; EVEN THO' ARE IN CHRIST...
WHEN IN A CRISIS...RUNS BACK INTO THE BOOK OF PSALMS ~
ARE WE REALLY MUCH DIFFERENT THAN DAVID WAS...
ASK THE SOUL THIS QUESTION,ARE WE NOT ALSO JUST OF DUST ?
YES, ARE WONDERFULLY MADE...AREN'T WE...
YET ALSO; ARE BATTLES TO BE FOUGHT, WHILE AMONG THE LIVING !
O' HOLY SPIRIT, RENEW THIS DAY, A FILLING ...WE SO NEED FOR STRENGTH,
IN ORDER TO RUN IN THIS RACE...THIS DAY...
IN OUR LORD JESUS' NAME...WE SO PRAY...
IT IS CLEAR THAT ONES IN WAR ARE SPEAKING OUT OF THEIR HEARTS, OF THEIR INNER THOUGHTS.
SOLDIERS THAT CALL OTHERS ,THEIR BROTHERS.
WE BECOME SO ATTACHED, AS IF THERE IS NO MORE OF INDIVIDUAL, BUT ONLY AS ONE OF MANY !
WE ARE IN THE SAME FIGHT, AND ARE AS SIDE BY SIDE, WHEN HAVE SURRENDERED TO CHRIST ~
THE BATTLE IS OF ONE AIM...TO REACH OUT AND TOUCH OTHER LIVES ~
THERE IS OFTEN A NEED FOR 2 TO KEEP THE 3RD'S ARMS UP, AS A BATTLE RAGES ON,
AND THERE IS A NEED FOR OTHERS, TO COME ALONG SIDE, WHEN SPIRITS ARE LOW,
FOR SURELY, CAN SEE...IT NEVER ENDS IN THIS WORLD ;BEING IN SOME KIND OF WAR ZONE.
TRY TO FOCUS IN UPON THE ARMIES THAT WILL COME WITH OUR LORD...AS DO TYPE.
TRY TO FOCUS IN UPON WHAT IT DEEPLY MEANS...IN BEING CALLED HIS BRIDE !
YET ALSO; WHILE WAIT...THERE IS A UNDER CURRENT THAT SEEMS TO TRY TO TAKE UNDER,
AND WEARY BECOME IN THE STRUGGLE.
OFTEN IT MAY BE BECAUSE OF FEAR OF FAILURE, AS DEALING WITH OTHERS...
AS NEVER DESIRE TO HEAP UPON THEIR SHOULDERS, HEAVIER TROUBLES...
AS ON THIS JOURNEY...WE ALL ARE TRAVELING ON.
HOW MANY TIMES, WE MAY FAIL IN WHAT SAY WILL DO...
NOT ONLY FOR OUR LORD...BUT FOR OTHERS TOO ?
IT CAN OFTEN SEEM THAT SO MUCH GETS IN THE WAY, AND IF OTHERS TRUST IN YOU,
DO WE DARE TELL THEM...THAT WE FAILED ?
IN THIS PRESENT TIME...THERE ARE ENDLESS REQUESTS...MORE THAN CAN KEEP COUNT OF,
AND O' THE FEAR OF JUST MISSING OF ONE ~
WE AS THE LORD'S PEOPLE KNOW THE BIBLE, AND OFTEN IT'S JUST A STRUGGLE TO WALK
IN THE WAY ARE TO WALK...AS ARE SURROUNDED WITH DEAD SPIRITUAL SOULS,
THAT SEEM TO BE AS A ARMY OF SLEEPING CLONES.
YET AS THINK UPON ALL THIS...RATHER HAVE THE RESPONSIBILTY OF GOING FORTH,
AND BEING AMONG ALL THAT UNDERSTAND THE EVIL FORCE THAT WILL BE DEFEATED
ONCE AND FOR ALL ...BY THE LORD'S DRAWN SWORD...
THERE IS A WOMAN WITH A 45 YR.OLD DISABLED DAUGHTER
AND AT 70 YRS. OLD ...THAT WOMAN HAS TO YET WORK.
THERE IS ANOTHER, WHOSE HUSBAND LEFT WORK AT A PLANT,
TO MINISTER, AND TEACH PEOPLE IN THE WORST PART OF HAITI,
DOING SO, INSPITE OF A FAILING KIDNEY.
THIS WOMAN HAS CRIPPLING SEVERE ARTHRITIS, DOING ALL KINDS OF
LABORING, IN SENDING SUPPLIES ENDLESSLY TO HIM, PLUS SHE ALSO
HOLDS DOWN A JOB.
THEN THERE IS ANOTHER, THAT HAS OVER THE YEARS CARED FOR A SISTER,
WITH NO HELP FROM LESS CARING OFFSPRINGS.
ALL 3 WOMEN, WERE FAITHFUL UNTO THEIR PARENTS TIL' DEATH.
I CALL THEM FRIENDS, BECAUSE THEY TAUGHT ME SO MUCH THRU OUT
THE PAST YEARS, OF STRONG FAITH, AND SELF SACRIFICE.
OFTEN MAY FORGET THAT MISSIONARY WORK, CAN BE WHERE ONE LIVES AT ~
ALSO HAVE A WOMAN DRIVING A SCHOOL BUS, THO REALLY AM NOT ABLE TO...
DUE TO HELPING IN EXPENSES OF LIVING...AS WELL AS EVER BEING THERE
FOR OTHERS IN NEED ! SHE IS ALSO IN A GREAT MINISTRY .
AS LISTEN TO OTHERS, OFTEN IT REVEALS THAT TIMES HAVE TAKEN A GREAT
TURN ABOUT...WITH THE VERY YOUNG OFFSPRINGS, AND WHAT THEY ARE INTO.
IT CAUSES A GREAT UPWARD OF PRAYERS, BY OTHERS THAT SEE ALL OF THIS !
YET ALSO; AS THE SAME...WITH FRIENDS, LIVING A LIFE IN HARDSHIP ~
AND WITH OTHERS THAT SERVE, IN MANY AREAS, WE'VE NEVER BEEN TO,
ALSO THE GOVERMENT...AND THE SOLDIERS, AND THE LEADERS OF PEOPLE
IN FAITHFUL LIVING, TEACHING GOD'S PRINCIPLES... AND THE LIST IS ENDLESS.
WHEN LOOK AT THE LIST, BECOME OVERWHELMED WITH WHAT SEE ~
*** " BUT ALL IS NOT DARK, AND GLOOMY, AS MAY HAVE PRESENTED." ***
AS THERE IS A GREAT CALLING OUT OF WITNESSES,IN MIDST OF ALL THIS,
THAT ARE BEING USED BY THE KING ...WITH A POURED OUT GREAT ANOINTING !
TRULY NOT ONLY FOR THE ONES THAT WILL BE COMING WITH HIM...
BUT ALSO FOR ONES NOW ALIVE AND DOING...TIL' HIS RETURNING...
[feel like a little child, when awake, free of pain]
IF NOT FOR EVERYTHING ONE GOES THRU...
WOULD HAD NEVER KNOWN WHAT YOUR GOD CAN DO !
LORD...WOULDN'T HAD MISSED ALL THAT HAVE BEEN THRU,
WHEN ...THERE AT THE END...THERE IS YOU !
ENDLESS KINDS OF LOVES, DESIRES AND WANTS...
YET NONE FULLFILLS... AS YOURS DOES ~
THE MIND THINKS UPON... HOW FOR CENTURIES, AND OF THE
ENDLESS PEOPLE THAT HAVE SOUGHT YOU, AND OF HOW
THERE IS ONLY " 1 " OF YOU !
OF HOW ENDLESS ONES WERE WILLING TO LAY DOWN THEIR
LIVES FOR THE...ONE AND ONLY YOU ~
IT'S BEEN GENERATION AFTER GENERATION, SEEKING OUT,
AND WATCHING , WITH BEATING HEARTS, FOR YOUR RETURN...
AND SOMETIMES...WONDER...WHY NOT NOW ?
O' OFTEN JUST CRY OUT THESE WORDS ALOUD ~
IT MATTERS NOT THE "AGE"...THE SONG WITHIN THE HEART IS
THE SAME ~
"JESUS SAVES...JESUS SAVES "
AS LISTENING TO A TEACHER ON SPIRITUAL MATTERS OF ACCOUNTIBILTY...
THOUGHTS CAME FLOODING IN OF SECRETS OF GENERATIONS OF FAMILY.
SECRETS OF THE PAST...WHAT A HEAVY THING, WHEN ANOTHER SPEAKS
IN YOUR EARS , AND YOU MUST KEEP LOCKED IN THE HEART TIL' DEATH.
MAYBE NOT ALL EXPERIENCE SUCH...OF THINGS THAT OTHERS HAVE DONE,
BUT YOU KNOW THAT MUST NEVER REVEAL IT TO ANYONE, FOR AS LONG AS
YOU LIVE.
FAMILY SECRETS CAN BE AS LIKE IN A PRISON, WHERE THERE IS NO ESCAPE
FROM.
NOT AS THE OLD TESTAMENT, REVEALING THE WHOLE SCENE...FOR EXAMPLES
LEFT TO US...BUT RATHER, IT'S LIKE GOING AGAINST ANOTHER'S TRUST...IN US.
IF OTHER MEMBERS OF THE FAMILY CIRCLE KNEW WHAT YOU KNOW,
IT WOULD DESTROY THEIR IMAGE OF WHAT ANOTHER REALLY WAS.
WHY NEVER REVEAL, MAY ASK SELF...BECAUSE , DON'T WANT THEM TO KNOW,
AS IT WAS FOR YOUR EARS ALONE.
OFTEN IF ANOTHER SPEAKS OF A SUBJECT, THEY THINK THEIR RIGHT ON...
IT'S SUCH A STRUGGLE, TO JUST TELL THEM THAT THEY ARE WRONG.
WHY DID THE HEART SEEM TO EXPOSE , YET JUST CAN'T FULLY REVEAL ALL,
BECAUSE... OF A PROMISE MADE SO VERY LONG AGO.
THEN, THERE'S THE OTHER SIDE... THE BIBLE...
THE ACCOUNTIBILITY, THE EXAMPLES...CLEARLY SHOWN...
THAT IS NOT ONLY FOR A FEW, BUT FOR EACH INDIVIDUAL !
NOT ONLY FOR WE GENTILES, BUT ALSO ...YET FOR ISRAEL ~
IT'S NOT A MATTER OF EXPERIENCES...BUT OF REVEALED FACTS,
CAN ANY JUDGE THEM, AS WATCH; WHAT NOW HERE, HAS COME TO PASS ?
SO MUCH NEGLECT... SEEMS AS IF ARE AS THEIR'S WAS IN THE PAST.
A SAVING FAITH...WILL PRODUCE... OF AND IN TRUTH...
NO MATTER OF THE ENDLESS STRUGGLES, ONE MAY GO THRU...
IT'S YET THE SAME QUESTION...OF WHOM; DOES EACH PUT THEIR TRUST IN ?
WENT TO A BUILDING WHERE A MAN STOOD UP TO SPEAK...
AND HIS WORDS WERE..."WHAT DID YOU EXPECT TO SEE "
AS HE WAS REFERRING TO HIMSELF.
HIS MESSAGE WAS SO STRONG, AND IT WAS AS IF A MIGHTY PRESENCE
OF THE SPIRIT FILLING THE PLACE WITH THE LORD'S AWESOME GLORY ~
WHO WAS THIS MAN AND WHAT DID HE LOOK LIKE...
WHICH, THEN CAPTURED THE MIND AND TOOK BACK TO THE DAYS OF CHRIST.
IN THIS PRESENT WORLD, WHERE SEEMS THAT BEAUTY IS THE MAIN THEME,
OR THE TICKLING OF THE EARS...TO MANY...
IT WAS SO DIFFERENT INDEED.
THE MIND'S EYE DRIFTED BACK... WAY BACK, UNTO MEN THAT WERE JUST
PLAIN HUMAN BEINGS...USED FOR GOD'S AWESOME GLORY ~
IT WAS NOT THEM, BUT OF THE POWER OF GOD'S HAND, THAT CHOSE OUT
WHOEVER, HE SO PLEASED TO USE.
WHOEVER HE SO APPROVED ~
IF THINK UPON THE CONDITIONS OF THAT TIME...MISSING IS WHAT WE HAVE IN
THIS PRESENT TIME.
WE SPLASH AND SMELL SO SWEET...THEY WERE MEN, EVER ON A MISSION,
A JOURNEY.
THE WORDS SEEM TO STICK SO FIRM IN THE MIND: WHAT DO YOU EXPECT TO
SEE, WHEN GO INTO A BUILDING, THAT MOST TODAY CALL A CHURCH ?
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF A MAN; THAT SEEMS ONE WITH WORDS, SO STERN ?
HAS ROMANCE SO CAPTURED THE HEART...THAT DESIRE ONLY SWEET WORDS ?
THE BLOOD, THE UGLINESS, AND THE SUFFERING;WAS NOT ONE OF BEAUTY ~
WHY IS THERE SUCH A WRESTLING WITH ONE'S GOD...BEFORE SURRENDERING ?
IS NOT... WHEN IN HIS PRESENCE...A FORCE, THAT IS OVERWHELMING ?
IS THERE ANY OTHER BATTLE...SO FIERCE AS THE ONE BEING IN HIS PRESENCE ?
AND ALSO... THE COMMAND GIVEN... IS IT ONE OF ROMANCING ?
NO...IT IS A HARD TASK GIVEN ~
IS IT A EASY ROAD TO TRAVEL...ARRIVING AT HIS FOREPLANNED DESTINY ?
something to think upon...in this life's journey...
THE PICTURE, IN THE MINDS...
YET...EVEN WITH THAT...ONLY HALF... OF ALL AWAITING,
CAN ONE TRULY GRASP ~
CAN BE TOLD OVER AND OVER AGAIN OF WHAT CAN EXPECT,
BUT , THIS TOO IS ONLY HALF, OF WHAT WILL BE ABLE TO GRASP,
TIL' THAT EVENT COMES TO PASS.
WE THINK THAT WE ARE AMAZED NOW, WITH DELIGHT, EACH TIME
DISCOVER A DEEPER WORD OF TRUTH, ONCE WAS BLIND TO,
BUT; WHEN SEE THE ONE OF WISDOM, THE KING OVER ALL,
WITH EYES WIDE OPEN...WILL BE IN COMPLETE WONDER AND AWE,
AS FOR NOW...WE ONLY SEE A GLIMPSE...ONLY,IN PART.
WE MAY SERVE HERE...BUT OFTEN FORGET THAT WITH HIM...
THEN...PERFECT WILL BE OUR SERVICE OFFERED UNTO THE LORD !
IT WAS THE LORD THAT SAID TO THE FATHER, THEY THAT THOU
HAS GIVEN ME, BE WITH ME, WHERE I AM ~
HOW MANY HEARTS ARE SO HUNGRY FOR MORE THAN JUST A
GLIMPSE ?
HOW MANY GROW WEARY OF THIS ?
O' MY...MAYBE PATIENCE COULD BE GROWING THIN ?
O' LORD...FORGIVE, FOR THERE IS MUCH YET LEFT TO DO,
O' BE SURE, I THINK IT NOT AS A DUTY, BUT ONE OF JUST SERVING
YOU...SO PLEASE FORGIVE THE HASTINESS OF SPEECH, MY KING.
LOVE DOES SEEM TO GROW IMPATIENT...AND THE STRUGGLES
NEVER SEEM TO END...AS IN THIS THING WE CALL A COVERING,
A TENT...THAT IS TEMPORAL.
IN HEAVEN...IN HEAVEN...IN HEAVEN...READ AND READ AGAIN...
ABSENT FROM THE BODY...PRESENT WITH THE LORD...
O' LORD...AM OFTEN QUILTY OF JUST SAYING..."WHEN ? "
YEARS AGO, HELPED PUT TOGETHER A FUNERAL FOR GRANDMA,
THEN LATER, MOTHER.
THE REASON BEING THAT MOTHER WAS IN THE STARTING STAGE OF DEMENTIA,
AND BEFORE HER DEATH...WAS IN LATTER STAGES OF THE DREAD STEALER
OF ONE'S MIND.
NOW THIS DAY...IS ANOTHER THAT IS A BROTHER'S EX...
AND IT HAS AWAKEN ALOT OF WHAT WENT THRU IN THE PAST ~
OVER THE SPAN OF YEARS OF BATTLES OF HOLDING ON TO MY OWN MIND...
IS NOT YET OVER...TIL' I DIE.
BE SURE ... THAT AM AWARE OF MANY OTHERS OUT THERE THAT GO THRU MUCH,
AND HAS ALSO ENDURED MUCH...AND HAS PERSEVERED !
DO YOU EVER WONDER WHY YOU WERE SO CHOSE OUT BY THE LORD...
AND OF ALL HE HAS IN STORE...WHEN YOU ARE GOING THRU ENDLESS STORMS ?
HOW COULD ANY EVEN DISCOVER OF HOW HE CAN STRENGTHEN AND LIFT UP,
UNLESS ONE FULLY REALIZES THEIR VERY OWN HELPLESSNESS ?
WHAT IS THE WORD "TRUST"...AND WHAT DOES IT REALLY MEAN...
IS IT JUST FOR A SEASON...OR OF THE WHOLE TIME, ARE AMONG THE LIVING ?
WILL ANY AS WHILE LIVING, NEVER CROSS PATHS WITH ENEMIES ?
WILL NOT COME TIMES...THINK ARE LOSING IT ...MENTALLY ?
WILL NOT COME TIMES, THAT UNDERSTAND LOSS, AS WELL AS VICTORY ?
AND BEWARE; WHEN HE SO USES YOU, WHAT HAPPENS OFTEN
IMMEDIATELY...AFTERWARDS...
AND WHOM DO YOU RUN TO...WHEN THIS DOES OCCUR ?
THE WORD...THE ONE THAT KNEW BEFOREHAND...THAT THIS WOULD OCCUR !
IF NOT OF KNOWING THAT THE LORD HAD BEEN WHERE WE NOW ARE AT,
COULD ANY REALLY SURVIVE SUDDEN ATTACKS ?
IF SEEM FORSAKEN... THIS TOO...HE, HIMSELF FELT ~
THE WORLD WAS NOT WORTHY OF ONE OF BEAUTY, AND SINLESSLY PURE,
AND FOR DEFINITE; OF GIVING OF SELF, FOR SUCH SINFUL ONES, SO UNPURE ~
DID HE ALSO KNOW THAT THERE WOULD BE MANY EVEN YET THAT WOULD
REJECT HIM...AS MANY DID IN THE PAST ?
DOES IT SEEM TRUE...THAT MANY ARE AS REMAINING IN THE STAGE OF
BLINDNESS ?
DRINKING IS # 1... IN THIS WORLD TODAY, GAINING AS NEVER BEFORE,
AND THE HEAVIER SUBSTANCES OF DRUGS, ARE A DESTRUCTIVE FORCE...
THAT MANY FAMILIES KNOW WELL; CRYING UP IN PRAYER TO THEIR LORD ~
HOW MANY WARS, ARE WE REALLY IN THIS DAY...
ARE THEY TRULY... PAST COUNTING ?
IS DRAWING NEARER... THE LORD'S RETURNING...
WHAT ARE WE HERE FOR ?
WHY ARE WE LEFT ALIVE, EVEN ONE MORE DAY ?
LISTEN TO VOICES EXPRESSING ALL ELSE, BUT OF BLESSING ANOTHER...
DOES IT DRIVE THE HEART TO DO SO...ON THE KNEES UP TO THE HEAVENLY FATHER ?
WHO OF US, DOESN'T NEED A BLESSING SPOKEN OVER US ?
HAVE WE BECOME SO MUCH LIKE... AS THE WORLD ?
AS THE CHILDREN OF THE FATHER OF LIGHTS...
AND SERVANTS... OF THE SON...LORD JESUS CHRIST...
HOW DOES SO SHINE... OUR LIGHT ?
O' SUCH HUMAN BEINGS, SO WEAK... WE ARE ...
SO CAUGHT UP IN SO MUCH; FORGETTING WHY ARE HERE, AND WHAT FOR ~
THESE ARE JUST A FEW QUESTIONS; AS LISTENED TO VOICED FAMILY WARS...
AS IF...MAYBE WE AREN'T ONES AFTER THE VERY HEART, OF OUR LORD...
AS WE SO CLAIM THAT WE ARE ?
EXAMINATION OF ALL THAT HAS BEEN VOICED...AND WITH A TROUBLED SOUL...
HAD TO ESCAPE EVEN BEFORE DAWN AROSE...AND HUMBLY APPROACHED THE
MOST HIGH THRONE...1ST...WITH ASKING FORGIVENESS OF SELF'S WRONGS,
BEFORE ASKING ON BEHALF OF OTHERS WORDS SO VOICED.
WHAT ARE WE HERE FOR, AND WHY ARE GRANTED ANOTHER DAY ?
WHY IS IT...WE FORGET THE REASON WHY ?
O' LORD...HERE BEFORE THE EYES IS A BOOK OF ENDLESS
PROMISES...THAT FOUND AMONG MANY BOOKS, ON THE SHELF~
[ OFTEN, SUCH A DIRE NEED, OF WATER THAT BRINGS FORTH REFRESHING ! ]
FILLED BECAME THE SOUL, AS READ PAGES FILLED WITH LOVE.
IT'S A NEW DAY...A NEW BEGINNING...
O' THE MANIFESTATIONS OF THY DEITY...UNTO THE HEARTS OF
YOUR REDEEMED...AS THE EYES DRINK IN EACH OF THE AWESOME
PROMISES, FILLING THE CUP OF JOY, OVERFLOWING ~
ANY HEART THAT HAS SEEMED TO BE AT A LOSS DURING TIME
AS IF ON THE FRONT LINE OF BATTLES, IN THEIR LIVES,
NEED THE PROMISES OF DRINK AND FOOD WAITING AT A TABLE
FILLED WITH SUCH, TO RENEW THE STRENGTH, IN ORDER, TO
GO BACK , TO THE FRONT LINE ~
FOUND WORDS IN THE BOOK THAT STRUCK A CORD IN THE HEART...
"IN HEAVEN, THERE WILL BE NO NECESSITY FOR 2ND HAND
KNOWLEDGE"...AS SEEMS THE CASE HERE, THRU PREACHERS
TEACHERS...AS THERE...OUR SPIRITUAL INTELLIGENCE WILL BE
"PERFECTED" BY DIRECT CONTACT WITH "THE SOURCE" OF ALL
TRUE KNOWLEDGE !
[YESTERDAY WAS TOLD THAT THE HOMEPLACE OF REARING OUR CHILDREN
WAS TORN DOWN...AND THE FOLLOWING WORDS SEEMED EVEN MORE REAL.]
TO DIE IS GAIN...AND HONESTLY CAN'T WAIT TO ENTER THAT GATE,
BECAUSE O' LORD...THE STRUGGLES HERE HAVE BEEN SO GREAT ~
HOME, HOME ...AT LAST...NOT ONES OF DECAYING FRAMES,
BUT RATHER A HOME ... WHICH BY YOUR HANDS MADE ~
I TOLD A BROTHER JUST YESTERDAY, THAT WHO WOULD WANT
TO LIVE FOREVER IN A BODY, AS IS, AND HE THOUGHT FOR A
MOMENT OR TWO, BEFORE HIS ANSWER CAME.
BUT THE GREATEST IS... AS THE LORD SPOKE UNTO THE ONE,
THE THIEF ON THE CROSS...
" TODAY "...THOU SHALT BE WITH "ME" IN PARADISE !
O' HOW REAL AND HOW DETERMINDED TO RUN THE RACE IN FAITH
BECOMES MORE REAL THAN ANYTHING THAT MAY HAD TAKEN
PLACE YESTERDAY ...
HAD PLANS, A PLANE TICKET, AND DESIRED TO GO VISIT A FATHER,
THAT HADN'T SEEN FOR ABOUT 38 OR SO YEARS, BUT DIDN'T GO AFTER ALL.
ALSO; TOLD MY DAUGHTER, THAT HAVE SHARED MY JOURNAL IN LIFE THRU EMAIL,
AND TOLD ANOTHER ; IF ALL DELETE OR READ, I'LL NEVER KNOW...BUT IT'S OK.
"IF IT JUST ENCOURAGED 1 PERSON, PRAISE THE LORD ~"
DOES THE SOUL SPEAK WORDS OF THE DEEPEST DESIRE OF
BEING PLEASING TO THE FATHER GOD...AND IF SO...WHY ?
DOES THE SOUL REALIZE WHY HE SEEMS TO ALWAYS GIVE YOU
MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE ALONE ?
AND WHY IS IT , WHEN YOU HEAR OTHER SPEAK OF WHY...
THEN SAY TO SELF; O' YES...HOW DID THE SOUL FORGET THAT ?
HAVE YOU EVER LAID YOUR HEAD DOWN ON THE PILLOW,
SAYING; MY SOUL ONLY DESIRES TO PLEASE THE LORD, AND
BE WHAT HE MEANT ME TO BE ?
DOES THE SOUL LIKE A LITTLE CHILD, FEEL LIKE ARE BEING CUDDLED TO SLEEP ?
THERE IS NOTHING EVER MORE ASSURING !
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD YOURSELF SAYING...
IF HAD AN EARTHLY FATHER, MAYBE THINGS WOULD HAD BEEN
DIFFERENT IF LIFE...YET REMEMBER WHAT A FRIEND SPOKE OF
WHAT IT WAS LIKE .
SHE SAID ;THAT NO MATTER WHAT THE PROBLEM, HER DAD COULD
FIX IT FOR HER...TIL' ONE NITE A MAN WAS KILLED BEFORE HER
VERY EYES...THAT WAS A PROBLEM, THAT NONE COULD MAKE HER
FEEL SAFE, AND A PROBLEM, EVEN HER DAD COULDN'T FIX ~
WHAT IS IT THAT FINALLY AWAKES THE SOUL TO THE FACT,
"THAT THERE IS A FATHER GOD"
AND ONLY HE CAN FIX ALL THINGS ?
IS THIS THE SOUL'S REASON FOR BEING EVER PLEASING TO HIM ...
IN ALL ONE DOES, AS WELL AS DEPENDING UPON HIM, FOR
EVEN ONE'S EVER NEEDED STRENGTH ?
ONLY WHEN ONE COMES TO A TOTAL END OF SELF, AND JUST
GIVES UP...THE CUDDLING BECOMES A SWEET HAVEN OF REST ~
WHEN AWAKE...LIKE A LITTLE CHILD...O' FEEL SO REFRESHED !
EVEN DURING ONE'S PRAYER TIME...WHAT A DIFFERENCE IT MAKES,
WHEN AS A CHILD ,PRESENT THE NEEDS, AND KNOW HE HEARS !
WHEN LOOK BACK UPON ALL THE ENDLESS TIMES OF FORMER DAYS...OF ALL THE WARS AGAINST...THE RAGING STORMS...
THE ENDLESS TIMES OF GROWING FAINT...
THE CONCLUSION CAME TO...WAS ; WHAT A DIFFERENCE ONE DAY
CAN MAKE...IN A LIFE...NOW IN ONE OF ELDERLY AGE ~
IN SPEAKING OF ALTARS...
IN SPEAKING OF MIRACLES...
DOES ANY JOT DOWN LITTLE NOTES, AND SET ASIDE...
THEN LATER HEAR WORDS BY ANOTHER, SOMEWHAT THE SAME ?
IS IT NOT EXCITING TO ONE'S SOUL ?
WHAT IS EVEN MORE EXCITING IS THE FACT, IT'S MANY'S REPORT, OF THIS ...
AS WELL AS OF MANY..."THANKFUL, FOR SENT ANGELS."
THO' ALTARS SEEM A PART OF THE PAST, MAYBE IN THIS TIME...
AND MAY THINK ARE ONLY FOR IN BUILDINGS, WHERE CAN BE FOUND,
YET WONDER...IS IT NOT ALSO TRUE, WHEN BOW ON KNEES AS A BRIDE,
FILLED WITH HEART WORSHIP OF THE GROOM...CONSUMING ONE'S MIND ?
ONE MORNING WHEN WAS SO DOWNCAST, WENT AND PULLED UP THE MINI
BLINDS...AND THE FILTERING IN OF THE SUN RAYS FILLED THE WHOLE ROOM,
AND IN THE HEART, CAME THOUGHTS OF THE BRIGHTNESS OF THE BRIDEGROOM,
WHICH DURING THAT LOWLY, SINKING TIME JUST SEEMED SO FAR OUT OF SIGHT :
WAS LIKE A MIRACLE TO ME,
WHICH REMINDED THE HEART, OF WHAT SOMEDAY... WILL BE !
IMPOSSIBLE TO REMAIN DOWNCAST VERY LONG, AS THIS HAPPENS ~
A MIRACLE CAN BE JUST AS GREAT, IN A CHANGE OF SITUATIONS, WERE IN...
THAT CAN ARISE A SONG OF THANKFUL WORSHIP WITHIN ~
TO KNOW AM GRANTED EYES TO SEE...THE BRIGHTNESS OF THE SUN AS IT
FILTERS IN THE WINDOW, IS TOO AS A MIRACLE...
IN FACT...ANYTHING THE LORD SO DOES IN ONE'S LIFE, IS FOR HIS TO SEE,
THAT HE IS ALWAYS FAITHFULLY AS NEAR AS THE SUN, HE SO CREATED,
SENDING IN THE WINDOW WARMTH, FULLING THE WHOLE ROOM, WITH A
AWESOME REMINDER, OF HIS EVER PRESENCE ; THAT CAUSES ARISING
OF A SONG OF WORSHIPPING ~
AS FOR ANGELS, HOW MANY TIMES OF SITUATIONS... CAME IN UNAWARE,
AND YOU NEVER REALIZED... TIL' MUCH LATER ?
ISN'T IT AWESOME OF HOW ALL COMES TOGETHER...
"IN HIS TIMING"...AS THE HOLY CREATOR...OUR LORD, OUR GOD...
OUR SAVIOUR...
[one phone call, one question ; do you not know one that can stay with person x,
as the one that said this or that; after 2 days..has left.
answer was; no...and i'm not any longer able to fulfill such a task.]
IT WAS SUCH A GOOD DAY...AT THE BEGINNING OF THE DAY;
BUT AS IT WENT ON...SO DID ALOT THAT CAUSED DEEP HEART PAIN,
AS LISTENED TO WORDS, BROKEN PROMISES...EARLIER MADE...
IN A FAMILY'S DEALING WITH ONE, THAT SEEMS NOW AS A THROW AWAY ~
THEN THE HORROR OF A REPORT CONCERNING THE MEDICAL FIELD, AND PILLS,
LATER ON...THE SOUL JUST SEEMED TO BECOME AS ONE ILL.
THIS IS WHEN HAD TO GO BACK INTO DAYS OF OUR LORD, AND THE PEOPLE
THAT CAME WITH HEAVY LOADS OF ALL KINDS...THEY WERE NOT SMILING...
OR REJOICING...BUT RATHER IN DESPERATE NEED OF HEALING.
THIS SOUL BECAME AS THEY...AND JUST FELL TO THE KNEES.
WHY IS IT ...THAT CAN'T JUST BRUSH OFF THE WORDS HEARD, AND BE HAPPY ?
TRUE LOVE IS WONDERFUL AND ASSURING...MEETING OUR EVERY NEED...
OUR LORD'S PROMISES ARE WHAT KEEPS US GOING...
BUT DOES THAT MEAN, THAT IN SITUATIONS; OFTEN COMES FORTH GRIEVING ?
DOES IT MEAN A LACK IN BELIEVING ?
THE REST OF THE DAY, DEALT WITH , NOT BEING ABLE ...AS ONCE WAS...
AND JUST POURED OUT WORDS TO THE LORD, OF SUCH
AS A HABIT MADE A PHONE CALL, A TAPED VOICE, THAT OFTEN HEAR...
AND IT ENCOURAGED, AS WELL AS BRINGING TO REMEMBRANCE OF ALL
THE PAST YEARS...WHEN THE LORD SO CHOSE THE WEAKESS OF ALL...
AS A VESSEL, FOR HIS GLORY !
OF HOW HE EVER WAS NEAR...AND DIDN'T CAST OFF...
AND HE WILL NOT EVER LEAVE OR FORSAKE HIS OWN ~
THO' THE HEART GRIEVES ... HONESTLY MUST CONFESS...AND SAY...
WHAT IN THE WORLD DOES ANY DO, WITHOUT THEIR SAVIOUR JESUS ?
THAT'S WHY; RAN TO HIM, WITH WORDS, IN HEART'S PURE HONESTLY~
humbly sent...
ONCE AGAIN WAS REMINDED OF THE PAST...BY WORDS OF A UPSTANDING
TEACHER OF THE LORD'S WORD !
THO' MUCH IS SPOKEN BY OTHERS OF ANGELS...FELT THE NEED TO BE VERY
CAREFUL, IN THE MIND'S THINKING ON THIS SUBJECT...YET COULDN'T DENY
WHAT HEARD BY ONE THIS MORNING ~
EACH OF US REALIZE THE TIME OR MAYBE MORE THAN ONCE; ESCAPED DEATH,
NOT BY OWN SELF...BUT BY A HIGHER SOURCE SENT TO PROTECT...
SOMETHING ELSE ALONG THIS JOURNEY, THAT IN TIME...WE MIGHT FORGET !
THERE IS SUCH POWERS SURROUNDING HIS...BECAUSE OF WHO GOD IS ...
AND SUPPLIES PROTECTION, AS WELL AS THE ABIDING HOLY SPIRIT, TO HIS ~
ANOTHER SUJECT WAS MORE SO EXPLAINED YESTERDAY THAT NEEDED TO HEAR,
AND IT ALSO WAS SO EASILY EXPLAINED MORE SO, THAN HAD EVER HEARD...
OF OUR SWEET JESUS, AND OF HIS BEING A MAN.
DURING TIMES SUCH AS THESE, TURN AND SAY TO PAUL, WE WEREN'T
TAUGHT THIS !
SO, GUESS WHAT AM SAYING...IS OF HOW GREAT ARE THE TEACHINGS; ARE HEARING;IN MIDST OF SUCH WIDE SPREAD TROUBLED TIMES SUCH AS THESE !
WHETHER IT IS HEALTH PROBLEMS, OR FAMILY, OR DEMANDING WORK PLACES...
OR WHATEVER ELSE...TAKING TIME OUT TO LISTEN... DOES GREATLY UPLIFT
AND ENCOURAGE ...WHILE ON THIS JOURNEY ~
"LISTENING"...OFTEN SEEMS TO BE SOMETHING OF THE PAST...
AND MAY THINK HAVE NO FURTHER NEED OF THAT ?
AS THINK UPON PAUL BEING AN INSTRUCTOR OVER ONES LEARNING IN A
SPECIAL FIELD, OF WORK...THEY SUGGESTED MORE OF HANDS ON PROJECTS...
AND HE WORKS HARD PUTTING SUCH TOGETHER FOR THEM.
THO' A TEACHER...HE HAS LEARNED THE VALUE OF "LISTENING" TO WHAT EVEN
OTHERS MAY SUGGEST !
AMONG ANY KIND OF FRIENDSHIP, OR OF LEARNING...OR OF TEACHINGS UPON
SPIRITUAL THINGS...IT'S TRULY AS THE SAME; EVEN YET...
THE SONG THAT HEARD YESTERDAY,BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES OF
THE DEATH, IN A PLANE CRASH...AND OF THE CARRYING ON OF SONGS
YET THIS VERY DAY !
THE WORD "OBEY" IS LIKE ...FROM THE HIGHEST MOUNTAIN ,ECHOING OVER
AND OVER AGAIN...UNTO THIS VERY DAY !
THIS MORNING, BEING GRANTED TIME HOME, AS MOST YET ARE NOT GRANTED
IN THIS BEING SO...
THE SONG RAN LIKE A OVER FLOWING RIVER...FLOODING THE DEPTHS OF THE
SOUL ~
AWOKE THIS MORNING...AND GOT INTO A DEEP TALK WITH THE LORD...
WALKED BACK AND FORTH...ASKING, WHAT IS TRULY IN MY HEART ?
YOU KNOW ALL THINGS, AND SO COME TO YOU TO SHOW YOURSELF TRUE,
AND SHOW THIS HEART...WHAT HAVE FAILED IN DOING OR LEAVING UNDONE...
THAT FAILED TO DO ~
DO KNOW; THAT WHATEVER TOUCHES YOUR OWN; THE STRICKEN IN SORROW...
DOES NOT ESCAPE YOUR FATHERLY HEART ~
CAN'T DENY...YOUR DELIVERANCE OUT, BY THE POWER OF YOUR STRONG ARMS !
IT IS NOT EVER OF,OR BY SELF POWER, BUT BY YOU... AS YOU SO IMPART !
O' THE REQUEST IS , EVER "KEEP"...THE HEART CHAINED IN A HUMBLE STATE...
FOR... IF THAT WILL KEEP FROM SELF'S DEPENDANT STRENGTH...
RATHER BE IN CHAINS, DEPENDING TOTALLY UPON YOUR GIVEN ESCAPE .
WHAT IS LIFE... IF ARE LEFT TO SELF...CAN SELF DELIVER OUT SELF,
CAN SELF BREAK OPEN, THE FIRM, SECURE SEALED CELL ?
WHO IS IT THAT DELIVERS OUT...IN HIS TIME, AND IN HIS OWN WAY...
WHO IS IT THAT WILL INCREASE THE WEAK , WITH STRENGTH ?
WHAT IS THE TRUE MEANING OF THE WORD "OBEY? "
DOES THE EXAMINATION OF ONE'S HEART NEVER SEEM TO COME TO AN END,
MAYBE IT'S MEANT TO REMAIN SO...WHO OF US REALLY, FULLY KNOW ?
WHY IS IT VITAL TO DAILY EXAMINE SELF, AND WHY IS IT VITAL TO DO SO ?
THESE WERE MANY OF ENTERING THOUGHTS WITHIN THE SOUL...
AFTER, HEARING WORDS SUNG IN A CERTAIN SONG...
WHAT INSPIRES ME TO GET UP, AND GET BUSY, INSPITE OF WHAT MAY BE GOING
THRU..IT'S A FRIEND THAT SITS IN A TUB EVERY MORNING, FILLED WITH HOT
WATER, AND BABY OIL...BEFORE GOING TO SCHOOL, SERVING CHILDREN THEIR
NEEDED FOOD !
WHAT DRIVES TO BUY BOOKS OF ONES LIVING IN THE FAR-FAR PAST,IS THAT
IT REMINDS THE SOUL OF HOW THEY MAY BE AS LIKE...THE PROPHETS WERE,
AND OFTEN..., WE MISS OUT ON WHAT THEY WERE INSPIRED TO WRITE; WHICH WAS...THEIR EARLIER-"GIVEN" WISDOM.
HEARD ONE ON THE RADIO SHOUT; LORD SHOW US "MORE" OF YOUR GLORY,
AND IT BOTHERED THE SOUL...AS SOME JUST WANT TO GLORY IN THE GLORY,
WITHOUT ANY KIND OF LONG TERM STRUGGLE, WITH THE MOST HOLY !
DO WE SKIP FROM GENESIS, TO REVELATION, IN JUST ONE HOUR...
OR OF...JUST READING OF MOSES, AND THE BUSH AFIRE ?
WHICH REMINDS THE SOUL OF A LESSON TAUGHT YEARS AGO, OF THE MANY
KINDS OF FIRES ~
THE SAME WITH THE GENERATIONS...NONE NEVER EVEN HEARD OF SETH...
TIL' MADE A FAMILY TREE , WITH HIS NAME ON IT.
HOW MANY CAN ESCAPE THE ALL SEEING EYE OF THE GOD, THAT NOT ONLY HIS
EYES ARE UPON THE SPARROWS....BUT IS EVER ALSO... UPON THE SAINTS ?
DO WE THINK THAT CAN GET BY...WHEN DO DISOBEY ?
AND..ARE WE ALSO JUST AS "GLAD"... OF HIS CHASING HAND ?
O' THE COMPASSION OF OF THE LIVING GOD...WHO CAN FULLY EXPLAIN...
HE REMAINS FAITHFUL...AND ONLY HE KNOWS THE END OF EVERYTHING...
AS HE SO CREATED EVERYTHING !
TO SEEK HIS WILL, IS NOT AS A MENU, PICKING AND CHOOSING...
IT'S SUBMITTING...AND COMING WILLINGLY, BEFORE ANY KIND OF OCCURING
DEEPER REVEALING.
THINK UPON AUTHORITY...ONES UNDER EVEN THIS DAY; THAT COMMANDS, AS
ONES NOT KNOWING OF THE ONE TRUE GOD...
SUCH RULERS, YET DO EXIST~
YET...MANY CRY OUT TO THE LORD, THE FATHER, AND BELIEVE THE PROMISES
HE MADE...OF A HEAVEN THAT AWAITS.
MAYBE THEIR LIVES... INSPIRE, AS WELL AS OF FRIENDS...AND OF WHAT THEY
GO THRU...AS WELL AS THE WISDOM ...GIVEN IN OLD BOOKS...
ONES THAT GO BEYOND THE BURNING BUSH...
as meditate in the Word...and listen to radio, and all the other news of war-reports...
WHAT A MIXTURE OF LESSONS ARE BEING PRESENTED...AS LISTEN...
SEEMS TO BE SPEAKING OF GOD'S ANGELS... DEVIL AND HIS ANGELS,
AND OF "BUSINESS" ~
THEN THERE'S WARS, AND ELECTIONS... BEING FOR... OR AGAINST...
AND O' HOW CAN ANY OF US FORGET THE TERROR OF TERRORISM ?
THERE ARE PEOPLE, OBEYING AND FOLLOWING THE ONE... OR THE OTHER,
CONTINUING ON IN THE "BUSINESS," OF THE ONE OR THE OTHER.
IF NOTHING ELSE, AS MEDITATE IN THE WORD...IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN
FILLED WITH MUCH DELIVERANCE ...AS WELL AS OF SLAUGHTER.
INVASIONS HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SO...CONTINUING ON...
IN LIVES OF OTHERS AGAINST... OR OF ONES... OF AND FOR THE LORD ~
CAN ANY ESCAPE ...AS IN THE MIDDLE OF SUCH WARS;
WHETHER ARE GENTILE...OR OF THE BELOVED ISRAEL ?
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE ONES FOR OR AGAINST...AS WAS IN THE LIFE
OF APOSTLE PAUL... AS WELL AS OF PRESENT VESSELS, OF THE LORD ~
EVERY THING SEEMS TO BE AS A ONENESS... IN THIS OR THAT...
UNTIL THE LORD DOES COME BACK...
WAS AMONG PEOPLE IN A MEETING LAST NITE,IN WHAT THEY CALLED A
"REVIVAL"
YET TO MY SOUL, IT WAS A PEOPLE THAT TESTIFIED, OF WHAT THEY WERE
DELIVERED OUT OF...MORE SO.
THEIR BODILY SUFFERING...OR... OUT OF SITUATIONS, WHICH THEY HAD NO
CONTROL OVER.
EVEN THE VISITING SPEAKER SPOKE OF TREMENDOUS SURGERIES, THAT
HE HAD UNDER WENT...SO IT WAS LIKE BEING WITH ONES THAT UNDERSTAND.
THESE WERE PEOPLE THAT WERE SO REAL, AND DOWN TO EARTH,
AND THO' WEREN'T IN WORSHIP SONGS AS MANY ARE, THEY SANG
SONGS STRAIGHT FROM THEIR HEARTS !
THEN ALSO FOR THE 2 LAST DAYS , FOCUS ON FAMILY HAS BEEN AIRING
MEETINGS WITH THE SON OF SAM...WHO MURDERED ONES IN THE YEARS
NOW SO FAR BACK IN THE PAST...YET WE OLDER ONES REMEMBERED THAT,
"BUT" AS TIME DID MARCH ON...DID FORGET, BUT THE REALNESS OF THE
STORY AWOKE THE MEMORY.
HE REFERRED TO APOSTLE PAUL, AND MEMORIZED ALL THE VERSES THAT
WERE WRITTEN...AS HE IS SERVING A LIFE SENTENCE...BUT NOW IS ALSO
BEING USED AS A "FORGIVEN WITNESS "...WHICH IS REACHING OUT AND
TOUCHING THE SOULS OF OTHER PRISONERS.
THIS MORNING;seemed led to read again, what had marked up long ago.
ONCE AGAIN, THOUGHTS ENTERED INTO THE SOUL...GLORYING IN GLORY...
AND IT DROVE THE EYES BACK INTO THE BOOK , I CALL THE "D" BOOK,
[due to lack in pronouncing it right.]... INTO CHAPTER 32.
WHEN THINK UPON WHAT A MESSAGE MEANS, AS WAS SPOKEN BY MOSES,
WONDER IF IN THIS TIME...THIS AGE...IS FORGOTTEN... VERSES 15-33 ?
THO' SO MUCH OF WHAT WAS FOR ANOTHER TIME , ANOTHER NATION,
IT'S A FEARFUL THING, WHEN ANY NATION BECOMES AS VOID IN COUNSEL...
AND ALSO...A PEOPLE; LACKING IN UNDERSTANDING...
SENT A FRIEND OF ALMOST 50 YEARS...WORDS OF REFLECTION
UPON SUCH A LONG TERM RELATIONSHIP, AND OF HER LIFE LIVED,
BEING UNTO MY HEART...AS ONE OF A PURE GODLY WITNESS.
I SPOKE OF HOW GOD HAD TO CRUSH ME !
O' HOW WE CAN REMAIN, AS ONES IN ERROR IN THE SPIRIT,
UNTIL RECOVERY !
O' HOW WE CAN WALK INTO SLAVERY, WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING !
WHO CAN DELIVER US OUT OF WHAT WE SO FOOLISHLY THOUGHT
WAS THE RIGHT WORDS SPOKEN...ON THIS JOURNEY ?
THE MAIN THOUGHT CAME OF, HOW EVER WAS AND IS THE SPIRIT
OF THE REBELLING; EVEN YET.
IT WAS AND SEEMS TO NOT BE DEAD YET ~
O' IF NOT FOR THE GRACIOUS LORD'S HAND OF DELIVERANCE OUT,
WOULD BE AS A CAST AWAY ~
THE THOUGHT OF NEVER BEING IN HIS PRESENCE EVER AGAIN,
CAN RIP ANY HIDDEN PRIDE AWAY ~
ONLY IN SEEKING THE LORD...DESIRING HIM TO EVER BE IN ONE'S MIDST...IS LIKE, WHERE MERCY AND GRACE MEET AND KISS...
O' THE SWEETNESS OF THE REPENTING, AND BEING CLEANSED,
THE RESTORING OF A ONCE BROKEN LOVE RELATIONSHIP ~
HOW LONG DO WE MAKE THE LORD WAIT UPON US...
WHEN REALLY; HE IS THE ONE , THAT WE SHOULD WAIT UPON FOR DELIVERANCE ?
AFTER GOING DOWN MANY ROADS OF DEAD ENDS,
HOW LONG DID IT TAKE... BEFORE JUST RETURNING TO HIM ?
WHY DOES HE EVEN BOTHER TO WATCH AND TO WAIT ?
WHAT CAUSES SUCH A HUNGER AND THIRST FOR THE WORD...
THAT'S AS A FIRE WITHIN...THAT DRIVES A SOUL BACK TO HOME ?
O' THE SOUL DOES ASK MANY QUESTIONS, AS MEDITATE UPON
HIS LOVE ...
HIS BEING OUR JUDGE...LAWGIVER,AND OUR KING...
AND ONLY HE WILL SAVE US...
ONLY WHEN BECOME HUMBLE IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD...
HE SHALL LIFT YOU UP...
SO CONFESSES ONE... THAT HAD TO BE 1ST...CRUSHED...
HAVING INDIAN AND IRISH...JUST PART OF THE BLOOD LINE,
SEEMS TO BE THE CONTROLER OVER ALL THE REST.
LESSONS LEARNED HAVE BEEN LIKE IN A WAR, BECAUSE OF THAT.
YET THIS MORNING HEARD THE 23RD PSALM IN SUCH A IRISH WAY,
AND I TELL YOU...TEARS CAME TO THE EYES.
THEN THERE'S A SONG OF HOW THE LORD CARRIED ONE ON HIS
SHOULDER...AND TAKING ONE TO HIGHER GROUNDS.
I WONDER, WHERE WAS THAT ONE AT, BEFORE HE DID THAT ?
WILL HE SHOW YOU THINGS THAT YOU WOULD HAD NEVER SEEN,
IF HE HAD NOT LIFTED YOU UP...TO SEE ?
BEING PROBLEY THE OLDEST... OF ANY THAT SEND WORDS TO,
I WONDER...WHAT WONDERFUL THINGS HAS JESUS SHOWN YOU ?
DO YOU LOVE THE BOOK THAT IS LIKE A NEVER ENDING STREAM,
YET; COULD YOU EVER FIND IT, WITHOUT BEING LED AS A SHEEP?
INDIANS ARE WARRIORS, AND WATCH OVER THEIR'S ALWAYS,
AND IN VOWS MADE... ARE TAKEN, VERY SERIOUSLY.
IF ARE ONE THAT DOES TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY, WHAT DOES
IT DO...WHEN HAVE TO LAY DOWN ONE'S ARMOUR OF DEFENSE,
AND BECOME AS A SHEEP...AND UPON A SHEPHERD, MUST
FULLY DEPEND ?
IT BECOMES THE HARDEST THING, ONE HAS EVER HAD TO DO !
HOW MANY BATTLES FIGHT, AND SUFFER MANY WOUNDS,
YET ARE DETERMINDED... TO DISCOVER ALL THE HIDDEN JEWELS
IN THE BOOK ?
HOW MANY YEARS, ARE WILLING TO GO ON THE GREAT HUNT...
"IT UP TO YOU."
WHO IS CHANGED AT THE END OF THE GREAT HUNT...
AND WHOM MINISTERS UNTO ALL YOUR WOUNDS ?
AS HEAR A TEACHING ON ANGELS, AND BEING CARRIED HOME...
THE THOUGHTS CAME FORTH OF WHEN WAS A CHILD, AND THE
BROTHER PICKED ME UP FROM THE BED AND CARRIED ME TO
A NEIGHBOR, WHO HAD A CAR, TO THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE, AND
THEN CONTINUED TO CARRY ME FROM THE WAITING ROOM INTO
THE EXAMINING ROOM.
AS ONE OF STOMACH PROBLEMS,EVEN AS A YOUTH, IT SEEMS
THAT IT YET IS PART OF LIFE.
BUT INSPITE OF WHAT MAY SEEM A BURDEN THAT DOES OFTEN
HINDER SOMEWHAT...STRONGER IS THE FIGHT, JUST TO LIVE.
HAVE ONE THAT RECENTLY CALLED, AND OF ALL THE PILLS THAT
HAVE NOT GIVEN FULL FREEDOM FROM WHAT THAT ONE SUFFERS,
BUT RATHER HAS ADDED TO THE PROBLEM.
YET THE STRONG WILL TO LIVE...SEEMS TO MANY A FIGHT TO THE
VERY ENDING.
WHAT IS THE POWER THAT KEEPS ANY REALLY GOING ...DUE TO
MAYBE DIFFERENT HINDERINGS?
AS DUG DEEP INTO THE LIFE OF APOSTLE PAUL...CAME COURAGE,
IN WINNING !
SOMEDAY, WILL SEE THE ONE THAT DID SO, AND WILL KNOW HIM AS
HE IS KNOWN ~
WHICH PLACE WILL HE BE THIS TIME...THAT WAS NOT ABLE TO
SPEAK OF...IN HIS TIME ?
SO MANY THOUGHTS RUN LIKE A RIVER OF NO END...
AS MEDITATE UPON HIS LIVE SO LIVED !
SO THE ENTERING INTO THE JOURNAL THIS DAY, IS WHAT AM NOW
SENDING...AS TAUGHT BY AND THRU HIS LIFE, AND WRITINGS LEFT,
THAT CAUSES THE SPIRIT, TO FIGHT A GOOD FIGHT, TO THE VERY END, OF THIS LIFE, AM PERMITTED YET...IN LIVING.
SINCE ANGELS SEEM TO BE A TOPIC FOR THIS TIME, BEING TAUGHT...
BRINGS BACK TO MIND OF A HOME NURSE THAT TAUGHT ME THE DEEP MEANING
OF MERCY AND LOVE !
IF EVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH A MEMBER OF THE FAMILY WITH DEMENTIA, ONLY
THEN COULD ANY UNDERSTAND, WHAT IT'S REALLY, REALLY LIKE.
BUT THE REASON FOR ENTERING THIS IN TODAY'S JOURNAL IS TO SPEAK OF
THE NURSE THAT TAUGHT ME A LESSON, THAT WILL NEVER EVER FORGET !
SHE WAS MY MOM'S DELIVERER FROM WHAT I WAS NOT DOING FOR MOM.
SHE COULD LEAD HER AROUND LIKE A LITTLE CHILD, AND GET HER TO DO WHAT
I COULDN'T GET MOM TO DO !
THE NURSE KNEW THE SECRET OF LOVE AND MERCY ~
SHE WAS THE TEACHER...I WAS HER STUDENT...
SHE CAPTURED MY HEART, AND LATER WROTE A POEM TO HER,OF WHAT SHE
MEANT TO MY HEART...AS AN ANGEL SENT.
EACH PERSON THAT CROSSES OUR PATH ON THIS JOURNEY, IS SENT FOR A
"REASON."
THO' MAY THINK HAVE LEARNED ALOT ALREADY...IS WHEN FIND THAT HAVEN'T
YET FULLY LEARNED ..IT ALL.
JUST ANOTHER TIME, OF CAUSING ONE TO DEEPER UNDERSTAND THE MEANING
OF- APPLIED- MERCY- AND- LOVE ~
THE SAME APPLIES IN THE LEARNING IN A DEEPER SENSE OF EVER BECOMING
HUMBLED... MORE SO, AS BEING TAUGHT ...
NEVER SINCE CAN REMEMBER...OF TEACHINGS TAKING ONE
SO DEEPER INTO HISTORY, AS WELL AS OF MAKING MORE CLEAR
OF THE WISE MEN, CONSIDERED BY THE FATHER GOD, IN THE
WHOLE EVENT, THAT WE CELEBRATE THIS TIME OF THE YEAR.
BEING HUNGRY FOR THE WORD...IS LIKE BEING FILLED AND OVER-
FLOWING...WITH UNDERSTANDING...WHICH IN TIMES SUCH AS THESE
AND...O' HOW WE NEED THE OVERFLOWING RIVER, OF WATERS.
IT EVEN MAKES THE CHRISTMAS STORY MORE REAL THAN EVER !
BETWEEN THE STUDY OF ANGELS, AND THE WISE MEN; LIFTS THE
SPIRIT WITHIN...TO MUCH HIGHER GROUNDS...SPEAKS A SOUL
THAT LIKE ALL...ARE BUSY...BUT YET THE LORD PERMITS TIME
FOR THE HUNGRY TO BE FED.
SPEAK AS A HUMBLED AND THANKFUL SOUL...ASK THE LORD TO
SHOW YOU, WHAT WILL ENCOURAGE AS WELL AS FEED YOUR SOUL.
WE NEED EVERY MORSEL OF WHAT HE CAN PROVIDE...
IN ORDER TO SPIRITUALLY GROW .
HE WILL OPEN DOORS, AND STOP THE CLOCK...AND HONOR ANY'S
REQUEST...THAT HUNGERS AND THIRST FOR MORE .
THO' EACH IS BUSY WITH WORK, CARING FOR THE SICK, OR WHATEVER ONE'S ROLE MAY BE...
IT ARISES THE SPIRIT , IN TIMES SUCH AS THESE...
AND WHO OF US DON'T NEED THIS ?
WHAT AN AWESOME GOD IS HE...AND JESUS...OUR KING...
MAY WE AS THE CHILDREN REMAIN EVER HUNGRY AND THIRSTY,
BEING FED...AND GROWING INTO DEEPER UNDERSTANDING.
MAY HIS COMING BACK BE MORE EXCITING THAN EVER BEFORE ~
question;
WHAT IS OUR ROLE, AS HIS...I HAVE ASKED MY SOUL...
IT IS DARK, AND THE WIND IS BRINGING IN A CHILL THAT CANNOT
FLEE FROM.
THERE IS A STIRRING OF THE HEART, THAT ALSO CAN'T FLEE FROM ~
WE ARE AS ONES WITH A STORY TO BE TOLD...
KNOWING THAT OUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED; STRIVE TO REACH THE
GOAL...AND BECAUSE OF THY MERCY...DO REJOICE...
YET HOW LONG , TIL' OF THY BEAUTY...WILL IT BE, BEFORE WE BEHOLD ?
HOW MANY TIMES, WILL CELEBRATE THE BIRTH OF OUR LORD,
OR ...FROM THE PLACE, SO PLACED, WILL BE REMOVED THE
HEAVY STONE ?
HOW MANY TIMES,WILL SPEAK OF ONES ALONG THE ROAD ?
O' YET...THE GREAT STORY...MUST EVER BE TOLD .
IF NOT FOR THY LOVE ...WOULD JUST SHUT THE DOOR OF THE HEART, AND SAY...NO MORE...BUT CAN'T DENY THE STIRRING OF
THE HEART...THAT SAYS ARISE, AND GO FORTH ~
SO OFTEN SLIP AND FALL, YET THY LOVE LIFTS BACK UP...
HAVE NEVER, NEVER KNOWN SUCH A FAITHFUL LOVE ~
AS WATCH THE BRANCHES OF THE TREES SWAYING IN THE BREEZE,
GOING WITH THE DIRECTION OF THE WIND...AND NOT AGAINST,
O' THE SOUL CRIES OUT...IN THIS LIFE...LET IT ALSO BE ~
O' LORD...OFTEN OVERWHELMED AND COME POURING OUT WORDS
UP TO YOU, WHEN GROW WEARY AND WEAK...
AS IN FAITH...STRONGLY BELIEVE...IN YOUR UPLIFTING ~
IT HAS BEEN YEARS OF SEARCHING OUT ALL THY WAYS...
AND THE UNDERSTANDING OF THY LOVINGKINDNESS,
AND AS THIS DAY BREAKS FORTH, WILL ARISE IN HUMBLE
AND SINCERE GIVING OF THANKSGIVING UNTO YOU...
AS SO SEEMS THE RETURING OF STRENGTH, GIVEN WITHIN,
AND WORDS OF A SONG ARISES IN THE SOUL AGAIN...
AS FACE YET UNSOLVED PROBLEMS AT HAND...
WITH MAILING OUT PACKAGES FOR LITTLE ONES OUT OF STATE,
AND CARING FOR ONE THAT HAS FAMILY ALSO OUT OF STATE...
AM GOING TO BE LATE IN DOING WHAT DESIRE TO DO.
OFTEN IT REMINDS OF THE PROMISES MADE BY OUR LORD...
WE WAIT AND WE WAIT...SO EAGER FOR HIS RETURN, SO THAT
WE CAN CELEBRATE !
DO WE EVER THINK UPON ALL THE IN BETWEEN...
THE PREPARING FOR ?
AND WHAT ABOUT HIS DESIRES ?
WHICH REMINDS OF HOW WHERE IN HIS MIND, WAY BEFORE OURS ~
AS FINISHED THAT LINE, ON THE RADIO CAME A TEACHER SPEAKING
THE VERY SAME TYPE OF WORDS !
THE THING SO EXCITING ABOUT ARISING EARLY IS OF THE UNITY
OF THOUGHTS WITH ANOTHER...WOW, IT TRULY IS SO ~
BETWEEN THAT AND A BOOK AM STUDYING IN... ENCOURAGES AS
WAIT...UPON THE LORD'S RETURNING.
DOES THAT MEAN THAT OUR LIFE IS EVER UPON ETERNAL THINGS,
MAYBE NOT...YET IT'S A POWER THAT WILL CAUSE THE SOUL
TO PUT ALL ELSE ASIDE... AS A BRIDE FOR THE RETURN OF CHRIST.
SEEMS THAT THE WORD " SUDDENLY" WILL GET ONE'S MOST
FOCUSED-ATTENTION; EVEN DURING YET UNSOLVED PROBLEMS ;
MAKING ALL ELSE AS SECONDARY...UNTO HIS RETURNING ~
BESIDES, WHAT IS 2000 YEARS OR SO...COMPARED TO SUDDENLY ?
IS NOT ALL GIVEN...FOR THE PURPOSE, OF HOW ARE TO LIVE OUT
OUR LIVES ...DAILY ?
HAS THIS NOT BEEN SO THRU OUT ALL PAST... UP TO THIS AGE ?
AS SIT HERE AND LOOK AT WHAT TYPE...SUDDENLY DO REALIZE,
AND ASK MY SOUL...WHAT IS ONE'S 1ST PRIORITY ?
IF WAS A LITTLE SLEEPY YET...IT SURELY WOKE THE EYES UP
TO THE FACT...THAT OFTEN FORGET THE MEANING OF THE WORD
"SUDDENLY"
AND CRIED UP TO THE LORD... O' LORD...HELP ME...
AS AWOKE THIS MORNING...HAD TO SPEAK ON WHAT A HUSBAND WILL DO,
WHEN HIS WIFE CAN'T ANY LONGER DO.
AND ALSO OF WHAT HE LEARNS, OF WHAT SHE ONCE DID DO.
PAUL IS TAKING HOURS OUT OF 5 DAYS A WEEK,
TO HELP A WOMAN IN DISTRESS.
HE SPOKE OF LEARNING SO MUCH...THRU OUT THIS EXPERIENCE !
THO' NONE OF WHAT HAS TAKEN PLACE HAS BEEN IN VAIN, FOR SURE...
IT WILL HAVE TO COME TO AN END SOON, AS HE WILL BE TEACHING AGAIN.
MAKING PHONE CALLS, I EXPLAINED THE SITUATION AT HAND, TO THE FAMILIES,
AND ONLY THE SPIRIT CONTROLLED WHAT NEEDED TO BE SAID,
AS I HAVE LEARNED FROM MISTAKES MADE IN SPEAKING IN HASTE.
IN EVERY AREA OF LIFE...LESSONS ARE LEARNED, BY ANY, THAT WILL
DEPEND UPON THE SPIRIT'S CONTROL .
YET ALSO...O' THE FIERCE BATTLES, TIL' DO SURRENDER ,CONFESSES ANY
THAT HAS TRAVELED DOWN THIS ROAD .
ANY LESSON TAUGHT WHILE ON THIS JOURNEY OF LIFE, IS TRULY PRICELESS,
"...AT THE END OF IT ALL..."
... IT IS THE SAME WITH...
OF HOW ARE DRAWN INTO A RICHER CLOSENESS WITH ONE'S LORD; "MORE SO."
WHAT IS OF MORE VALUE, THAN OF HIS ABIDING LOVE...WITHIN US...?
HOW OFTEN , MAY LOSE THE WAY...ALONG THE WAY, ONLY TO AWAKE,
AND GO BACK TO WHAT LEFT...GOING BACK, DRESSED IN DIRTY RAGS ?
ALL IS EVER FOR EACH ONE'S GOOD...ANY LESSON LEARNED ALONG THE WAY ~
YET ALSO...WILL FIND OTHERS THAT HAVE NO IDEAL OF THE MEANING OF GRACE,
AND IT CAN GIVE AN OPEN DOOR TO BE USED AS A WITNESS OF...HIS GRACE !
as watch the news, read History...and meditate...
IT'S THAT TIME AGAIN, WHEN THE STILLNESS IS SO THICK,
NOT A SOUND, OR ANY MOVEMENT.
YET IN THE MIND'S EYE, IS ALL THE HAPPENINGS ELSEWHERE,
MORE SO THAN HERE.
IT'S AS IF THE FORCE OF HELL HAS OPENED IT'S MOUTH SO WIDE SPREAD,
AND CAN ANYONE FOR DEFINITE... COUNT THE EXACT OCCURING DEATHS ?
I REMEMBER OF YEARS PASTED...OF THE MONTH OF NOV. BEING AS SUCH,
OVER AND OVER AGAIN...CAME SNOW, YET ALSO DEATHS.
I REMEMBER OF YEARS THAT NEVER SEEN ANY ESCAPES, FROM WHAT
WAS OVERWHELMING...BUT YET, GOD MADE A WAY, PROVIDING IN BETWEEN,
A TIME OF REST.
SURELY EACH ONE CAN REFLECT UPON TIMES ALIKE IN THEIR LIVES...
TIMES OF ONE'S FAITH...TESTED AND TRIED !
OVER THE YEARS, NO MATTER WHAT...REFUSED TO SIT DOWN AND JUST DIE !
WHAT IS IT, THAT WILL CAUSE ANY TO KEEP ON, AND MEDITATE IN THE WORD,
WHAT IS IT, THAT ASSURES , COMFORTING; AS YET DWELL ON THIS EARTH ?
WHAT WILL BE THE STATE OF THE MINDS, IN THE CLOSING OF TIME...
AS IT SO SEEMS NOT AS HIDDEN, BUT AS A CURTAIN OPENING, ONE LAST TIME.
O' GREAT HONOR AND GLORY UNTO THE HOLY...THAT KNOWS ALL, AND THE
EXACT TIMES !
AS WATCH THE SPILLED BLOOD AND THE GREAT CLOUDS OF SMOKE
HAPPENING, FAR OVER IN ANOTHER LAND..
DOES REMIND...OF WORDS SPOKEN SO LONG AGO, BY A ANOTHER MAN.
O' SO MUCH DESIRE TO MORE SO UNDERSTAND...YET REST IN THE FACT
THAT AM WORSHIPPING AN AWESOME GOD...AND THAT HAS BECOME
THE SOUL'S HIGHEST INTENT...
DOES IT SEEM THAT MAY BE IN A DEBATING OF WHAT IS TRUTH, OR WHAT IS NOT,
OR...OF QUESTIONS THAT SEEM UNANSWERED SOMEWHAT ?
WHY SEEMS A LIFE TIME OF LEARNING...YET, CAN ANY FULLY EVER LEARN ALL
IN THIS SHORT SPAN OF LIFE ?
ALL THAT WAS LEFT TO STUDY...SO MUCH SEEMS AS IF CAN'T CONTAIN IT ALL,
SO LIMITED SEEMS THE HUMAN MIND...BUT NOT SO, OF THE HOLY GHOST !
HE IS THE ONE...THAT CAN BRING BACK TO MIND, UNTO THE PEOPLE, OF WHAT
IS THEIR ROLE, IN THIS TIME...AS WELL AS DID IN THE OLD.
THE INTENT OF THE GOSPEL...SEEMS THE THEME THRU OUT THE BIBLE AS A WHOLE...NOT JUST STORIES...THAT ONE CAN ENJOY.
DOES NOT IT SEEM MORE SO, AS THE BOOK OF "HOPE "
AS WELL AS LEFT EXAMPLES TO NOT; OR TO FOLLOW ?
WHEN WE PICK UP THE LIVING WORD...DO WE EVER MARVEL, IN AWE...
OR...JUST PUT ASIDE...DUE TO NOT UNDERSTANDING ?
WHAT IS FAITH...AND WHAT IS THE DRIVING FORCE THAT CAUSES ONE TO
CONTINUE ON IN SEARCHING OUT...EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS SO VERY DIFFICULT ?
MUST REFER BACK TO THE WORD "HOPE !"
GOD IS NOT A MERE MORAL, AND HIS COMPASSION DOES OVERFLOW,
OR OTHERWISE...WE ALL WOULD BE, AS ORPHANS, WITHOUT ANY HOPE ~
TRULY...THIS SO HUMBLES AND CAUSES TO BOW BEFORE THE CROSS,
THAT HELD FAST OUR LORD JESUS, THE SAVIOUR...FOR ALL PEOPLE...
ENEMIES WITHIN THE CAMP...AS READ THE NEWS, IT IS NOTHING REALLY NEW,
AS SEEMS THAT IT'S ONLY A REPEAT OF THE FAR PAST, IN THE "HOLY BOOK."
SO SEEMS MOST THINGS THAT DO TAKE PLACE IN THIS AGE...
MAYBE IT WILL NEVER, EVER CHANGE ?
IN AGES PAST, THEN AS JESUS WALKED ON THE LAND...AND OF THIS DAY YET,
ENEMIES' PRESENCE WILL NEVER CEASE TO BE AS...WITHIN THE CAMP !
OFTEN HEAR ALOT OF THE DEVIL, BUT WONDER WHY NOT MORE FOCUS UPON
ONES[PEOPLE] WITH STRONG DESTRUCTIVE MIND SETS ?
IT IS SO VITAL, TO AWAKE AND SPEAK WITH THE LORD AT THE BEGINNING OF
EACH DAY...BEFORE COMES IN ALL THE THINGS THAT CAN SO EASILY FILL
THE MIND,AND OVERLOAD...IT'S CALLED SEEKING HIS COUNSEL ~
ONLY SPEAK OF SUCH, DUE TO BEING ONE OF SUCH GREAT WEAKNESS,
YET THE HEART IS SO BENT UPON BEING USED AS ONE OF HIS WITNESSES.
ALWAYS THINK UPON," ALL OF US...AS HIS PEOPLE" ...NOT JUST MYSELF...
FOR WITHOUT ALL THE REST THAT HAS PLAYED A PART, SURELY COULDN'T
HAD CARRIED ON...WITHOUT OTHERS' HELP... 'SPECIALLY OF OTHERS THAT
SEEK FIRST ...THE LORD'S COUNSEL ~
O' CAN'T WE ALL TRULY SEE...ARE NOT JUST ONE, BUT ARE AS MANY...
"HIS PEOPLE"
AND THERE WILL NEVER CEASE THE MIND SET, OF ENEMIES[PEOPLE] TO DIVIDE,
AND TO DESTROY THE PEOPLE'S UNITY...IN CHRIST ~
IT REMINDS OF A SONG OF AGES AGO...GHOST RIDERS IN THE SKY...
AND SO VERY OFTEN CAN FAIL TO RECONIZE, THIS IS ALSO TRUE OF MANKIND.
AS WATCHED HISTORY OF GODS AND GODESSES, ON TV...IT SO REVEALED
MUCH THAT YET APPEARS TO BE A CONTINUATION YET; IN THIS HOMELAND...
AND WONDER OF HOW MANY SERVE THE UNKNOWN GOD, AS DID ONES BACK
IN APOSTLE PAUL'S DAYS ...
WHICH IS THE REASON ,MUST SEEK GOD'S COUNSEL AT THE BEGINNING OF EACH
DAY...AS A PEOPLE OF GOD'S GRACE...
ALL IS GOING WELL, MANY THINGS ARE TAKING PLACE...YET THEN SUDDENLY
SEEM ...AS IF ARE NOT A PART OF ANYTHING.
LOOK AROUND AND SEE STRANGERS, BECOMING FRIENDS, IN TIMES THAT
ARE SO CAUGHT UP IN SITUATIONS THAT CAUSES SUCH TO HAPPEN.
THERE IS MUCH LAUGHTER RINGING IN THE AIR...AND GATHERINGS , REJOICING
IN THE SPIRIT...
YET ALSO GOODBYS, THAT BRING FORTH TEARS.
THE HELLOS AND THE GOODBYS, SEEM SUCH A PART OF LIFE ~
THE TOUCHING, HUGGING...AS IF MIGHT BE FOR THE LAST TIME.
AND ALSO; SOME SPEAK WORDS TO EACH OTHER, OF THE FORMER TIMES,
WHILE MANY SPEAK OF THE NOT YET FULFILLED COMING FORTH OF CHRIST,
FOR HIS CHURCH... THE BRIDE.
SOME WILL AWAKE FROM A SLEEP...SOME AS BABES SLUMBER ON, AS LISTENING
TO MUSIC OF A SOFT LULLABY.
SOME ARE ALL ALONE...SOME WISH THEY WERE... FOR A TIME LEFT ALONE...
WHAT A MIXED BAG, OF THOUGHTS...DWELLING WITHIN SOULS. ~
ONES LOOK FORWARD TO THE LORD'S RETURN...SOME ADMIT THAT THEY REALLY
DON'T KNOW...YET LIVE IN HOPE...AS ONLY WHEN THE FATHER GOD SPEAKS,
IT WILL BE SO.
WHO OF ANY KNOWS ALL, OF WHAT TOMORROW MAY HOLD ?
WHAT IS THIS THING , WE EVEN CALL...HOPE...?
WHY IS THE HEART SO BENT UPON WHAT SEEMS AS IF SO INVISIBLE ?
WHY SO MIXED IS LIFE, OF JOY AS WELL AS OF SORROW, AND OF TROUBLES ?
WHAT CAUSES ANY TO SEARCH OUT FOR ANSWERS IN ONE'S BIBLE ?
IT'S WHERE MEET, NOT A STRANGER, BUT OF ONE THAT KNOWS ALL...
AND CAN BRING FORTH COMFORT UNTO THE MOST WEARY OF SOULS ~
A VOICE SEEMS TO WHISPER IN THE EARS, THRU THE WORDS IN PRINT...
ASSURING THAT ARE EVER NEAR ~
IT IS THE VOICE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT !
NOW CAN TURN OUT THE LIGHTS, AND GET SOME REST...
AS HAS ARRIVED THE TIME, THAT WE CALL CHRISTMAS...
AND SO SEEMS THE VISION...OF PEACE ON EARTH...
AND GOODWILL TO ALL...AND GOODNITE...
AWOKE EARLY AS IS THE HABIT...AND THE MIND WAS FILLED WITH ALL, AND I
DO MEAN "ALL" OF THE PAST WEEK, OF HISTORY, AS NEVER BEFORE !
IT IS AS INSTANT CEREAL...HEAT IN THE MICRO WAVE, AND IT'S READY TO EAT.
NOT MANY WANT TO TAKE TIME OUT, TO COOK OL'FASHION OATMEAL AS IN DAYS
GONE BY...AS CONSUMED HAS BECOME MANY BY AND IN THIS MODERN LIFE !
THE SUBJECT ALL WEEK WAS FOCUSED UPON OUR LORD JESUS...
ON TV, RADIO, CARDS, AND ENDLESS WAS THE"TYPES" OF TEACHINGS ~
IT OPENED A DOOR OF OPPORTUNITY TO SPEAK TO ONE OF JESUS...WHOM IS
SO NEAR TO THE HEART...AS WILL AS THE PERSON IS...
AND YOU MAY THINK IN THE MIND... "ONLY ONE ?"
WHICH DOES SEEMS HARDER...
SPEAKING TO ONE IN FAMILY, OR UNTO STRANGERS ?
DO WE SO LIMIT ANY OPENED DOOR OF OPPORTUNITY ?
DO WE DARE NOT SPEAK, JUST BECAUSE IT IS FAMILY ?
O' BUT MY LORD...DOES RISE UP IN THE SOUL..."WHO AM I TO SPEAK FOR YOU,"
AND THEN THE STRUGGLE COMES OF DOING...OR TO JUST REFUSE ?
YET, IF ANY LIFE HAS BEEN WITNESSED BY OTHERS OF HOW THE MIGHTY
WONDERFUL LORD OF OUR SALVATION, HAS CARRIED US THRU ENDLESS
HELLS AND WARS, FALLING DOWNS, LIFTING UP'S...AND WE NEVER GAVE UP...
IT CAN'T POSSIBLY ESCAPE THE ATTENTION OF OTHERS , WHEN YOU DO SO
WITNESS... SPEAKING OF "JESUS."
THEN ...IT'S THEIR DECISION... THAT THEY HAVE TO MAKE !
WAS IT NOT THE SAME AT ONE TIME, WHEN ANOTHER WITNESSED UNTO US ?
BEING A CHILD OF THE LORD, AND HIS SPIRIT ABIDING WITHIN US...
AND MIGHTIER IS HIS SPIRIT WITHIN...THAT WILL SPEAK THRU US...
AS OF NOTHING ARE WE IN SELF EFFORT...BUT ONLY IN HIM PLACE OUR TRUST,
IN USING US...AS HIS WITNESSES...
IF NOT FOR GOD...THEN WHO...
IF NOT FOR HIS WORD...IF NOT BEING ASSURED...
WOULD JUST COVER THE HEAD, SO NOT TO SEE ALL HAPPENING UPON THIS
EARTH ~ YET HOW CAN IT JUST BE TOTALLY IGNORED ?
WE NO LONGER LIVE IN A CAVE, BUT SO VISIBLE IS SEEN AND HEARD THE ENDLESS REPORTS GIVEN FROM AROUND THE WORLD.
IT IS TRUE, IS IT NOT...THAT OUR GOD DOESN'T WANT ANY TO PERISH...
AND IF WERE NOT FOR ALL HIS RESERVED MESSAGES...
IT WOULD CAUSE A VERY HOPELESS OVERWHELMING DEPRESSION.
INTERNALLY...THE SOULS SEE, THE IMPORTANCE OF...OBEDIENCE ...
FROM THE VERY BEGINNING...AS WELL AS OF UNDERSTANDING ;
AMONG ALL PEOPLES...IN AND OF ALL NATIONS.
MAY THE SOUL SPEAK FREELY...AS QUESTION SELF...DURING TIMES OF STUDY;
THERE SEEMS TWO SIDES; OF MEANING IN THE WORD... RESISTING...
AND THIS SEEMS AS TWO FORCES AT BATTLE...ENDLESSLY.
ALSO ENDLESSLY...AM EVER CRYING UP TO THE LORD,
NOT ONLY OF, OR FOR SELF...BUT FOR GENERATIONS BENEATH...
WHY...BECAUSE OF THE EXAMPLES IN THE OLD AS WELL AS OF
THE NEW TESTAMENT WARNINGS ~
THE BIBLE ...THAT MAYBE WAS NOT IN A HOME...AS BELIEVE IT NOT...
THIS WAS TRUE...FOR MANY, AS WAS A CHILD...
CAUSES EVEN A DEEPER SEARCHING OUT, TIL' TRUTH ABOUNDS !
IN EARNEST, SPEAK OF THIS...NOT TO PLACE BLAME ON ANY OTHER,
ONLY TO SAY, WHAT SAY...AS ONE THAT BECAME ONE OF GREAT HUNGER,
AND THIRST...THAT ONLY THE WORD COULD SATISFY...AND ALSO
TO BECOME A SINCERE OBEDIENT WORSHIPER, UNTO THE LIVING CHRIST ~
FOUND SELF LIFTING UP EVERY HUMAN EMOTION,AS MET WITH THE LORD,
IN AND OF ALL AREAS OF LIFE !
DURING SUCH TIMES...SENSE A PRESENCE OF THE MOST DIVINE...
HIS PROTECTION; AS WELL AS HIS DIRECTION GIVEN IN HOW TO LIVE THIS LIFE.
YET HONESTLY, FROM THE DEPTHS OF THE SOUL, CONFESS OF RESISTING
HIS GIVEN DIRECTIONS...AND FAIL TO APPLY THEM IN THIS LIVED LIFE ~
UP GOES THE CRIES, AS KNOW HIS WILL, AND WHO OF US NEEDS TO REMIND
HIM...THAT WE FAIL ?
IF NOT FOR THE WORD, COULD NOT FIND PEACE OF MIND,
DURING THE BATTLES, BETWEEN HEAVEN AND HELL...
BUT REALIZE THE VITAL MEANING OF "PEACE, BE STILL"
SPOKEN IN THE SPIRIT..."OF HOW HE IS EVER FAITHFUL ~"
CAN'T LAY IN BED, ONCE A NEW MORNING IS HERE...HEY WHO KNOWS IF THIS
MIGHT JUST BE THE LAST DAY SPENT HERE ?
AND AS TURNED ON THE RADIO; ONE IS TALKING OF THE UPCOMING "NEW YEAR."
I SAID OK...OF THIS AM ALREADY AWARE !
MAY SEEM FUNNY, BUT I TALK BACK TO A RADIO OFTEN TIMES...
AND OFTEN SAY, RIGHT ON BROTHER...PREACH ON !
"BUT" AIN'T SO EXCITED, WHEN ONE MAY PIERCE MY SOUL , OF MY WRONGS !
ISN'T IT ALSO THE SAME...AS DAILY MEDITATE IN ONE'S BIBILE ?
I THINK UPON HOW MANY OF THE ONES LOOKING FORWARD TO RETIREMENT,
AND I LOOK BACK UPON ALL THE YEARS ...OF BEFORE RETIREMENT !
IT WAS THE SAME, IN LEARNING THE OLD, BEFORE ENTERING THE WORDS
RECORDED IN THE NEW, OF THE BIBLE...
SO MANY POWERFUL WORDS THO'... ARE ACTUALLY IN "BOTH."
IT WAS YEARS OF SICKNESSES;THAT CAUSED THE LOVE AFFAIR WITH THE RADIO.
IS THERE ANY AREA IN YOUR INDIVIDUAL LIFE, THAT YET SEEMS TO HANG ON,
AND SEE NO WAY PAST IT ?
COULD IT HAD BEEN ALIKE, IN ALL THE GENERATIONS WAITING FOR THE ARRIVAL
OF ONE BRINGING FORTH SALVATION ...THAT WAS PROMISED ?
OF HOW IT WAS NOT SO, ONCE CAME TO PASS...AS THEY MAY HAD THOUGHT...
AND MAYBE IT WILL BE ALIKE...ONCE COMES OTHERS' TIME OF RETIREMENT~
IT'S SOMEWHAT LIKE AN OATH MADE...TIL' DEATH...NOW THAT IS HEAVY...YES ;
BUT ALSO; IS A INDIVIDUAL'S LIFE... SPENDING TIME; IN THE HOLY TEXT ~
IT'S EVER OF..."WHAT THE LORD DOES SAY."
AND IT MUST BECOME A DETERMINDED MIND SET, IN ORDER TO DAILY MEDITATE ~
THERE IS NO IF, OR MAYBE...WITH THE LORD GOD...IN HIS FULFILLING HIS PLAN,
IT IS HIS PEOPLE THAT GO ASTRAY.
MAYBE IT'S NOT THE UPCOMING NEW YEAR, BUT RATHER THE WAKING UP TO
ANOTHER NEW DAY...?
AS NEW TESTAMENT PEOPLE...WHICH WE ARE NOW OF HIS VERY OWN...
DOES; AWAKE THE SPIRITUAL SOUL, EACH MORNING, WITH A SONG WITHIN OF
BEING THANKFUL, THAT HE NEVER BREAKS HIS MADE OATH !
DO WE GET EXCITED EVERY TIME SEE THE RAINBOW,
OR THE SUN ARISING, OR OF THE SUN SETTING ?
DO WE EVER TIRE OF KNOWING OF HIS PRESENCE, 'SPECIALLY,AS PRAYING;
OR OF REQUESTS ...ANSWERED, AS TRAVELING ON , IN THIS LIFE'S JOURNEY ?
ISN'T IT EXCITING TO KNOW...BECAUSE OF HIS MERCY AND GRACE ...
WE OF THE ALMIGHTY CREATOR...ARE CONSIDERED ..."HIS PEOPLE."
THIS GOD...THAT CALLS US HIS OWN...
[this truly is...something to meditate on]
HAD A MAN THAT IS DEVOTING HIS LIFE IN HAITI...COME INTO THIS HOUSE...
ASKED IF HE WANTED A DRINK OR SOMETHING TO EAT...ASKING HIM,
OF IF I COULD WASH HIS FEET...AS NEVER WANT TO NEGLECT DOING THAT.
HE LAUGHED...AS HE WAS A FRIEND LONG BEFORE BECOMING A MISSIONARY !
THIS MAN'S HEALTH IS ABOUT AS BAD AS CAN BE...AND IS ALSO VERY MUCH
JUST A HUMAN BEING !
WHAT MAKES HIM DIFFERENT ? HE'S REAL !
AS THINK UPON FRIEND...WHAT IS ONE ?
THE THOUGHTS TRAVEL BACK INTO TIME, OF MEN IN THE LORD'S TIME; MORE SO
THAN OF ALL THE ONES THAT WERE SO AGAINST OUR CHRIST.
HAVE YOU EVER JUST TOLD THE LORD, THAT YOU JUST CAN'T DO THIS OR THAT,
WITHOUT HIM...AS YOU WOULD ADMIT TO A EARTHY FRIEND ?
HOW LONG DID YOU SEARCH OUT, DESIRING TO KNOW, ALL OF WHO HE IS ?
WAS IT NOT WORTH THE LONG HARD STRUGGLE...IN THE END ?
HE BECOMES SO REAL...AS LEARN THAT HE CREATED ALL THINGS,
AND THE WONDERS OF ALL HE REALLY...REALLY DID DO...
AND IT DOES SO HUMBLE...WHEN MEDITATE UPON THIS ~
WHAT IN THE WORLD, DID HE EVER SEE IN ME , OR IN YOU...
THAT NONE ELSE EVER COULD ?
DON'T YOU GET EXCITED AT THE THOUGHT OF THE "ONE", THAT IS THE
VERY CENTER, OF THE WHOLE WRITTEN BOOK ?
I REMEMBER ONE TELLING ME LONG AGO...CONNIE, JESUS IS GOD...
AND, I JUST LOOKED AT HIM... " ONE OF THE VERY FEW TIMES, THAT COULD
NOT EVEN OPEN MY MOUTH."
YET, AS REFLECT UPON ALL THAT TRIED TO DESTROY ALONG THE JOURNEY,
AS, FOR SURE... COULDN'T SEE WHAT LAID AHEAD AT THAT TIME...
OR OF ALL THAT HAD ALREADY HAPPENED BEFORE; IN EARLIER TIMES...
HAS AWAKEN COMPLETELY; OF HOW HE SO DID HAVE ME IN HIS MIND ~
IT'S THE SAME WITH YOU...MANY... THAT I CALL , A FRIEND...
HERE I GO AGAIN...SO SURE WAS DOING THE RIGHT THING...
YET..WONDERING IF... THE OTHER WILL HAVE A CHANGE OF MIND,
DUE TO WORDS EXPRESSED TO THEM ?
MANY OF US HAVE CARED FOR THE LESS- CARED...AND WE FORGET, THAT
OFTEN... THEM...WILL JUST CONTINUE ON, IN CARING- LESS.
EARLIER ON THIS MORNING, HEARD A PREACHER TEACH...
AND AFTER A MUCH SLEEPLESS NITE...SAID TO SELF, HE'S TALKING TO ME ~
AFTER THE LORD WAS CARRIED UP BY ANGELS UPTO THE FATHER...
WHAT DID HIS DO... THAT FOR 3 YEARS WERE FAITHFUL FOLLOWERS ?
WENT BACK TO WHAT THEY "KNEW"... IN THE PAST,
HOW QUICK WE FORGET, THE ONE THAT STOOD ON THE SHORE....
AND OF WHAT HE SAID UNTO THE MEN !
NOW I TELL YA...IT WAS AS A WAKE UP CALL...UNTO THIS VERY TROUBLED SOUL,
OF HOW QUICK...COMES A CHANGE OF A MIND; FORGETFUL....THAT WE ARE
NOT LEFT ALONE...VERY LONG, BEFORE HE APPEARS IN THE IMAGE OF OUR
MINDS AND SOULS...ONCE MORE !
DID HE NOT DO SO IN MANY OF OUR LIVES ...IN THE PAST...AND STILL DOES YET ?
DO WE NOT JUST STAND IN AWE, OF HOW HE NEVER CEASES TO REMIND US ALL.
know that all of you are goers and getters...daring, and determinded...
today is the day, i will be freed from this prison !
WILL BE GETTIN' OUT,FOR ABOUT THE SECOND TIME, SINCE THE SNOW...
AWAY FROM EVERYTHING HERE AT HOME, AND THE RINGING PHONE.
HAVENOT HAD A MC DONALD'S FOR ABOUT 3 WEEKS, AND FOUND THAT
CAN EAT SOME FOODS THAT COULDN'T EAT.
I TOLD THE LORD, WISH THAT I COULD DO THE SAME WITH SMOKING.
WAS SENT MONEY FOR CHRISTMAS GIFT TO GIVE TO FAVORITE CHARITY,
GOT A EMAIL FROM A FRIEND WITH A LIST, AND I PICKED ONE TO SEND
THE GIVEN MONEY TO .
THE CARING-LESS CALLED, AND IS IN PROCESS OF DOING WHAT I NEVER
THOUGHT WOULD FINALLY DO !
HAVE FOUND THAT LIFE IS ALWAYS CHANGING;IN SITUATIONS AT HAND,
BUT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THE NEED TO GO FORTH, IN ORDER TO ADVANCE !
OFTEN SITUATIONS CAN SO REMIND ONE OF WHAT WAS IN THE PAST...
AND BRINGS BACK PAINFUL MEMORIES , THAT EFFECT THE SOUL,
BUT ALSO BRINGS TO MEMORY, OF WHAT BY THE PAST...WAS TAUGHT !
THRU IT, THRU IT...REMEMBER THAT SONG ?
gotta go for now...but tell ya...this journey is like... ever changing one's thoughts...
WILL THE OVEFLOW OF WHAT WAS...COME TO AN END ,
AND MAKES WONDER... AS THE DAILY NEWS IS HEARD OR SEEN ?
WHAT WILL ANY DO THIS YEAR,THAT FAILED TO DO THE PASSING AWAY YEAR ?
WILL IT BE FOR THE LEAST...OR OF USING OTHERS, FOR ONE'S OWN CAUSE ?
WILL IT BE ANOTHER CHANCE OF REALLY DEEPLY MORE SO; OF STUDY INTO
ALL THAT WAS MEANT, AS WAS SAID BY JESUS...AND OF APOSTLE PAUL ?
WILL IT BE A DEEPER AWARENESS, OF THE MEANING OF WORKS, FOR THE LORD ?
SO MANY QUESTIONS COME TO MIND, AS EXAMINE, AND SEARCH OUT FOR
ANSWERS ~
SO SPENT WAS THE YEAR OF LISTENING TO MANY, AND LEARNING...
YET,OFTEN FAILING TO HEED TOTALLY... THE GIVEN MESSAGE...
BUT... WAS ALSO OF OL' BOOKS...ONCE LAID ASIDE, AND OF REDISCOVERY ~
DOES IT REALLY EVER END, OF SELF-EXAMINING;THE REASON WHY ARE HERE ,
AND WHAT WILL BRING FORTH...THIS COMING YEAR, AS WALK IN THE SPIRIT ?
WAS ALL THE PAST LOSSES, IN VAIN...OR DID IT TEACH IN A GREATER WAY...
OF EVER LEANING UPON AND IN THE PRECIOUS SPIRIT; IN GUIDING ONE'S WAY ?
WHAT WAS IT, THAT MADE MORE AWARE; OF THE STRONG WORD...OBEY ?
OR OF STRENGTH...GIVEN, IN ORDER TO EVEN MAKE IT THRU ANOTHER DAY ?
SO EASY TO LAY ASIDE WHAT ONCE WAS A STRONG DRIVE...
OF WITNESSING AND PRESENTING THE GOSPEL OF THE LIVING CHRIST .
SO EASY TO FORGET WHY, ARE LEFT HERE, AND THE REASON WHY ~
AS ONE THAT HAS SO FAR YET, IN ARRIVING TO THE HEART'S DEEPEST DESIRE,
REALIZE CAN'T JUST WISH ANYTHING AWAY...AS IN EARLIER MESSAGE DID SAY.
YET, REFUSE TO SET ASIDE THE FAITH, THAT HE CAN DO...WHAT I CAN'T; IN MY
OWN FLESHLY STRENGTH ~
IT'S THE SAME WITH ONES THAT SEEM TO CROSS THE PATHS, IN OUR LIFES,
SOME FILLED WITH DEBATES...SOME, THAT ENDLESSLY PRAY...
SOME THAT UNDERSTAND ANOTHER'S PAIN...AND MINISTERS TO THEM,
ENCOURAGING TO CONTINUE IN AND ON THE JOURNEY OF FAITH.
IN WHAT SEEMS SO WIDE SPREAD OF DIVISION AMONG ALL...
CONFUSION HAS ALMOST CONSUMED ALL...
AND WONDER OF IT ALL...IF MUCH OF THE LIGHT HAS BEEN LOST ?
THAT IS REASON ENOUGH... TO DIG DEEPER INTO THE WORDS IN ALL,
THAT JESUS SPOKE, AND APOSTLE PAUL WROTE...
THE RAIN POURED OUT DURING THE WEE HOURS, YET HAS BEEN DOING SO
OFF AND ON FOR A TIME NOW, IN BETWEEN THE TIMES OF SNOW.
THE TEACHINGS HAVE BEEN SO FOCUSED IN, UPON THE USUAL STORIES OF
GOD, AND JESUS...IN THIS SEASON OF TIME ALSO.
AND; THERE ARE WIDE SPREAD; OF ONES THAT MINISTER UNTO COUNTLESS PEOPLE...
GOING THRU TIMES OF DISASTERS, AND SOLDIERS IN GREAT WARS...
AND HERE, THERE SEEMS A GROWTH IN AND AMONG THE NEEDY AND THE POOR.
I COMMENTED, THAT OUR PRESIDENT IS REALLY BEING SHOWN SO MUCH OF
SUFFERINGS...THAT HE NEVER MUST OF EXPECTED TO SEE, AS HE HAS.
AND IT CAN BE SEEN ON HIS FACE, OF THE EXPRESSIONS, IN DEPTH !
IT IS ALIKE IN FAMILIES,IN THESE TIMES, DUE TO LOSS OF A LOVED ONE'S
UNTIMELY DEATH !
YES, WE CELEBRATE OF HOW OUR LORD AROSE, AND OF THE HOLY GHOST,
THAT ABIDES WITHIN...AND OF GIVEN GIFTS...
YET THE SOUL REMEMBERS OF PAUL IN HIS TIME OF IMPRISONMENT, AND OF
HIS PAIN FOR A FELLOWMAN.
THAT HAS STUCK IN THE MIND , THRU OUT MANY OF A TIME ~
AOL MENTIONED SOMETHING ABOUT, OF STORIES HAPPENING...
AND...IT STUCK A CORD...AS READ THOSE WORDS.
AND AS USUAL, IT BROUGHT TO MIND ANOTHER SONG...
WHY IS IT THAT MUSIC SEEMS SUCH A STRONG HOLD, WITHIN MANY OF A SOUL ?
IT SEEMS SO, DURING LIFE'S JOURNEY...AS WELL AS OF DAVID'S PSALMS ...
AND OF THE MEN, IN THEIR LAST TIME IN THE COMPANY OF THEIR LORD ,
BEFORE THE TIME... OF HIS GREAT SUFFERED SORROWS.
WHAT IS IT... THAT CONSUMES...OF ANY'S READING THE BIBLE ?
WHY IS IT SO VITAL ?
HOW MANY HAS ANOTHER... THAT CAN GO TO, KNOWING THAT THEY WILL READ ?
HOW MANY TIMES GO IN PRAYER; KNOWING THAT FATHER GOD IS LISTENING ?
WHY IS IT THAT MOST OF THE TIME; IT SEEMS A MIXTURE, OF SPOKEN WORDS,
NOT ONLY OF WORDS OF JOY...BUT ALSO OF; IN TIMES OF TROUBLES ?
WHY IS THIS ?
IF NOTHING ELSE MAKES SENSE; REMEMBER THIS...
NEVER... IS ANY ON THIS JOURNEY,MEANT, TO BE WALKING ALL ALONE...
AS, IT IS A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE LORD...AS WELL AS WITH HIS PEOPLE ~
MADE PHONE CALLS, AND AFTER HANGING UP...THANKED THE LORD FOR
THE DIFFERENT WAYS, OF RECEIVED WORDS...EXPRESSED BY SEVERAL;
NOT ALL WERE THE SAME, SOME NEEDED...SOME REFLECTING...SOME
REACHING OUT FOR UNDERSTANDING...SOME THAT BROUGHT FORTH A
TIME OF REFRESHING, THAT IN YOUR LIFE...CAME AWAY...REJOICING ~
WHAT A MIXED GROUP OF PEOPLE IS THE LORD'S PEOPLE...
AND YET...OF GIVEN GIFTS...THEY ARE EXERCISING, FOR HIS GLORY ~
IT REMINDS THE SOUL OF THE LORD JESUS, AND OF THE 12, HE CHOSE...
IT REMINDS OF THAT GLORIOUS DAY...
OF MANY DIFFERENT GATHERED PEOPLE; THAT DID HEAR WORDS SPOKEN ,
IN A LANGUAGE, IN WHICH THEY HAD SPOKEN, SINCE BIRTH, IN THEIR
INDIVIDUAL HOMES ~
NOW, THERE'S A NEED OF TRANSLATORS REPEATING ANOTHER'S LANGUAGE,
IN ORDER TO BRING FORTH UNDERSTANDING OF GIVEN MESSAGE ...
AND MARVEL, AS IT'S BEING DONE BY 2...BEING USED...FOR GOD'S GLORY !
WHAT A MIXTURE; ARE THE PEOPLE...HE USES FOR THE KINGDOM...
FOR THE PURPOSE...OF THE GOSPEL OF THE LORD JESUS ...
AND OF HOW ...AMONG HIS PEOPLE...THE DIFFERENCES...OF GIFTS GIVEN...
"THAT HE ALONE" CHOOSES...HE SO USES...FOR HIS GLORY...
************
SATURDAY...
BOUGHT A NEWSPAPER, AND AS THE HABIT...LOOKED TO SEE THE ONES PASSED
ON...YET THIS DAY WAS ONE, THAT SENT THE HEART TO THE THRONE OF MY LORD !
IT WAS A FEW WEEKS AGO, THAT BUMPED INTO A MAN, OF WHICH HIS CHILDREN
WENT TO SCHOOL...WITH OUR'S.
BUT LET ME BACK UP FIRST...BEFORE THAT; HAD BUMPED INTO ANOTHER THAT
WAS A CHILD OF GOD...AND SHE ENCOURAGED, AS WE LINGERED, THEN THERE
HE APPEARED...WITH HER YET NEAR, WHERE SHE COULD HEAR,
WHAT I SPOKE TO HIM, OF NOT GIVING UP HOPE !
SO...WHAT SEEMS TO BE THE TROUBLE, O' MY SOUL ...AND RUNNING TO THE
THRONE ?
DID I SAY ENOUGH, THAT WOULD ENCOURAGE HIM IN TRUSTING YOU O' LORD ?
SINCE THOU HAS DEEPEN THE SOUL'S UNDERSTANDING...OF BEING A FAITHFUL
WITNESS...STRUGGLED WITHIN...ALL THE DAY LONG.
SO HEAVY SEEMS THE RESPONSIBILITY, AND THE SELF EXAMINING...
BECAME CONSUMED...TIL' ACTUALLY BEGAN TO FEEL SICK.
AS CAME TO MIND OF ANOTHER TIME...
REMEMBERING A TIME THAT ONE WAS IN MY HOME LONG AGO,
AND WENT COMPLETELY OVER THE UNLEARNED'S HEAD IN UNDERSTANDING...
AND TO THIS DAY; THE UNLEARNED STILL YET;SPEAKS OF THE FACT,
OF THAT PAST EVENT.
O' HOW ANY MUST BE CAREFUL, IN WHAT TO SAY, OR NOT TO SAY...
WITH ANOTHER THAT HAS NEVER EVEN CRACKED OPEN THE HOLY BIBLE...
BUT RATHER, IN SIMPLICITY OF THE...SAVING GOSPEL.
SO MANY OTHER TIMES HAVE BEEN ALLOWED, TO REACH OUT WITH JUST THAT,
BUT NEVER EVER WANT TO BE QUILTY OF MISSING ONE SOUL, WHEREBY
MAKING IT SO DIFFICULT TO GRASP... OR IN GOING OVER THEIR HEAD.
BECAUSE OF THY LOVE, AND DESIRING TO BE USED...BY YOU...
SEEMS TO CAUSE A DEEP CONCERN, OF IF MIGHT HAD FAILED IN ANY WAY,
AS SPOKE UNTO THAT ONE, THAT CROSSED PATHS WITH...THAT DAY ~
SO WALKED THE FLOOR, AS THE USUAL, ASKING IF WAS RIGHT WHAT HAD SAID ?
TRIED SO HARD TO REMEMBER OF WHAT SAID, OR LEFT UNSAID TO THE ONE
THAT CROSSED PATHS WITH...BUT JUST COULDN'T RECALL FOR SURE !
AT END OF THE PAST DAY, JUST WENT HUMBLY TO THE THRONE OF GRACE,
AND ASKED FORGIVENESS ~
IT SEEMS THAT OFTEN TIMES...OUR LIVES GET SO FULL...OF SO MANY THINGS,
AND SUDDENLY APPEARS A PICTURE IN THE NEWSPAPER, REMINDING OF
TIMES NOW GONE BY.
REMEMBERING A LITTLE BOY IN MY CLASS , SO MANY YEARS AGO, AND OF
SAYING I WAS LEAVING...AND THE LOOK UPON HIS FACE...I YET CRY, AS NOW
KNOW NOT WHAT IT MUST HAD DONE TO HIS LITTLE TENDER SPIRIT...
AND WONDER IF WILL EVER SEE HIM AGAIN ?
SOME WOULD SAY, GET ON WITH LIFE...THE REPLY...DO TRY ~
HOW DEEP IS THE PASSION, AND WHAT CAUSES SUCH AN INWARD DRIVE,
IT IS WHEN THE WORD SPEAKS INTO THE SOUL...AND BRINGS FORTH FROM
DEATH...INTO A SPIRITUAL LIVING LIFE ~
IT WAS IN STUDYING OF WHAT APOSTLE PAUL WENT THRU, AND THO' NO
THORN IN THE SIDE, OR AS GREAT AS HE WAS...
WITHIN...BECAME SO MARKED ; THE PICTURE OF WHAT HE WENT THRU.
IT IS OTHER MEN AND WOMEN WITH SUCH INFLUENCE, UPON THIS LIFE,
IN THE BIBLICAL...PAST...AND PRESENT TIMES...THAT HAS BEEN SUCH A
TREMENDOUS IMPACT; DURING THIS WALK WITH JESUS CHRIST ~
MY SON GAVE ME 2 DVD'S AS A GIFT...THESE HAVE ALSO CAUSED SUCH
A DEEPER UNDERSTANDING, AS NEVER BEFORE...OF THE LIVING CHRIST,
AS WELL AS OF ANOTHER...OF SO LONG AGO...THAT SPENT YEARS IN
TRANSLATING THE BIBLE IN ORDER FOR THE "COMMON PEOPLE" TO BE
ABLE TO READ, FOR THEIRSELVES.
GOD HAS USED THE COMMON PEOPLE THRU OUT ALL AGES, SO IT SEEMS,
AND HIS ENTERING INTO THE SCENES...AND PLACING SUCH A PASSION WITHIN
THE HEARTS...THRU OUT ALL AGES...EVEN IN THIS PRESENT TIME...
WITHIN THE HEARTS OF...YOU AND ME ...
WHAT HE SEES...O' SO OFTEN ...WE CAN'T SEE !
HOW HUMBLE IT CAUSES ONE TO BECOME, AS EXPERIENCE THE LOVE,
THAT SO CHOOSES WHOEVER...HE DOES SO PLEASE, TO USE FOR "HIS GLORY."
OFTEN IT TAKES YEARS OF A RELATIONSHIP TO GROW, FOR OTHERS TO TRUST
IN WHAT ANOTHER MAY SAY.
OPENED CAME A DOOR TO WITNESS, TO ANOTHER, JUST YESTERDAY.
IT DOES SEEM TRUE... TRUST...WILL COME LATER THAN SOONER OFTEN
TIMES, AND OPEN WILL BECOME ANOTHER'S HEART AND MIND, TO RECEIVE WHAT
NEED TO RECEIVE.
HOW OFTEN CAN ONE BE HUMBLED, IN BEING USED AS A WITNESS...
OVER AND OVER AGAIN...SO IT DOES SEEM ~
WE TALK, MANY TIMES OF TRUSTING IN THE LORD...AND WAITING, AND WAITING
UPON HIS RETURN...AND IT DOES SEEM SOMEWHAT THE SAME WITH TIMES
OF RELATIONSHIPS; ASKING QUESTIONS, DUE TO THE CONDITION OF THE WORLD,
AND COMES SEEKING ANSWERS.
AS A PERSON[me]...IT HAS SEEMED LIKE A CENTURY OF ENDURING, WHILE IN
STUDY OF THE WORD...AND WAITING FOR ANSWERS ...THE SAME !
THERE WERE AND ARE TIMES...EVEN YET THAT THE STRUGGLE SEEMS NOT
WHERE DESIRE TO ARRIVE TO...IN THIS LIFE.
WE CAN VISION... BUT NOT TOUCH OR SEE COMPLETELY WHAT AWAITS US ,
WE CAN READ AND READ...AND SEE PAINTED PICTURES OF SUCH...
OR HEAR ENDLESS SONGS OF WORDS DESCRIBING SUCH...
BUT WHAT IS IT THAT CAUSED SUCH A LOVE AND TRUST , AMONG ANY...
CAUSING A WILLINGNESS TO WAIT FOR THE LOVER OF OUR SOUL'S RETURN ?
WHAT WOULD ANY OF US DO, WITHOUT THE WORK OF THE HOLY SPIRIT IN
OUR LIVES...WOULD THERE EVEN COME DEEP UNDERSTANDING OF THE LORD
JESUS CHRIST ?
EACH DAY DOES SEEM TO BRING FORTH ANOTHER ANSWER SEEKED...
AND IT IS HUMBLING...AS DO RECEIVE !
IT ALSO IS HUMBLING , WHEN GIVEN AN OPENED DOOR OF OPPORTUNITY
ONCE AGAIN ...EVEN AFTER STRUGGLING WITH IN OF QUESTIONING
IN THE SOUL... OF A EARLIER EVENT...
HAVE YOU EVER HEARD A MESSAGE BY ONE THAT IS SPEAKING OF ANOTHER,
AND SUDDENLY...IT'S AS IF THEY ARE DESCRIBING YOU ,IN EVERY DETAIL?
THIS HAS HAPPENED IN IT'S FULLEST !
IN THE SITUATIONS FACING, AND THINKING...HAD A COMPLETE TURN AROUND
CONCERNING OTHERS THAT HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH.
THE CHARACTERS- CARE-LESS...HAS BECOME "FRIENDS ~"
AFTER HOURS IN SHARED CONVERSATIONS...CAME UNDERSTANDING AND
FINDING THAT HAVE SO MUCH IN COMMON ~
IT'S LIKE KICKING OUT, ANY FORMER STRUGGLES AND PROBLEMS.
IT HAD TWO AREAS IN LIFE, THAT WAS DEALT WITH...
SPIRITUALLY AND HUMANLY !
WHEN, WITH ALL CONCERNED, COMES AN UNDERSTANDING...
DOESN'T MEAN IT WILL BE EASY...IN DECISIONS THAT ARE AHEAD, OF MAKING,
BUT IT DOES MEAN...IT BECOMES A TIME OF UNITY.
THIS IS UNDER THE HEADING OF COMING TOGETHER, AND DOING, WHAT RATHER
NOT DO...YET KNOW IT WILL BE OF BENEFIT, FOR ALL CONCERNED...
AND CAN RECORD IT IN THE JOURNAL..."ANOTHER VALUABLE LESSON LEARNED."
...SPIRITUALLY AND HUMANLY...
THIS IS LIFE> IN THE HOME, WORK, WITH FAMILY, AND ONES IN THE CHURCH...
AS WELL AS WITH PEOPLE OUTSIDE THE CHURCH~
THO' ALOT OLDER , OR MAYBE A WEE AHEAD OF MANY OF YOU IN AGE...
YOU KNEW OF GOD'S GRACE;BEFORE I UNDERSTOOD THE RICHNESS OF GRACE,
DUE TO, OF HOW YOU WERE RAISED .
IF I HAD DIED YEARS AGO, WOULD HAD BEEN ALREADY SPIRITUALLY DEAD,
DUE TO...SPIRITUAL... IG[NO]RANCE !
PRAISE TO THE LORD...AS NOW UNDERSTAND MORE SO OF HIS HEART,
"OF NOT WANTING ANY TO "PERISH."
[long ago]
FOR 10 YEARS OR SO, NURSED A DAUGHTER, NOT HERE IN TOWN,
WITH CASSETTE TAPES BY CHARLES STANLEY...
AND NOW, SHE IS UP AND RUNNING AHEAD OF ME, IN MANY WAYS.
KNOWING I'M UP EARLY...SHE CALLED...
SHE WAS SO EXCITED OF WHAT SHE READ IN EZEKIEL !
SHE DAILY STUDIES, BEFORE GOING TO CLEAN HOUSES FOR THE RICH.
ONLY SAY THIS, DUE TO THE FACT, OF HOW GOD HAS GRANTED ME "TIME."
TIME FOR WHAT ?
HE IS THE GOD, THAT... WANTS NONE TO PERISH !
WE SING "I'D RATHER HAVE JESUS THAN ANYTHING"
YET IN THIS SOUL...I'D RATHER BE SPIRITUALLY ALIVE...WHEN IN THIS PRESENT
LIFE; DOES COME TO A END OF BEING AMONG THE LIVING.
THO' MANY, MAY BE MILES AHEAD IN UNDERSTANDING AND KNOWLEDGE...
"NEVER LET FADE IN DULLNESS"...OF EVER GETTING EXCITED WITH OTHERS
THAT ARE FILLED WITH JOY...IN THEIR DISCOVERY, IN AND ON THEIR JOURNEY ~
ONLY SAY THIS TOO...AS HAVE RETURNED INTO A BIBLE THAT WAS SO MARKED
UP... WITH THE WORD..."VITAL"...AS WELL AS EARLIER SHORT NOTES, TUCKED
INSIDE...AS WELL AS HAVE MENTIONED; OF DISCOVERY OF BOOKS LAID ASIDE ~
THIS ONE THING , YET EXCITES...AS READ OF WHAT THE LORD SAID TO MARY,
THE SISTER OF ELIZABETH...DURING HIS VISIT IN THEIR HOME...
AND IT IS SUCH A POWERFUL STATEMENT ...
A PUT FORTH "VITAL" EXAMPLE, AND REMINDER UNTO ONE AND ALL...
THURSDAY WAS A DAY OF A GREAT BEGINNING, BUT IT WASN'T FOR VERY LONG ~
SEEMED AS IF IN A FIERCE WIND ...BACK AND FORTH, BECAME TOSSED,
AND COULDN'T ESCAPE BEING CAUGHT UP; THEN DROPPED AS IF JUST A TOY ~
IT HAD BEEN SUCH A LONG TIME OF NOT BEING IN PAIN...
TIL' ONCE AGAIN..TOOK A HARD DOWNWARD FALL .
WAS IN THE VERY MIDDLE OF A TASK ; AND REFUSED TO STOP DOING IT,
TIL' IT WAS COMPLETELY FINISHED.
LIFE FOR SOME, SEEMS TO BE A SMOOTH SAIL... OF OTHERS,NOT SO...
SOME SEEM TO BE THROWN OVERBOARD...HANGING ONTO DRIFT WOOD,
TIL' OF REGAINING STRENGTH...IN ORDER TO SWIM TOWARD THE SHORE.
OFTEN, THIS LIFE CAN BE AS IN A BATTLE, OF DECISIONS THAT MUST MAKE,
AND LIKEWISE, IS KEEPING ON...REGARDLESS OF GREAT CHANGE TAKING
PLACE, DURING THE COURSE OF ONE'S DAY.
WHAT IS THE PURSUIT, THAT KEEPS ONE IN DETERMINATION TO NOT GIVE UP
ON...
IT'S ALL THE LORD WENT THRU...AND THE HEART'S ONLY REASON OF PURSUIT...
BECAUSE; ONLY HE, IS THE ONE THAT GIVES THE SOUL LIFE AND TRUTH !
NO OTHER LOVE...SUCH AS HIS...CAN CAUSE A PASSION WITHIN...
OR OF A WILLINGNESS TO ENDURE...IN ORDER TO FOREVER BE WITH HIM ...
JUST YESTERDAY EVENING;ASKED THE LORD...AND THEN...
WAS SENT 2 PRAYER REQUESTS THIS MORNING...AND IT'S AS IF THE LORD WAS
GIVING ANSWERS TO THE SOUL...OF WHOM AND WHAT, AND WHO FOR !
ALSO , EVEN IN GIVING A DONATION TOWARD...THE SAME !
ONE THING THIS OL' WARRIOR OF A WOMAN, AFTER THE VERY HEART OF THE
LORD KNOWS...HE IS EVER FAITHFUL, TO SHOW ONE QUICKLY OF
WHERE THERE'S A NEED IN DIFFERENT AREAS, OF OTHER'S LIVES !
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now for a lighter side/ concerning 2 hillbillies at a laundry mat...
THE BED COMFORTER WAS IN NEED OF A BIGGER WASHING MACHINE,
AND SO OFF , ME AND PAUL WENT ~
HE ADDED ALOT OF SOAP AND MINUTES LATER, SOAP CAME OUT OVER
AND ALL AROUND, FLOODING THE FLOOR...AND MIND YOU, WE WERE
AMONG WHAT SEEMED TO BE PEOPLE, IN HIGHER CLASS OF LIFE...
IT WAS SOMETHING ELSE, AS WE WERE ON OUR KNEES, AND CLEANING UP,
SLOWER THAN IT WAS POURING OUT. FINALLY, GOT THE COMFORTER DONE,
BUT THE STUFFING WAS HANGING OUT, SO WAS SHOVING IT BACK IN...AND
ON TOP OF THAT, I CHEW BUBBLE GUM, AND WAS BLOWING BUBBLES THE
WHOLE TIME...AND THEN NOTICED EYES WATCHING;
SURELY OTHERS MUST HAD THOUGHT, IF THIS IS WHAT GETTIN' OLD IS ALL
ABOUT...IT MADE THEM DEFINITELY BECOME CONCERNED OF AND ABOUT AGING !
LIFE DOSE HAVE IT'S TIMES OF LAUGHTER, AS WILL AS TIMES OF SERIOUSNESS ~
after sending personal expressions unto another...had to meditate upon a reverse of inner
thinking, of thoughts so overwhelming ~
WHAT IS IT LIKE TO BE DETERMINDED TO LIVE LIFE ACCORDING TO GOD'S WILL,
AND BEING OBEDIENT UNTO HIM...
AND AS THE LORD JESUS...NEVER ALLOW SELF TO COMPROMISE ?
HOW MANY YEARS OF SCRIPTURES, HAS BECAME SO HIDDEN IN ONE'S SOUL,
AS REFLECT UPON THE ENDLESS MIRACLES, BY THE LORD JESUS LATER PERFORMED...AND OF THE MEANING OF HIS 1ST,
AFTER HIS RETURN FROM THE TEMPTER OF HIS VERY SOUL ?
IT WAS A WEDDING...THE WATER BEING TURNED INTO PERFECT WINE...
O' THIS SURELY GRABS AND ENGULFS THE SOUL AND MIND.
SO CHALLLENGED...WE BECOME TO FOLLOW, IN ALL AREAS OF LIFE...
AND; O' THE TERRIBLE REMORSE...WHEN KNOW HAVE OFTEN COMPROMISED !
WHY, IS THE HEART SO TROUBLED, AND KNOW THAT HAVE CAUSED HIM SORROW,
WHERE BY IT SO LEADS THE SOUL INTO A DEEP REMORSE ?
DOES IT NOT SEEM...O' THIS JOURNEY; SEEMS AS ONE OF PERSONAL CHOICE,
HE CALLS...AND ONE BY ONE...EACH LEAVES ALL, IN ORDER TO FOLLOW ?
"ASKED THIS... AFTER MUCH SELF-EXAMINING OF SELF'S SOUL ."
ARE WE REALLY MUCH DIFFERENT THAN WAS THEY, AS HEARD AND DID REPENT
OF SINS...
AND DUE TO HIS LOVE...HEALING ONCE AGAIN BEGAN...
"AFTER"... CRYING OUT TO BE CLEASNED ?
O' IS THE SAME TEMPTER; YET TRULY AS WAS WITH THE LORD,AS, SON OF MAN ?
DOES HE ALSO HAVE A ARMY OF FALLEN ANGELS, OBEYING HIS EVERY WHIMP ?
O' THE ONE THAT CAN TRANSFORM, INTO A FALSE LIGHT,TRYING TO DECEIVE EVEN
YET...THE BLOOD BOUGHTEN ...BY THE HOLY SON, OF MEN ?
COULD IT BE...THAT THE ANSWER IS YET...A DEFINITE ...YES ?
REMEMBERING THE WEDDING AT THE BEGINNING,AND THE LORD'S 1ST MIRACLE...
THAT CAME AFTER THE TEMPTER, OF OUR SAVIOUR'S VERY SOUL...
MUST MEDITATE UPON THE COMING CELEBRATION OF THE GROOM'S RETURN
THE GATHERING UP OF HIS... GATHERING AROUND HIS HOLY THRONE,
SINGING THE WONDERFUL HALLELUJAH CHORUS ~
O' THE LAMB OF GOD...SO WORTHY TO RECEIVE PRAISE...YOU ARE...
O' IT FILLS THE SOUL, ONCE BENT SO LOW, AND ARISES IN REMEMBERING
THE SWEET WORDS, THAT WILL SING...FOR EVER MORE...UNTO YOU, O' LORD...
O' LORD...AS READ AND READ...
IT IS YOUR PRESENCE, THAT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE TO ESCAPE FROM...
AS NO MATTER WHERE ARE AT...CAN'T SEEM TO DENY THE VERY FACT ~
THERE IS ONE THING THAT DOES STAND OUT UNTO THE EYES...
THE CHANGE IN A PERSON THAT ONCE WAS BENT UPON ONE WAY...
AND THE CHANGES THAT TAKE PLACE; BEING AS LIKE A WARRIOR
AND BECOMING HUMBLED...AS IT BECOMES SO OBVIOUS ,AS IN READING DUE TO
THE FACT OF HOW THEY WERE SO READY TO DIE...WITHOUT A HINT OF A FIGHT.
O LORD JESUS...SO WAS THE MIND SETS CHANGED OF ONES... ONCE WAS
AWARE OF YOUR BEING THE LAMB OF GOD...AND NOT A SENT WARRIOR.
THERE DOES COME A TIME IN MANY OF A LIFE...LATER THAN OTHERS...
OF MUCH WASTED ENERGY, FIGHTING THEIR OWN WARS, TIL' JUST WAKE UP ~
IT'S NOT THE PASSION THAT DIES, NO NEVER, NEVER...AND ALSO IN THE
FIGHTING OF A GOOD FIGHT...LIKEWISE.
BUT RATHER IT IS OF...A DEEP STUDY OF WHAT YOU SEEMED TO BE AS IN
THE OLD...AND WHAT OTHERS THOUGHT IN THE NEW; OF BEING THEIR WARRIOR.
WHAT A DIFFERENCE BECAME THE LIVES OF PETER, AND APOSTLE PAUL...
AS READ OF THE EVENTS RECORDED~
WHAT WORDS SO LEFT...AS GIVEN EXAMPLES, OF THE END OF THEIR LIVES...
AND OF HOW THEY SO WILLINGLY WERE READY, TO GIVE UP THEIR LIVES ~
WHAT REALLY STUCK A CORD IN THE HEART AND THE MIND WAS OF THE
LATTER BOOKS AND CHAPTERS ..OF PETER'S WRITINGS...
THAT CAUSES A WAKE UP CALL...IN TIMES SUCH AS THESE...
***** 'SPECIALLY... IN 2nd PETER chaper 3*****
THE MORE THAT READ...THE MORE THE POWER OF THE LORD GOD,
CONSUMES THE EYES OF HIS MIGHTY POWER.
THE MORE THAT READ OF THE NEWS... SEEMS AS IF THE BLOOD SHED, IS ONE
OF NEVER ENDING.
O' THE MULTITUDE OF VOICES...AS ALIKE...IN SOUNDS OF GREAT SHOUTINGS.
IS THERE ANYWHERE UPON THE FACE OF EARTH, WHERE CAN ESCAPE THE
SURROUNDINGS AND THE NOISE SO GREAT ?
SEEMS AS IF THE GREATEST OF ALL... IS OF THE POWER OF HATE,DEATH AND
OVERWHELIMG PAIN.
IF NOT FOR KNOWING THAT SOMEDAY...ALL FORMER THINGS WILL PASS AWAY,
MAKES DETERMINDED TO CLING TO THE WORD....THAT FILLS THE EYES AND
THE SOUL...BLOCKING OUT ALL; BUT OF WHERE THE LORD GOD SO REIGNS ~
THE ASSURANCE OF, HEAVEN AND EARTH SHALL PASS AWAY,
"BUT [HIS] WORDS SHALL NOT PASS AWAY."
THIS IS WHAT PLACE THE FAITH IN...OR ELSE, WOULD GROW FAINT.
THIS IS WHY, STRIVE IN HONORING THE LORD... AND IN OBEYING ~
THIS IS WHY SEEK THE LORD'S RIGHT HAND OF BLESSING...
AND SPEAK IT ALSO, OVER ALL THE OFFSPRINGS OF THE GIVEN FAMILIES ~
THIS IS WHY STRIVE TO HAVE A RIGHT RELATIONSHIP WITH THE ALMIGHTY,
AS WELL AS WITH NEIGHBORS...RATHER BE ONES, FAR OFF, OR VERY NEAR.
THIS IS WHY...DESIRE TO BE AS A PEACE MAKER~
THIS IS ALSO WHY HAVE TO RUN TO THE FATHER , WHEN KNOW THAT HAVE
FAILED IN ANY AREA ...AND IT IS SO MUCH MORE THAN ANY MAY THINK !
AGAIN AND AGAIN...MUST REFLECT UPON THE ACTS, OR OF THE LACKS...
NOT FOR MERITS...BUT BECAUSE OF THE LORD'S EXAMPLES OF DEALING
WITH THE FELLOWMEN.
BECAUSE OF HIS MERCY...THAT NEVER DOES HAVE AN END ~
THE THIRST AND HUNGER KEEPS THE SOUL HUNGRY TO SUBMIT,
AS KNOW WITHOUT HIM...AM AS ONE ALREADY...AS DEAD.
...this is the last of keeping in the journal...or sending...
but am awaiting a poem that was written by another/ that will be sending to a few. ~
she mailed to me by post office delivery...am typing it accordingly]
[i am a witness to the fact / lived next door to her, for 6 years.]
[subject:] A CRY FROM WITHIN
I SIT AND SEE WHAT LIFE HAS DEALT TO ME...
A TERRIBLE MONTH; DEATH ALL AROUND...
I SEE LIFE GONE FROM THIS WORLD...
A SISTER, A BROTHER, A FATHER, AND A BROTHER-IN-LAW...
ALL GONE...JANUARY HAS BEEN CRUEL TO ME...
"BUT GOD HAS BEEN GOOD."
JANUARY HAS CLAIMED SO MANY...WHAT DOES THIS MEAN ?
CHILDREN WITHOUT MOMS AND DADS, DADS AND MOMS WITHOUT CHILDREN,
WHAT THE CRY MUST BE FROM WITHIN ~
JESUS SAID; THERE WILL BE EARTHQUAKES LIKE NEVER BEFORE HEARD OF;
WELL... THIS IS CERTAINLY THE ONE THAT IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT !
OH, THE HEART MUST TRULY BE BROKEN; A CRY FROM WITHIN SO LOUD ~
I CAN HEAR THE CRIES; AS YOU SEE... MY CRY IS WITH THOSE PEOPLE ~
JESUS SAID...THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF SORROWS...
WELL... MY CRY IS FAR FROM BEING ALONE,
BECAUSE THE SEA HAS BROUGHT A DEATH CRY...
THAT IS HEARD ALL OVER THE WORLD ~
FATHER...PLEASE HELP US...
A CRY...FROM SO MANY WITHIN...
[written by Sharon West]
WE COME TO ATIME IN LIFE, THAT OFTEN IS LIKE WHAT ONCE WENT THRU
IN ANOTHER TIME !
IT'S LIKE..."O' LORD...WHY ? THEN COMES THE STRUGGLE IN ONE'S MIND,
NOT THAT WANT TO ESCAPE...BUT RATHER TO DO WHAT IS RIGHT IN YOUR EYES."
MANY UNDERSTAND OF NOT BEING ABLE TO SAY A GOODBY TO ONE THAT IS
SUCH A PART OF YOUR LIFE...OR TO HAVE OTHERS THAT WANT TO SHIFT THEIR
RESPONSIBILITY UPON YOU...IN ORDER TO ESCAPE WHAT THEY DON'T WANT
TO FULFILL., FOR SOME REASON OR ANOTHER.
IT DOES AND WILL TAKE ONE BACK TO THAT...ANOTHER TIME !
SEVERAL TRY TO SPEAK TO YOU IN WISDOM OF SITUATION AT HAND...
YET...THE PAIN MAY YET EXIST...AND DON'T DESIRE TO WALK THAT WAY AGAIN,
AND ASKED THE SOUL, IS THIS WHY PICK UP THE PEN, TO WRITE THEM ?
A DEFINITE NO...YET GREAT IS THE STRUGGLE, AS REMIND OTHERS THAT
IT IS THEIR RESPONSIBILITY...AND AT THE END OF THE PAGE,
DID PEN... "HUMBLY"...and name.
MY DAUGHER LIVES IN FL. AND SAYS THAT THE EDERLY PARENTS ARE SO
NUMBERLESS THERE...THAT ONCE WERE SOMEONE'S MOM OR DAD...
BUT AS TIME PASSED...?
IT IS HARD TO READ THE WORDS OF THE LORD, ON A SUBJECT OF SUCH,
AND MANY OTHER SUBJECTS OF, AND ON... RESPONSIBILITIES !
IT'S AN INDIVIDUAL, AS WILL AS A NATIONAL SEARCHING WITHIN THE SOULS,
YET, CAN'T FIND THE ANSWERS... OUTSIDE OF THE HOLY BIBLE !
IT IS THE ONE WHOLE BOOK , FILLED WITH SUCH GREAT PRINCIPLES,
MANY EXAMPLES PUT FORTH FOR NATIONS, AS WELL AS FOR INDIVIDUALS,
THAT DRIVES HOME...THE EARNESTNESS OF SPREADING OF THE GOSPEL ~
WHICH OF ANY OF US...CAN SAY ARE BETTER THAN THIS ONE OR THAT ONE,
AS WATCH THE HAPPENINGS IN MANY OF A LAND ?
SAY THIS...AS SO WELL EXPRESSED WAS THE POEM OF " A FRIEND"
THAT EARLIER DID SEND ~
THIS IS WHY, EVER DESIRE TO BE APPROVED BY THE FATHER GOD,
AND TOOK THE STRUGGLE TO HIM, EXAMINING 1ST, SELF'S SOUL WITHIN...
AND ALSO SEEKING WISDOM...AMONG FRIENDS...
WHEN THE SOUL IS OVEFLOWING WITH WORDS, AND TRY TO SILENCE IT,
IT'S LIKE TRYING TO HOLD STILL, THE FORCE OF A POWERFUL WIND.
NOT LONG AGO WENT TO THE SAME DOCTOR THAT YEARS AGO, WASN'T
AWARE OF ALOT OF MED'S...AND OF THEIR LATER AWFUL AFFECTS...
THAT WOULD LATER CAUSE THE BODY NOT ABLE TO TAKE ANY KIND OF MEDS.
IT COST, AND INSURANCE WOULDN'T PAY, DUE TO LIMITED DOCTORS THEY
SAY, THEY WILL PAY.
YET, WHAT DRAWS ANOTHER BACK TO ONE; IT'S COMPASSION; A FRIENDSHIP
SO FORMED...AS HE PAYS ALL EXPENSES, TO TRAVEL TO FOREIGN LAND,
TO JAILS , OF THE FORGOTTEN PRISONERS, THAT MOST ARE FORGOTTEN
BY OTHERS~
HE SPOKE OF HOW HE MAYNOT BE ABLE TO HEAL COMPLETELY AS HE WISHES,
BUT CAN MINISTER MEDS. THAT WILL GIVE THEM A PERIOD OF REST, FROM
LONG EXPERIENCED PAIN,SO LONG NEGLECTED...AS HELD CAPTIVE.
HE WAS THE ONE THAT YEARS AGO, HELPED MY DENIAL OF A DEATH, THAT
JUST COULDN'T ACCEPT...AND WHEN THE TEARS WERE RELEASED FOR THE
1ST TIME...HE HELD ME IN HIS ARMS, WHILE I CRIED...IS ANOTHER REASON
I WILL PAY, IN ORDER TO GO TO HIM, AND WILLINGLY PAY...REGARDLESS !
HEARD WORDS EXPRESSED JUST THIS DAY...REMINDING OF A SONG IN THE PAST,
"LEAVE IT THERE"...AND IT EXPLODED WITHIN THE MIND, OF EARLIER TEARS SHED,
OF WHERE USE TO BE...AND HOW QUICKLY ONE CAN FORGET...
OF HOW FAR AWAY CAN TRAVEL,AS IF A STRANGER ENTERING A FOREIGN LAND ~
WHAT CAUSES A DRIFTING AWAY, AS CAN'T EVER TOUCH A SUNSET,
OR WISH AWAY A LIFE SO FILLED OF REGRETS...
OR MAYBE AT THIS MOMENT, FEEL AS IF ARE ONE OF THE DEAD...
BUT ARISE; RETURNING BACK TO A FORMED RELATIONSHIP OF... COMPASSION,
BY THE MOST HOLY ONE THAT WILL ALWAYS WELCOME YOU BACK !
REMEMBER, OF HOW IT USE TO BE...OF YOUR LEAVING IT THERE,
OF THE TIMES, YOU DREW UNTO HIM...IN SECRET,AND WOULD SHARE
ALL OF YOUR DESIRES, SORROWS, AND YES; EVEN YOUR EVERY FEAR ?
AS THE WORDS GO AROUND IN THE MIND... A MELODY OF ANOTHER TIME,
"ONCE AGAIN"...STRUCK A CORD...IN THE INNER SPIRIT, HEART AND THE MIND ~
WHAT IS LIFE, WITHOUT A PAST, OR OF LISTENING TO OTHERS WITH A PAST ?
WHAT BECOMES A DRIVE WITHIN THE SOUL...TO SIT AND LISTEN ?
IT IS GETTING PAST, WHAT MAY FOR YEARS; WILL CHANGE ALL ONE
ONCE THOUGHT.
WHILE MOST SPEND THE YEARS AT HOME, GOING TO SCHOOL AND ALL THE
OTHER THINGS OF YOUTH...COULD ANY REALLY PICTURE WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE
IN A FOREIGN LAND ?
AT 16 YEARS OLD...WENT TO NEW YORK, GOT ON A HUGH BOAT...AND OFF
WENT...IT IS TRUE...WHEN OUT FAR IN THE SEA...IT CAN SEEM LIKE THE EYES
ARE LOOKING AT MOUNTAINS, AFAR OFF...BUT THE GREATEST WAS THE FORCE
OF THE WIND.
IT WAS IN GERMANY, WHERE LEARNED ALOT OF WHAT IT WAS LIKE, TO BE
WHERE, CAN'T CALL BY PHONE, OR RUN HOME.
IT'S WHERE LEARN THAT YOU ARE AS A FOREIGNER, UNTO MOST.
IT'S WHERE MIGHT BE LEFT ALONE, MORE THAN NOT...
AND CHANGES THE WAY, YOU COPE WITH ALOT !
IT ALSO CAUSES A DEEP DRIVE WITHIN, OF HOW TO ACCEPT ONE'S LOT !
WHEN DID START READING IN THE HOLY BOOK...BECAME CONSUMED BY
AND OF HOW THE PEOPLE WENT THRU ALOT; THE CHOSEN LITTLE NATION
SO BELOVED BY THE CREATOR GOD ~
SEEN ONE OF THE YET STANDING HELLISH BUILDINGS THAT KEPT CAPTIVES
IN...AND NEVER WILL THE VISION BE TAKEN AWAY, AS A YOUTH IN A FOREIGN
LAND.
BUT WHAT DID ALMOST DRIVE ME CRAZY WAS OF NOT UNDERSTANDING IT ALL,
OR BEING ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THE GERMAN LANGUAGE.
HAD TO POINT THE FINGER TO WHAT EVER NEEDED , WHEN IN A SHOP,
THAT SOLD GROCERIES.
WATCHED HALF BREED CHILDERN BROUGHT INTO THE WORLD, BY OUR
SOLDIERS...PROMISING TO RETURN, BUT NEVER FULFILLED THAT PROMISE.
WHEN GOT INTO THE NEW TESTAMENT...STRUGGLED WITH SO MUCH OF THE
WORDS...THAT SEEMED AS IF IN A FOREIGN LANGUAGE TOO...
AND IT HAS TAKEN MANY OF A YEAR, TO LEARN, WHAT MOST ALREADY KNEW.
"BUT"...THIS ONE THING I DO KNOW...THERE IS A GOD, AND A LIVING CHRIST,
AND WHEN CHOSEN...BY THE CREATOR, AS A VESSEL TO BE USED...
FOR SURE, THE HEART KNOWS IT IS FOR HIS GLORY ALONE,
WHICH DOES FLOOD AND OVERFLOW...WITH SIMPLE WORDS, OF THE SOUL...
AS IN LAST WORDS SHARED OF NOT UNDERSTANDING IT ALL, WHEN AS A YOUTH
IN A LAND FAR FROM HOME...
SO MUCH HAS COME INTO LIFE, A DEEP DESIRE TO UNDERSTAND WHY, OF ALOT
THAT DOES CONCERN THE PAST.
YEARS AGO, DUE TO BEING ABLE TO WATCH HISTORY UNFOLD BY ZOLA, AND
OTHERS...IT MADE THE HUNGER FIERCE...TO UNDERSTAND EVEN MORE;
AND DROVE THE SOUL INTO SEEKING OUT, AS ONE FILLED WITH PASSION ;
MANY FILMS OF OTHER TIMES, AND PLACES, AND PEOPLE, OF LONG AGO.
THE REDISCOVERY OF A BOOK "UNDERSTANDING THE BIBLE" IS FILLING THAT
HUNGER AND IT'S LIKE>>>WOW !
IT'S LIKE SO ALLOWED IS THE EYES, TO WATCH GOD'S GREAT DRAMA UNFOLD ~
MAYBE FOR TOO MANY YEARS, REMAIN IN THE FAMILIAR SURROUNDINGS,
AND IT NEVER MAY GROW DULL...UNLESS HAVE BEEN FOR A SEASON OF TIME,
TAKEN AWAY FROM IT ALL ~
OR MAYBE SEE NO REASON, TO SEEK OUT WHAT MAY SEEM SO DIFFICULT ?
OR... THEN THERE'S THE PRODIGAL...THAT STRAYED AWAY, BEFORE REALIZING,
AND RETURNING BACK HOME. ~ SO MANY EXAMPLES THRU OUT THE BIBLE ~
TESTIMONIES...WITNESSES...PEOPLE...
~LEFT UNTO ONE AND ALL...FOR ONE REASON ALONE ~
FOR EACH FOLLOWING GENERATION, TO SEE THE VISION OF THE CHRIST,
~AS NEVER HAVE BEFORE~
WHEN HEAR A MESSAGE OF ONE... ON THE SUBJECT OF "LOVE"...
CAN GET ENDLESS ANSWERS... OF THE MEANING OF "LOVE"...
YET THE GREATEST WAS LEFT IN THE BIBLE; BY THE LORD HIMSELF !
IN A PHONE CALL RECEIVED THIS MORNING...WAS SHARED THE SORROWS
OF A WOMAN THAT MAY HAVE CANCER...AND ALL SHE COULD THINK OF WAS
HER AFFLICTED DAUGHTER...IF TRUE; CAME BACK THE REPORT~
THIS MOTHER HAS FOR ENDLESS YEARS FOCUSED HER LOVE UPON THE DAUGHTER...AS NONE OTHER COULD, OR PROBLEY WOULD ~
IT MAKES THE SOUL EXAMINE MORE DEEPLY OF WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT ?
IN A WORLD THAT SEEMS SO BUSY, AND HAS CREATED SOMEWHAT
OF A MONSTER...IT SEEMS TO BE UNLEASING IT'S FURY.
AS WATCH THE NEWS OF HOW WATER CAN'T PUT OUT A FIRE, OF TOXIC FUMES,
ASK THE SOUL...WHAT HAS MAN'S KNOWLEDGE COME TO ?
THERE IS SO MANY QUESTIONS OF THE SOUL...AS HEAR ENDLESS REPORTS ~
YESTERDAY, CAME CALLS, FROM A LADY...THAT CARES FOR OTHERS, AND KNEW
NOT WHY; AS STRANGERS... THE FAMILY HAD BECOME... AND ...
WERE DRAGGING THEIR FEET IN THE RESPONSIBILITY,
OF THE DIRE SITUATION, AT HAND...WITH A LOVE ONE ;
AND THE SOUL REJOICED, IN KNOWING THAT LOVE YET RULES IN THE HEARTS
OF SOME.
ASKED THE SOUL...WHERE ARE YOU IN THIS LIFE, IN CONCERN FOR OTHERS,
HAVE YOU GROWN COLD...OR... IS LOVE THE SOUL'S MAIN THEME ?
IS THE SOUL TRAVELING TOWARD THAT FAR COUNTRY, THE HEAVENLY...
WHERE SITS THE SAVIOUR, THE KING ?
WHAT IS ACCOUNTIBILITY? ...WHAT WILL HE SAY, WHEN ARE FACE TO FACE ?
O' DOES THE SOUL CRY, DEEP WITHIN; O' LET NOT THE HEAD FALL IN SHAME !
WHAT IS LOVE ALL ABOUT...ONCE OF REALLY KNOWING THE ONE OF LOVE ?
THE ONE THAT WILL CAUSE ALL, TO BECOME TOTALLY AS NAKED ...
EXPOSING WHAT WAS ENTRUSTED AND GIVEN...AND OF EACH ONE'S
FAITHFULNESS...IN IT BEING DONE .
IT IS A TIME OF MUCH SEARCHING OUT...OF WHERE ARE AT; AS NEVER BEFORE,
AS IT DOES SEEM THAT ALL IS IN A TAIL SPIN...FOR SURE;
IN THIS PRESENT WORLD...
FAMILIES...CHILDREN...
"FATHER, MAKE HIM LEAVE ME ALONE."
DOES ANY...REMEMBER EVER AS A CHILD...OF THOSE WORDS VOICED ...
OR...OF WHO MADE YOU BOSS, OR...YOU JUST THINK THAT YOUR SO SPECIAL ~
DID YOU EVER JUST TAKE OFF, BUT DIDN'T GO VERY FAR, BEFORE TURNING
AROUND...GOING BACK HOME ?
NOW, WE ARE SO GROWN UP...AND SEEM SO SPIRITUAL...
PRESUMING...THAT WE HAVE COME SO FAR, AND SURELY THE LORD LOOKS
UPON US...AS A PEOPLE SO SPECIAL.
HOW FAR BACK DOES ONE GO IN READING OF OTHERS, THAT HAD THAT VERY SAME THOUGHT ?
CAN ANY BUILDING HOLD THE CREATOR, AND OF ALL HIS GLORY ?
WHAT IS IT THAT LEAVES THE MIND, AND EYES IN AWE...WHEN REALIZE
THAT OUR CHRIST...PAID THE TERRIBLE DEBT...THAT WE COULDN'T POSSIBLY
PAY...?
WHAT CAUSES THE LEAVING THE SCENE OF THE GARDEN...AND GOING FORWARD
LOOKING NOW TOWARD ... THE NEW HEAVEN...AND EARTH ?
IT IS MAYBE IN MANY MINDS, THE WORD..."PERFECT."
O' WHAT A DAY THAT WILL BE...NO MORE DIVISIONS...NO MORE DEBATES...
NO MORE OF OBSTACLES, WORLD VIEWS, TRADITIONS, OR OF DIFFERENCES
EMBRACED !
NO MORE OF WARNINGS, NO NEED FOR PROPHETS, OR OF FUTURE
REVELATION...OR OF THE TERRIBLE STRUGGLES OF OBEYING...
OR OFTEN, OF FORMER TIMES, WHERE SEEMED A LACK OF THE LORD'S VERY
PRESENCE...
SO, IS IT ANY WONDER, WHY SO HUNGER FOR...WHERE ALL WILL BE "PERFECT."
YET; OF SERVING...AND WORSHIPPING...TRULY; THERE WILL BE NO ENDING...
LIFE...ANOTHER PERSON... HAVE GOTTEN TO KNOW IN A DEEPER SENSE,
AND AS MEDITATE UPON ALL SHARED AND SAID...REALIZE EACH ONE HAS
A STORY THAT OFTEN IN THE HEART...JUST KEEP HID ~
AS HUMANS...SEEMS ARE MEANT TO BE FRIENDS...AND TO BEFRIEND !
THE MEANING OF THE WORD..." FRIEND"...IS TO "ACT."
UPON EACH PERSON'S LIFE...ANOTHER DOES HAVE AN EFFECT ~
AFTER YEARS IN THE BIBLE...AND STRUGGLING TO UNDERSTAND MORE,
ONE THING IT HAS TAUGHT...IS TO LISTEN IN A DEEPER SENSE TO PEOPLE,
AS ALL OUT OF THEIR HEART, IS MUCH OUTPOURED.
ALSO; IT BECOMES THE SAME WITH ALL THAT IS SPOKEN IN THE SPIRIT...
"FROM WITHIN THE HEART OF OUR LORD," THRU THE HOLY GHOST ~
IS IT NOT A FACT, THAT HIS LIFE TOO, WAS SURROUNDED BY "PEOPLE?"
WAS IT ALSO THE SAME, WITH HIS DISCIPLES ?
AS STUDY...YES IT IS THE GOSPEL...
YET IN AWE IS WHAT HE SPOKE...CALLING THEM... HIS FRIEND !
WHY DOES THIS SEEM IN EACH OF OUR LIVES...SO MUCH THE SAME ?
WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH, WHEN ANOTHER IS HURTING,AND IT HURTS US,
OR WHEN SEE WHAT THEIR GOING THRU...IT EFFECTS US ?
IN THE OLD...
AT THE BEGINNING IT WAS MARRIAGE, BEFORE NEXT GENERATION CAME ALONG
AND IN THE NEW...IT WAS ALSO.
BUT HOW DIFFERENT IS HAS BECOME !
O' THE PAIN, AS WATCH WHAT HAS HAPPENED IN THIS LAND OF FREEDOM ~
O' THE PAIN...AS WATCH WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH FAMILIES, AND CHILDREN ~
IF PAIN IS MISSING...AND THE FOCUS IS MORE UPON SELF THAN ON OTHERS...
SOMETHING IS LACKING ~
SO FIRM IN THE MIND, WAS OF APOSTLE PAUL'S REQUEST FOR A PRISONER
THAT WAS WITH HIM...AND HE PRAYED A SPECIAL PRAYER UPON THE OTHER'S
BEHALF....EVEN THO' PAUL, HIMSELF...WOULD REMAIN A PRISONER ~
MAY THE LORD IMPRESS WITHIN EACH HEART...PAUL'S PAIN HE HAD FOR
ANOTHER...AND NEVER LET US FORGET...AND THE HEART FIRST ASKED THIS,
AS I TOO STRUGGLE, AND MANY TIMES DO FORGET...
HUMBLY DO CONFESS...
THESE OL' EARS HAVE A PROBLEM...NOISE DRIVES 'EM CRAZY.
THESE OL' EYES ARE NOW FADING...AND THE SKIN IS WRINKLING...
BUT FOR YEARS...DO KNOW THIS 1 THING...
THE ENDLESS MERCY OF THE GOD ALMIGHTY !
AS ONE THAT UNDERSTANDS BEING UNWORTHY OF ALL THAT HAS BEEN GIVEN,
WILL STAND TALL, IN SPEAKING IT, REGARDLESS OF ANY OTHER'S THOUGHTS,
DUE TO THE FIERY HOLINESS OF GOD ALMIGHTY ~
THERE HAS BEEN SO MUCH FLOW INTO THE OL' EARS, AND SCENES THAT WATCH,
THAT ONLY ONE WORD CAN DESCRIBE... [borrowed word]...FLIPPANCY~
THRU OUT YEARS OF SICKNESSES, AND ENDLESS TESTINGS, AND FAILURES,
PROBABLY MORE THAN MOST...UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF " REPENTING,"
AS, HAVE HAD ALOT MORE SPACE OF TIME...IN THE AREA OF LEARNING ~
THERE IS NO QUICK FIX...HAVE LEARNED OF THIS THE HARD WAY...
AND THRU OUT YEARS, LEARNED ALL THINGS...THE SAME WAY ~
[another note hidden away.]
THE PURE PRESENCE OF GOD...WILL TRULY HUMBLE;AND AS A CHILD BECOME...
SO AWE STRUCK ...BECOME, IN THE PRESENCE OF " THE MOST HOLY ONE ."
HE RIPS AWAY ALL PRIDE...AND WANTS... BY HIS FIRE OF HIS HOLINESS ~
TREMBLING IS PART OF THE PROCESS, THAT LEADS TO REPENTANCE ,
AFTER YEARS, OF READING THE OLD TESTAMENT.
SEEMS AS TODAY, MANY ARE SO AGAINST THE SHOWING OF THE STONE
OF THE 10 COMMANDMENTS...AND COULD IT BE, BECAUSE OF THE PIERCING
OF THE HEARTS; THAT WANT TO BE IN FULL CONTROL OF THEIR OWN SOULS ?
ONLY WHEN BECOMES A HEART, AS IF ARE COMPLETELY AS ONE SO VERY
STARVED...AND ONLY DESIRE TO BE PURIFIED BY HIS HOLY FIRE...
WILL TRANSFORM ~
IT WAS "THE OBEDIENCE OF CHRIST, AND OF HIS LOVE FOR HIS FATHER,"
AND EVER POINTING THE WAY FOR ALL; TO SEE HIS MOST INNER DESIRE,
OF GIVING THE FATHER ALL GLORY...IN ALL THINGS, WHILE HERE ...
THAT CAN CAUSE A SINCERE CHANGE IN ANY OF A SEEKING HEART ~
THE DEEPEST DESIRE BECOMES THE SOUL'S GOAL, A BURNING FIRE IN THE SOUL,
THAT CAUSES A LIVELY HOPE !
THAT WILL CAUSE ONE TO MORE DEEPLY BE , AS THE EXAMPLE GIVEN BY
THE LORD JESUS CHRIST...THAN EVER BEFORE.
GIVING ALL PRAISE AND WORSHIP UNTO THE FATHER...AS NEVER BEFORE...
FOR YEARS, ALL THAT HAD TO OFFER WAS PAINFUL TEARS,
TOILED AND STRUGGLED WITH A PLACE TO HIDE AWAY,
SEEKING RELIEF...TAKING A TAPE OF MUSIC WITH ME TO PLAY,
TIL' FELL ASLEEP, ESCAPING THE ENDLESS PAIN.
AS REDISCOVERED BOOKS...ALSO... FOUND THAT TAPE ONCE AGAIN...
AND BEGAN TO SING ALONG WITH THE WORDS ~BE NOT AFRAID ~
THE LORD HEARS THE CRY OF THE POOR...THE VOICE OF THE POOR,
{REMEMBER WHAT HE SPOKE TO OTHERS, THAT REMAINED FEARFUL,
BEHIND LOCKED DOORS ?}
SO MUCH OF THE PAST, FLOODED THE SOUL ~
IT WAS DURING THE PAST, THAT ENDLESSLY MARKED UP THE BIBLE ~
IT IS TRUE...HE DOES ALWAYS GO BEFORE US, AND GIVES US REST...
SO, WHAT BROUGHT FORTH CHANGE ALONG THE WAY, THE SOUL DOES ASK;
HOW COULD ONE BEING VILE SO LONG IN LIFE...SUDDENLY KNOW THE FULLEST
OF HIS LOVE ? SO LONG AS A PRISONER, WITHIN, SO LONG LOCKED UP...
UNTIL, REDISCOVERED THE WRITINGS OF MANY IN THE PAST...THAT OPENED
THE DOOR OF THE SOUL...TO UNDERSTAND, WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT.
AWAKEN FROM SLEEP...'hid' with CHRIST in GOD" ....
[borrowed words] LET'S SEARCH, LET'S PRAY; LET'S GET QUIET, LET'S LEARN
THE WONDER OF SILENCE. LET'S LEARN THE BEAUTY, THE SECRET OF SEEKING
AFTER GOD . WITH OUR BIBLE OPEN BEFORE US,ALL ALONE IN HUMILITY AND
PENITENCE, LET US CRY,
"ONLY GOD, AND ONLY GOD ALONE !
TAKE THE WORLD, BUT GIVE ME ...JESUS !"
KNOW NOT IF EVER WILL TYPE AND SEND OUT WORDS AGAIN...
MAYBE TOO MANY...HAVE ALREADY BEEN SENT ?
THE LAST FEW NITES, HID AWAY, BACK INTO THE ROOM, WHERE MANY NITES
IN THE PAST...DID SPEND...AS THE NOISE IS GROWING LOUDER AND LOUDER,
AND HAD TO ESCAPE FROM ALL THE PRESENT EVENTS, TAKING PLACE.
THAT'S WHERE FOUND REST, AND PEACE, WITH THE... "I AM !"
WAS ASKED BY A FRIEND THAT WAS VISITING...WHAT TIME DO YOU GET UP ?
THIS MORNING, HOURS BEFORE THE DAWN, WATCHED OUT THE WINDOW FOR
ANY SIGN OF LIGHT. AS IT BEGAN TO FINALLY BREAK THRU...IT SEEMED FULL
OF DARK CLOUDS...AND WAS SOMEWHAT ALIKE WITH THE INNER MOOD.
I LOVE THE WAY THAT THE CREATOR CAN MAKE THE SUN COME FORTH,
JUST TO PROVE ME WRONG ...O' I KNOW THAT IT JUST WASN'T FOR ME,
YET...AM ALWAYS THANKFUL FOR BEING PROVED WRONG IN THE THINKING ~
AS WAS READING EARLY , CAME ACROSS THE WORD "DESPISETH."
THOUGHT UPON OF HOW NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT, WHEN BEING CORRECTED
BY THE ALMIGHTY ~
IN FOREFRONT OF THE MIND, WAS ALWAYS, JUST ASKING FOR HIS MERCY ~
THE REASON WHY WAS BECAUSE, KNEW THAT HIS MERCY IS NEVER ENDING ~
ALSO, THO' NOT SPIRITUAL MAYBE...KNEW I DESERVED THE SPANKING !
THRU OUT YEARS OF MEDITATING IN THE WORD, WAS MUCH MORE INTERESTED
IN JUST KNOWING HIM...IN THE FULLEST OF WHO HE IS...
AS SUCH A STRONG WILLED PERSON...ON A MISSION... AND REFUSED TO BACK
AWAY FROM DOING JUST THAT... DUE TO YEARS LIVING IN DARKNESS~
DON'T EVER DESIRE TO BECOME A STARY EYED DREAMER, AS SPENT YEARS
IN DARKNESS DOING JUST THAT...AND IN DARKNESS; REFUSED TO REMAIN.
ONE THING DO KNOW... IT'S NOT A GAME,
BUT MORE LIKE THE SONG "AMAZING GRACE."
IT'S LIKE... SELF BEING RESCUED, FROM A LIFE OF SIN AND SHAME.
OFTEN COMES TO MIND ANOTHER SONG..."O HAPPY DAY."
DOES ANY REMEMBER THE WORDS ?
O' TO FIND GRACE IN THE EYES OF GOD...AND TRUTH... THAT CAME BY
JESUS CHRIST...CAUSES THE HEART BEAT TO RACE IN KNOWING MORE
AND MORE; BECAUSE OF THE GRACE OUTPOURED, AS READ OF THE
ONES OF OLD ...AND KNOWING EVEN YET... IT IS BEING OUTPOURED ~
THE THEME SEEMS NOT DEAD...IT SEEMS TO BE LIVING ON YET...
"SHOW ME THY WAYS, THAT I MAY KNOW THEE"
I SAY THIS, VERY HUMBLING,AND DESPITE NOT THE CHASTENING APPLIED,
BECAUSE ... SO VERY, VERY MUCH HAS BEEN APPLIED , IN THE STRONG-WILLED
PERSON THAT IN YEARS OF DARKNESS LIVED AS ONE SO BLIND ,
TIL' ...REALIZED...THERE IS NO LIFE...WITHOUT THE TOUCH OF THE MASTER'S
HAND...RESTORING THE SIGHT OF THE EYES...
IT'S SUCH A BEAUTIFUL DAY...THAT US OL' FOLKS TOOK OFF...TO ENJOY !
WAITING WHEN WE GOT BACK WAS A HEAVY MESSAGE FROM DAVID WILKERSON,
AND ALSO ; ON THE RADIO, A HEAVY TEACHING BY ADRIAN ROGERS !
OPENED AOL, AND THERE WAS SUCH HEAVINESS ON THE WAR SCENE !
SOMEHOW ...CHANGES CAN COME SO INSTANTLY, AND CAUSE THE SOUL
TO REFOCUS UPON...HOW QUICKLY THINGS HAPPEN UNEXPECTANTLY !
SAID TO THE SOUL... THIS SEEMS AS A REPEAT INDEED...REMEMBER ALL THE
YEARS OF THE PAST ?
THRU OUT THE YEARS, WITH MUCH THAT HAS BEEN AS INSTANT AND
UNEXPECTED... THINK THAT IT WOULDN'T EFFECT SO DEEPLY, BUT IT DOES ~
IT WILL TAKE BACK TO TIMES THAT WOULD NOT HAD MADE IT THRU OUT IT ALL,
WITHOUT KNOWING, THAT THE LORD WOULD SEE YOU THRU !
NOW FACING WHAT IS HAPPENING;
IT'S ALMOST LIKE... TO SOME DEGREE THE DAILY NEWS IS SIMILIAR...
TO THE MESSAGES OF THE SPIRITUAL. ~BLOOD SHED AND WARNINGS,
AND A VOICE PLEADING , FOR MERCY !
D. WILKERSON'S MESSAGE... IN PART;
WHEN SOCIETY MOVES ON WITHOUT A SINGLE "GOD PAUSE"
WITHOUT EVEN A...THOUGHT... THAT GOD WILL NOT BE MOCKED...
"WE HAVE COME NEAR OR CROSSED OVER THE LINE INTO A SPIRITUAL STUPOR
THAT NO AMOUNT OF DIVINE MERCY CAN AWAKEN ."
THE SOUL SAYS THAT TRULY, THIS IS WHAT SEEMS TO BE SERIOUS INDEED,
AND MANY DON'T WANT TO FACE THE FACTS...AS PRESENTED BY SOME
OF THE ONES SPEAKING/TEACHING/ AND PREACHING SUCH !
YET, IT ALSO SEEMS THAT MANY ARE BEING DRAWN BACK TO THE LORD
MORE IN TIMES, SUCH AS THESE...AND DOES ANY WONDER...WHY IS THAT ?
MAY NOT ONLY THE LORD'S MEN-DISCIPLES GO FORTH WITH THE MESSAGE,
BUT MAY THE COMMON FOLKS TOO, BE USED FOR HIS GLORY ...
'specially ones that have AWAKEN unto their given part to do...also...
YEARS AGO, THOUGHT DAVID WILKERSON WAS A HARD MAN...
BUT AS WITNESSED HIS FAITHFULNESS UNTO THE LORD; CHANGED THE MINDSET.
IT'S NOT OF LACK OF TALENT, OR OF GREAT TALENT...IT'S FAITHFULNESS ~
ONE IN THE FAMILY SAID THAT WENT TO VISIT ANOTHER CHURCH, WHERE ALOT
OF FRIENDS WENT, DUE TO A SITUATION, AT WHERE THE ONE YET DOES ATTEND.
THE COMMENT MADE BY THE ONE UNTO US WAS;
THAT THE NEW PASTOR NOW SERVING... IN ANOTHER LOCATION,
JUST PREACHES THE WORD, NOT ADDING HIS OWN OPINIONS OR THOUGHTS,
AND KNEW THAT WE WOULD LIKE THAT.
IT TOOK ME BACK SOMEWHAT; WHEN THOUGHT UPON THAT ~
IN BETWEEN...THE USUAL DURING WINTER , AND THE USUAL BEING SICK,
BUT ON TOP OF THAT WAS A HEART THAT HAD SAT IN JUDGMENT, IN ANOTHER'S
LIFE; AND IT TOOK DAYS BEFORE JUST WILLINGLY CONFESSED !
THE MINDSET IS THE HARDEST TO DEAL WITH...WHEN IT'S CONCERNING
A COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP, UNTO GOD...ONE IN FAMILY; OR ANOTHER.
OFTEN IT'S TEMPTING TO RUN TO ANOTHER, IN ORDER TO BECOME CONFIRMED
THAT ARE RIGHT; BUT BEEN THERE; DONE THAT, AND THE SOUL SAID NOT THIS
TIME !
OFTEN, WE DIG OUR OWN GRAVE, WHEN THINK THAT WE ARE RIGHT...
AND NOT RELATE THE WHOLE PICTURE, WHEN SEEK ANOTHER FOR ADVICE,
AND THE OTHER DOESN'T KNOW WHAT ALL TOOK PLACE IN THE SITUATION
BEFORE SEEKING IT. ALL THEY HAVE IS YOUR WORDS; NOT THE OTHER'S
INVOLVED...BECAUSE THE OTHER WASN'T GIVEN A CHANCE TO EXPRESS THEIR
SIDE.
AS ONE THAT HAS ASKED FORGIVENESS OF SEVERAL, AND NEVER RECEIVED
A CONFIRMATION OF SUCH...IT IS HARD, WHEN OTHERS DON'T REPLY, BUT
ACT AS A JUDGE.
THIS ALONE, DROVE THE SOUL UNTO THE GOD OF FAITHFULNESS...
AND AROSE IN DETERMINATION...TO ALWAYS GO ONLY TO HIM...
AS HE WILL SHOW THE HEART...OF THE MOST HIDDEN OFFENSE...
AND IT NEVER CHANGES...THE NEED TO...REPENT...
AS REFLECT UPON WHAT SENT OUT YESTERDAY, OF THE MAN THAT JUST
PREACHES THE WORD;
WHAT IS THERE THAT WE HAVE RECEIVED, IF NOT BY THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD...
WHY DOES THE SPIRIT DESIRE ABOVE ALL THINGS, TO JUST PLEASE THE LORD ?
WHERE LIES ANY'S POWER, TO DO... WITHOUT THE POWER RECEIVED...
THE ONE SAME SPIRIT...GIVEN GIFT, OR; OF GIFTS RECEIVED...GIVEN TO MANY,
AS HE SO PLEASES ~
THE SEARCHING OUT OF THE MEANING OF CHARITY, IS NOT TO BE KEPT AS IF
A SECRET...AS IT TOO IS RECEIVED; IN ORDER OF BUILDING UP, OF MANY,
IN UNDERSTANDING.
TEACHING IS VITAL...AND GROWTH IS TOO...THAT PROFITS ALL ~
O' WHAT IS FAITH...THAT DESIRES ONLY TO OBEY...IN ALL THINGS ?
ASKED THE SOUL THIS QUESTION, AS STOOD OUTSIDE ON THE PORCH
EVEN BEFORE THE DAWN, OF THIS GIVEN NEW DAY ~
WHAT HAVE I RECEIVED...THAT HAS NOT BEEN GIVEN, BY MERCY AND GRACE ?
WHY SO LOW IN THE SPIRIT DO BECOME; IF OF SUCH A LOVE, BELITTLE IN WORDS,
OR DEEDS...BECAUSE OF ALL THAT HAVE "RECEIVED."
LOOKED UP TOWARD WHERE DARKNESS YET COVERED , AS A BLANKET BEFORE
THE EYES, NOT PERMITTING THE EYES TO SEE BEYOND...
YET TRUSTED IN IT BEING REMOVED...ONCE THE BREAK OF DAWN !
NO RADIO THIS MORNING...SAID TO THE SOUL...
BUT OPENED THE BIBLE, RECEIVING INSTRUCTIONS, GIVEN BY APOSTLE PAUL ~
[1 Corinthians: ch. 12 ...and following chapters, also reviewed once more. ]
WHAT KEEPS ANY GOIN' ON, IN THIS LIFE...DAY IN AND DAY OUT ?
AS THE LAST GENERATION THAT DEMENTIA IS SUPPOSE TO ATTACK,
CAN SAY THAT MANY DAYS, HAVE TO CRY OUT FOR A STEAD FAST MIND !
TOLD SOME OF THE KIDS, THAT AM SO THANKFUL THAT I'M THE LAST OF
THE FOURTH GENERATION...AS IT'S A PROVEN FACT THAT THE DESTROYER DIES...
AND THE 5TH GENERATION WILL NOT HAVE TO DEAL WITH THAT.
AM FULLY AWARE OF THE HEALING POWER OF THE GOD ALMIGHTY,
YET OFTEN IT SEEMS THAT MANY DESIRE DELIVERANCE FROM ALOT OF THINGS
MORE SO THAN THE CLEANSING,HEALING POWER OF THE SOUL .
IT HAS MADE AN INPACT UPON THE PRAYERS THAT LIFT TOWARD HEAVEN ALOT
DIFFERENT THAN WHAT MIGHT HAD BEEN, IN THE PAST.
WHAT CAUSES YOUR PRAYERS OFFERED UP ...TO BECOME DIFFERENT ?
IT'S THE FOLLOWING GENERATIONS, THAT WILL BE LEFT CARRYING ON OF
THE "GOSPEL," OF "HOPE"...OF LIFE THAT WILL BE CLEANSED , AND SET FREE
FROM THE DESTROYER'S STRONG HOLD ~
LIFE IS IN THE BLOOD,SPOKEN IN THE BIBLE; IN THE OLD...
AND IT IS YET TRUE, AND WILL NEVER CEASE TO BE SO ~
WAS SENT A VIDEO, FROM A CERTAIN MINISTRY, THAT PROVED OF WHAT WAS
DONE WITH THE DONATION HAD SENT !
O' FORGOT TO MENTION IT WAS TITLED A "THANK YOU VIDEO! "
IN LIFE, SOMETIMES DO WISH THAT HEAVEN WAS INTO VIDEOS,
YET WHEN THINK UPON IT...IT REALLY IS !
IT HAS SHOWN THE WAY IN ORDER OF HOW TO LIVE !
IT MAKES VERY CLEAR, OF WHAT HE DESIRES...ABOVE ALL THINGS,
DESCRIBES HIMSELF; IN GIVEN WORDS, TITLES, THAT IN THEIR SELF DO EXPLAIN
THAT FITS INTO ANY AND EVERY SITUATION, ONE MIGHT AT THE TIME...BE IN ~
" HE IS THE GOD, THAT WAS BEFORE ALL THINGS...ABOVE ALL THINGS. "
IT IS HE...THAT DOES ALL ; THAT CAUSES WORSHIP, IN THE HEART,AND OF
GIVING THANKS !
AS SIT HERE, ONE ON THE RADIO IS NOW SPEAKING OF TITLES, AND I SMILED,
SOMEONE HAVE NEVER MET IN PERSON...YET COMPARED TO ME, AS A CHILD,
SPEAKING OF THE VERY SAME GOD, THAT IS OF UNLIMITED POWER ~
THERE ARE SO MANY OF PEOPLE, THAT UNITE IN THE SPIRIT, WORLD WIDE,
AND SO EXCITED BECOME...IN KNOWING THE LOVE OF JESUS CHRIST...
THAT DOES TRULY UNITE ~
HAVE LEARNED THRU OUT ALL THE YEARS, THAT BELIEVING ...YET NOT FULLY
UNDERSTANDING... WHICH...HE KNEW EVEN BEFORE THE BEGINNING...
AND THRU ALL THAT WAS PERMITTED...WOULD DRAW THE HEART INTO A DEEPER
RELATIONSHIP OF INTIMACY...WITH THE CREATOR ALMIGHTY ~
SO TRUE... IS THE... FACT OF HIS POWER UNLIMITED...
HAVE A NEW WOMAN FRIEND THAT HAS ENTERED INTO THIS LIFE;
DUE TO ANOTHER FRIEND OF MINE, THAT HAS KNOWN HER FOR A LONG TIME.
ALSO; HAVE REDISCOVERED ANOTHER BOOK, THAT WAS LONG LAID ASIDE .
LAST NITE WAS WITH COUNTRY FOLKS, AND WAS AS FREE AS A CAGED BIRD,
AND TODAY...AM LIKE HAVIN' A HANGOVER...'CAUSE THERE AWAITS THE CAGE'S
OPENED DOOR.
IT SO OFTEN SEEMS HARD TO JUST BE WHO YOU ARE ~
O' CAN THE HEART SPEAK, OF SOMETHING PERSONAL;
IT IS OFTEN A DESIRE; FOR ANY THAT EVER HUNGER TO JUST SPEND THE DAY
AWAY, IN WORSHIP ~ WHICH SECRETLY, MORE THAN NOT...DO PREFER ...
YET KNOW THE VALUE OF LABORING AND WORKS TOO, AND CAN'T PUT ASIDE
EITHER...ONCE ARE ONES OF A REBIRTH ~
THE TIME IN WORSHIP SEEMS NO MORE...ONCE WALK OUTSIDE ONE'S DOOR
AND IT'S SO EASY TO GET SIDE TRACKED BY IT ALL...ONCE SHUT THE DOOR,
AND ENTER OUT INTO THE WAITING WORLD.
EARNESTLY ... STRIVING ON, IN WORSHIPING THE LORD, AS DRIVING...
AS IT HELPS TO GET WHERE THE AIM IS ...OF ARRIVING.
DESIRE HIS PRESENCE, NOT JUST FOR A CERTAIN TIME...BUT CONTINUALLY,
BECAUSE OF THE ENDLESS DISTTRACTIONS, ALONG THE JOURNEY.
THE ONE THING ABOVE ALL...IS EVER BEING AWARE OF HIS BEING "HOLY"
AND OF HOW WHEN FALL SHORT...COMES SINCERE HEART-REPENTANCE !
IT IS SUCH A PERSONAL THING...YET REALLY NOT...
IT'S FOR ALL THAT HUNGER TO ALWAYS BE PLEASING UNTO THY FATHER GOD ~
WELL, BACK TO THE OPEN DOOR OF THE CAGE...THAT IS WHAT REMINDS THE SOUL...OF WHAT AWAITS...ONCE BECOMES THE HEART INDIFFERENT AND COLD,
AND REMINDS OF THE CONTINUING ON IN WORSHIP OF THE LORD...
WHETHER IN THE CAR...OR IN THE HOME...
AND FOR SURE...EVER IN THE FOREFRONT OF ONE'S THOUGHTS...
[yesterday]
HAVE YOU EVER RECEIVED WORDS FROM ANOTHER, EXPRESSING THE LOVE
OF THEIR HEARTS ? RECEIVED ONE FROM MY BROTHER, NOT ONLY FOR OUR
MOTHER, NO LONGER WITH US; BUT TOWARD ME AS WELL.
"BOTH BEING STRONG IN BOND- AND THAT I WOULD NEVER STOP LOVING YOU
THRU ALL ETERNITY ~ "
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[some of reply sent]
HATE AND BITTERNESS ONLY DESTROYS; LOVE GROWS...
LIKE THE SWEET SMELL OF A BLOOMING ROSE ~
IT'S NOT A POT OF GOLD, AT THE END OF A RAINBOW...
BUT AS LIKE SPRING RAINS; BRINGING FORTH LIFE TO A ROSE ~
OFTEN THE IMAGE OF TEARS; THAT OVERFLOW,
AS DO THE TEARS,FOR ONE, THAT IS NOW GONE...
THE WISH OF BEING ABLE TO EMBRACE ONCE MORE...
CAUSES STRONG HOPE, OF IT SOMEDAY...BEING SO ~
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O' THE IMAGES OF LOVE...IN THE MIND AND THE VERY SOUL,
REMAINS "STORED" ...AND CAUSES ONE TO STEAL AWAY UNTO THY LORD ~
WHEN THERE IS A SITUATION AT HAND...AND JUST DON'T HAVE CONTROL
IN FIXING IT...ASK FOR HIS WISDOM, BEFORE REACHING FOR THE PHONE,
TO MAKE A CALL TO ANOTHER...BECAUSE OF THE FIRE THAT WANTS TO
JUST DESTROY WITH WORDS...AND ASKING FOR HIS STRONG HOLD,
OF NOT DOING SO !
IF ANYONE THINKS THAT IT'S AN EASY THING TO DO...FOR SURE IT IS NOT,
IT'S A WAR FARE, A STRUGGLE...BEING ONE OF THE LORD SO DIVINE ~
TOO OFTEN...NO VICTORY COMES, IN A FIGHT, THAT IS OF A DETERMINDED
MIND...THAT JUST THINKS, IT'S THE ONLY ONE... RIGHT.
SO AM CONFESSING...THAT DURING THE CALL MADE...ASKED FOR THE MERCY
OF GOD, TO TOUCH AND MAKE REALIZE, THAT ONE NEEDED MERCY WHILE
AMONG THE LIVING. TO SEND SOMEONE THAT CAN DO WHAT IS NEEDED ,
DUE TO EARLIER COMMENT MADE OF THE OTHER, ABOUT HAVING MONEY
IN ORDER TO PROVIDE FOR ANOTHER, IN MAKING THE JOURNEY.
TO MIND CAME WORDS IN THE BIBLE THAT EXPRESSED ALOT OF THE SAME,
THE PROVISION FOR THE JOURNEY ~
O' IF ONLY ASK FOR WISDOM...IT WILL COME...AS WELL AS PEACE,
WHEN THE HEART IS SET ON GOD'S WILL BEING DONE...
AFTER MUCH TIME OF A MIND, SEEMING TO BE IN A FIERCE WHIRLWIND,
THE SOUL WAS ASSURED OF SOMETHING; PEACE AND BEING LOVED BY
THE ONE, THE ONLY ONE... THAT CALMS THE WIND ~
THE SOUL HAS SEEN MUCH THRU OUT THE YEARS, THAT MANY YET HAVEN'T
SEEN. IT IS STORED UP IN THE MEMORY !
OF COURSE, THIS MORNING WAS THE NEWS OF WARS AND MEN, SOME WOMEN
TOO...AND THEIR PLEAS...ONCE BACK FROM THE WAR SCENE.
WHAT PAIN THERE HAS BEEN SINCE VIETNAM, AND CONTINUING ON IN THIS TIME
ALSO ! THE LONG TERM NAME; POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER ~
I REMEMBER ALL THAT TOOK PLACE BACK THEN IN TROUBLED FAMILY
SITUATIONS...AND NOW IT ALL COMES BACK, AS WATCH THE REPEAT ~
SOMEHOW...THE ONLY WORDS THAT CAN EXPLAIN THE PAIN IS...FORGETTING
ALL OF WHAT HAPPENED, AND GETTING ON WITH THE NORM ? OF LIVING ~
HAVE LEARNED THAT PAIN...IS ALWAYS PRESENT IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER,
AND THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A NEED OF HEALING !
SO MANY ARE LIVING IN A HOME, BUT SEEM AS IF TRULY ARE YET HOMELESS,
EITHER IN THE HEART, SOUL, MENTALLY...OR SPIRITUALLY ~
SEEMS THAT NONE REALLY HAVE AN ANSWER, OR A SOLUTION TO IT ALL,
AS WITH MANY OF ONES,HAVE TALKED WITH, WHILE ON THIS JOURNEY.
THEY EXPERIENCED... WHAT I HAD NEVER REALLY BEEN THRU...
YET DUE TO SPIRITUAL WARS THAT HAVE BEEN THRU...SOMEWHAT COULD
UNDERSTAND ~
FOR YEARS , HAVE POURED OUT MANY OF A POEM...LISTENED TO MANY OF
TEACHINGS...SOME RIGHT-ON...SOME WRONG...AND, OFTEN EVEN WORDS IN
SENT POEMS...
YET...COMES A TIME, THAT SOMETHINGS MUST CEASE, AND BE NO MORE !
ALL I HAVE TO OFFER IS MEMORIES, PEOPLE, PAIN, AND THE LOVE OF THE LORD,
AND IF IT TOUCHED ANY HEART...DO REJOICE...YET; NEVER WILL THIS HEART
CEASE IN SUFFERING PAIN...WHILE WATCH OTHERS IN SOME KIND OF WAR...
AS ALL LIVES... ARE SO PRECIOUS IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD ~
YET PEACE, HE OFFERS AND CAN BE RECEIVED...THIS DO KNOW...FOR SURE,
AND WILL GIVE STRENGTH...TO ENDURE...TIL' HIS COMING...
SUCH GOOD NEWS HAS REACHED THESE EARS, OTHERS
OF THE YOUNGER ARE BEING CALLED OUT, AND GIVEN A TASK,
AND CELEBRATE...AS WATCH GOD'S PERFORMED ACTS ~
THO' SEEMS A PERIOD[.] OF LIFE AS ONCE WAS, CAN TAKE COMFORT IN WATCHING THE YOUNGER CALLED OUT ONES ,
CONTINUING ON IN WHAT SEEMS MAPPED OUT AHEAD OF
TIME AS WE KNOW...FOR THE GOSPEL OF THE RISEN BELOVED ~
O' SOMETIME IN THE PAST...CAME WITHIN, THE DAY OF HEARTS
AND FLOWERS,CANDY, RINGS, JEWELS AND SUCH.
A DAY SAT ASIDE , IN ORDER TO SHOW ANOTHER LOVE !
SO MANY NOTES HID, AND SAT ASIDE, AND MANY HAVE BEEN
THROWN AWAY...YET ONE THAT REDISCOVERED SEEMED IN A
TIME OF GREAT CAPTIVITY :
FATHER GOD...WHAT A LIFE HAS BEEN MINE ~
YEARS OF ENDLESS EXRESSIONS SO PENNED...
BECAUSE UPON YOUR VERY HEART TO WIN...WAS SO BENT.
EACH STEP OF THE WAY...BRIDGES TO CROSS,
FOREST OF TREES... CITIES, WHERE STRANGERS WOULD MEET;
ALL MAPPED OUT, AS IF BY THE ONE OF ETERNITY ~
NONE OTHER BUT YOU, CAN DO WHAT YOU HAVE DONE,
YOU HAVE DRAWN THE SOUL UNDER THE WING AS WOULD
ONE OF YOUR BELOVED ~
O' WHAT CAN A HEAP OF CLAY REALLY DO OR UNDO...
WHEN BY THY MIGHTY HANDS , YOU SO SHAPE ?
WHO OTHER THAN YOU CAN SET A FIRE IN THE HEART...
AS YOU HAVE CREATED FOR YOUR PLEASURE..
ALL COMES ALIVE... ALL THINGS ~
IT WAS YOUR BREATH BLOWN...ALL COMES ALIVE ...
WITHOUT...NOTHING COULD EVEN SURVIVE ~
WHERE EVER YOU ARE...IN YOUR PRESENCE , I DESIRE ~
IT WAS ANOTHER TIME JUST A YEAR AGO, EXPRESSED OF
A WINTER SO CRUEL AND COLD...
SO FAR FROM HOME AND THE HEART'S GROANS...
NO REFRESHING WATER STREAMS NO SHADE OF THE TREES ,
NO HIDING UNDER THY WINGS.
O' BUT TO LIVE...IS CHRIST...
AND, IT IS YET TRUE, EVEN THO NO LONGER, AM AS ONE IN
CAPTIVITY...
HOW LONG, BEFORE YOUR RETURN...O' THE HEART SO YEARNS ~
used the phone recently, to call upon prayer warriors...to pray for another,
due to a heart love...for and of another, as needed many voices to join in...
WHEN WE HAVE READ IT ALL...WHEN HAVE LEARNED MUCH...
IT REMAINS LACKING SOMEWHAT...IF NOT IN THE WAR, OF THE TIME SPENT
IN THE PRESENCE OF THE ONE, THAT EMPOWERS ! THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD ~
WHAT A BATTLE IT IS...RATHER FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME, OR JUST ONE HOUR,
IN THE PRESENCE OF THE MIGHTY LORD.
NO, AREN'T AT A BUSH AFLAMED...OR AT BOTTOM OF A LADDER, AS ONE WAS,
OR IN A FURANCE...OR SITTING, COVERED WITH SORES...
YET, SOMEHOW...IT IS ALIKE...WHEN IN PRAYER, AS IF IN A WAR ~
O' THE POWER LIES WITHIN THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD TO GIVE LIFE TO THE WORD,
AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE A MUST...TO DEPEND UPON HIS GIVING ; IN ORDER
TO FIGHT A GOOD FIGHT...WHILE YET IN MIDST OF THIS WORLD ~
AS LIFE IS IN THE BLOOD...SO IS THE WORD, A STRONG SWORD ~
APOSTLE PAUL...WAS AND WILL REMAIN THE EXAMPLE FOR ALL IN THE LORD ~
NEVER THOUGHT OF SOMETHING, TIL' HEARD A COMMENT MADE BY ANOTHER...
OF HOW; EDUCATED WAS HE[PAUL]...BUT O' HIS WORDS WERE NOT AS WOULD
MAYBE MIGHT THINK... OUGHT TO BE,OUT OF ONE SUCH AS HE...
SO; WHAT IS IT THAT GAVE OR GIVES LIFE...UNTO ANY ...WHEN HIS WORDS
OTHERS DID, AND PRESENTLY NOW...DO RECEIVE ?
THERE IS A BOTTOM LINE TO WHAT AM TRYING TO SAY HERE...
IT SEEMS THAT DISTRACTIONS OF ALL KIND, TRY TO DISTRACT,
IN TIME OF PRAYERS, THAT ARE A DIRE MUST, MORE SO THAN EVER BEFORE...
AS IT SEEMS AS IF IN A WAR, FINDING TIME TO JUST DRAW CLOSE UNTO THE LORD,
AND WITH ALL ELSE...KEEP OUT...ON THE OUTSIDE OF THE HEART'S DOOR ...
am not depressed...am deeply concerned...as live and watch all occur...
GOT A NEAT RADIO AT THE GOODWILL STORE FOR 5 DOLLARS,
WAS CHECKING THRU STATIONS, AND 2 LOCAL ONES WAS TEACHING
ON HISTORY...AS IF THE MINDS WERE SO SET, IN UNITY ~
O' THAT DREADFUL ENEMY OF THE MIND, SPIRIT AND SOUL OF MENKIND...
HOW PRIDE CAN DECEIVE...AND THIS IS NOT ANYTHING NEW,IS IT ?
FOR YEARS, FOUND GREAT TREASURES OF OLD BOOKS,
AND OFTEN GAVE TO OTHERS, ALONG THIS JOURNEY OF FAITH...
SOME FOLLOWED THRU...SOME JUST CARED LESS...
AND IT CAUSES THE HEART PAIN...
YET WE DO LIVE IN A COUNTRY...WHERE THE GLORY HAS FADED AWAY,
FROM WHAT WAS... IN THE LONG AGO YESTERDAYS ~
ASK ANY FAMILY THAT HAS A FAMILY, OF WHAT CAUSES THEIR SOUL TO
SORROW...AND MORE THAN NOT, THE ANSWER WILL MOST LIKELY BE THE SAME~
TO KNOW THE POWER OF THE GOD...CAUSES GREAT CHANGE...BUT PRIDE
CAUSES MANY OF A HEART ACHE ~
SO...WE ARE AWARE OF WHAT THE WORD SAYS...AND THO' OFTEN SEEMS
THAT THE ENEMY FROM THE GARDEN UP TO NOW, IS WINNING OUT...
IN FAITH... PRAY TO THE LORD OF MANY CROWNS !
IF THINK THAT JUST A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF FAMILIES ARE BEING ATTACKED...
AND OTHERS AREN'T YET...AS TIME COMES TOWARD THE END, THINK AGAIN ~
BE FAITHFUL, IN BEING AWARE, OF THE ENDLESS OBVIOUS FACT OF THE
BEGINNING OF SORROWS...THE GIVEN WARNING OF WHAT TO EXPECT ~
REMAIN FAITHFUL IN THE HOLY TEXT ...AND PRAYERS LIFTED UP ...
UPON EACH FAMILY'S BEHALF ~
HAVE REALIZED THAT IT ISN'T ME AND YOU ANYMORE...BUT THE OFFSPRINGS
THAT ARE THE SUBJECT, IN THE EYES OF THE EVIL ONE, DETERMINDED TO
DESTROY...AS HE IS THE ENEMY THAT "WANTS' TO HAVE FULL CONTROL"
BECAUSE... HE IS A BLOOD THIRSTY FOE , THAT WARS OVER THE
BLOOD COVERED SOULS !
FROM THE BEGINNING... THE BELOVED ISRAEL...
UP TO THE TIME OF THE BROUGHT IN GENTILES...
NEVER HAS CEASED THE TIMES OF WARS...OR THE BLOOD SHED...
AND IT CAN'T BE IGNORED ***
YEARS BACK...IN V.B.S....TAUGHT THE LESSONS ON THE HEROES OF THE BIBLE,
TO A LARGE CLASS OF BOYS AND GIRLS.
AS ANY MAY WATCH OR READ OF WHAT ALOT CONSIDER HEROES IN ONE WAY
OR ANOTHER DURING THIS TIME...SEEMS TO OFTEN HAVE A VERY SAD ENDING.
WHEN THE FOCUS BECOMES ONE OF LOOKING TOWARD A PERSON, AND THINK
THAT THEY WILL NEVER FAIL YOUR EXPECTIONS...IN TIME... THEY WILL ~
[HERO ]
AS DEEPLY LOOK INTO THE LIFE OF APOSTLE PAUL, OUR GREAT EXAMPLE...
MUST REMEMBER WHAT HE "LEARNED"...AND " ENDURED."
IT IS EASIER TO READ, AND NOT SO EASY TO LIVE OUT...MUST CONFESS...
AS WHO OF US, WAS STRICKEN DOWN, AS HE...ON THE ROAD TO DAMASCUS ?
WHO OF US GET THE CHANCE TO GO AWAY FOR A PERIOD OF TIME,
SITTING AT THE FEET OF ANOTHER...BEFORE RETURNING TO OTHERS...
THAT ARE FILLED WITH DISTRUST ?
AND...FOR JESUS' NAMESAKE... WHAT HE MUST SUFFER ?
O' AS GENTILES...BROUGHT INTO THE FOLD...GOD'S PLAN MADE KNOWN,
WHAT HAS TO EACH OF US.... BEEN SHOWN ?
O' THE PURIFYING OF THE HEARTS...BY FAITH...WE DO GROW ~
HOW OFTEN DOES THE SPIRIT WITHIN, DEEPLY GROAN, WHEN KNOW THAT
HAVE GRIEVED THE PRECIOUS HOLY GHOST ?
ONLY SAY THAT, BECAUSE HE IS THE ONE THAT PRICKS THE DEPTHS OF ONE'S
SOUL...SO SHARP IT IS...TIL' CAN'T STAND IT NO MORE, OF HIDDEN WRONGS ~
CAN ANY TRULY HIDE FROM THE GOD, THAT KNOWS ALL, EVEN BEFORE THE BEGINNING OF THE WORLD ...AS MEDITATE IN THE WORDS OF THE BIBLE ?
O' HE THAT DWELLETH IN THE SECRET PLACE OF THE MOST HIGH..
SHALL WE ABIDE...UNDER THE SHADOW OF THE ALMIGHTY, AND LIFT UP OUR
EYES UP BEYOND THE CLOUDS IN THE SKY...AND SAY ...
YOU ARE MY REFUGE, MY FORTRESS; MY GOD IN WHOM I TRUST ~
IT'S IN THY SILENCE, THAT SHAKES THE SOUL...MUST CONFESS...
CAN'T SEEM TO HEAR THAT STILL QUIET VOICE, THAT HAVE BECOME TO KNOW...
AND RUN INTO THE SECRET PLACE;HIDDING FROM ALL THE SURROUNDING NOISE !
THINK NOT THAT WORKERS OF INQUITY, ARE ONLY A FEW...THERE ARE MANY...
BUT CAN FIND SAFETY....AS KNEEL BEFORE THE LORD...OUR MAKER !
FOR HE IS OUR GOD...AND AS GENTILES...WE TOO...ARE HIS PEOPLE ~
IN THE SECRET OF ONE'S SOUL...DOES ANY CRY OUT...HOW LONG O' LORD,
HOW LONG...WILL BE THE WORKERS OF EVIL...
AND ALMOST FORGET...TIL' RISES IN THE MIND...THE LIFE OF APOSTLE PAUL...
AND HIS EXAMPLE...UNTO EACH AND ALL ~
[Eph.5:1-21]
prayed about sending an ol' book to another... determinded to mail out...did so,then came back home...and closed out the world, for a while.
TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED...AND YESTERDAY IS GONE...
IT IS THIS DAY... ALONE ~
THE SOUL SAID, WILL SHUT THE DOOR, AND REMOVE THE HANDLE OF THE PHONE,
AND MEET WITH THE SAVIOUR OF THE SOUL ~
WHEN IT SEEMS ARE IN MIDST OF A FOREST OF TREES, SO CLOSE TOGETHER,
THAT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR THE SUN'S LIGHT TO FILTER THRU,
IS WHEN MUST DEPEND UPON THE WORN PATH LEFT THAT MANY TRAVELED
ON....BEFORE YOU ~
THE SOUL SEEMS SO LITTLE COMPARED TO ONES LISTED IN THE HOLY BOOK,
AND ONES THAT DID AND YET DO ...GO SO FAR FROM HOME...
TO MINISTER TO OTHERS IN WAR ZONES...
OFTEN, MAY SAY TO THE LORD...O' LORD, MY LOSSES DO SEEM SO SMALL. ~
YET, ISN'T IT TRUE.. HE CAN ALSO USE THE SMALL THINGS AS A STONE,
OR A HAND, REACHING OUT TO ANOTHER; A SMILE; A WARM GREETING OF HELLO, TO LIFT ANOTHER'S SPIRIT... THIS DAY,
AS NONE REALLY KNOW NOT IF WILL BE HERE TOMORROW... TO DO SO ~
IT CAN BE A MESSAGE OF HOPE, SENT BY ANOTHER, THIS DAY...
OR; REMINDING ONE'S SOUL ~UNTO WHOM THEIR HEART REALLY BELONGS TO,
THE WAYS ARE MANY...IN WHICH HE USES HIS PEOPLE, TO DO HIS BIDDING ~
THE WAY OF THE CROSS LEADS THE WANDERER BACK HOME...
AND WELCOMES THE ONES THAT HAVE LAID DOWN THEIR LIVES IN WAR ZONES,
AND SOMEDAY...ALL WILL GATHER TOGETHER AROUND HIS HOLY THRONE,
WHICH ALSO REMINDS...NOT TO PUT OFF TIL' TOMORROW...
WHAT ARE COMMISSIONED TO DO THIS DAY...FOR AND UNTO THE LORD ~
HAVE THIS RADIO, AND AT NITE, TAKE AND LEAVE IT ON A STATION, IN ORDER
FOR THE WORD SPOKEN BY MEN OF GOD, TO FILTER THRU THE EARS TIL' AWAKE.
THE WORLD IS IN SUCH VAST INSTANT CHANGES, THAT EVEN THE WISEST CAN'T
KEEP UP WITH ALL OF IT...BUT THE WORD EVER REMAINS THE SAME !
IF NOT FOR THAT REASON ALONE...WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO SURVIVE ALL THAT
IS GOING ON !
MANY ARE DEPENDING UPON EVERYTHING ELSE ; WHICH IS OF NO HELP,
AND AS WATCH ALL TRIES,THAT FAIL...
MAY MANY AWAKE UNTO THEIR BEING HELPLESSLY FRAIL .
SPEAK THIS ONLY AS ONE THAT HAD TO AWAKE UNTO THE REALNESS OF SELF~
CAN ANY DENY THE FIGHTING...BEFORE SURRENDERING UNTO GOD'S WILL ?
O' THE POTTER THAT IS A SPIRIT THAT NONE CAN SEE FULLY, OR TO TOUCH,
SPINS THE WHEEL, BY INVISIBLE HANDS; TIL' FINISHED, IN WHAT PLEASES HIM ~
HIS SPIRIT ABIDES ...AND IS IN THE MIDST...IN TIMES OF GREAT TROUBLES,
AS HE IS ONE, INVINCIBLE ~ HE IS THE POWER, THE FORCE, AGAINST THE FOES~
O' IF NOT FOR BEING MOLDED, AND MADE ANEW...
HOW COULD UNDERSTAND HIS WORK OF MERCY AND COMPASSION,
AND OF BEING FASHIONED IN LOVE, AND IN TRUTH ?
OF LONG AGO, PEOPLE WOULD GATHER EARLY IN THE MORNING TO JESUS IN THE
TEMPLE, FOR TO HEAR HIM...
WE ARISE EARLY IN THE MORNING TOO...AS WE ARE SO AWARE OF NEEDING HIM,
THRU OUT THE DAY'S BEGINNING...UNTO THE DAY'S END.
WE CANNOT ESCAPE ALL THAT IS INSTANTLY CHANGING...
BUT CAN DRAW STRENGTH FOR THE DAY...AS PRAYING ~
ALL HAVE A FAVORITE SONG OF THE HEART...AND MINE IS ONE THAT HELPS
TO MAKE STRONG..."HOLY SPIRIT, YOU ARE WELCOMED IN THIS PLACE"...
AS I CAN'T MAKE IT ...WITHOUT YOU , DURING ALL THAT TAKES PLACE DURING
EACH NEW ARISING DAY ...
DOES THE SOUL GET SO FILLED AND OVERFLOWS WITH ALL , THAT CAN'T
REMAIN STILL...AS IF DID...WOULD SURLY DIE .
HAS ANYONE SAID THAT IT SEEMS THAT MUST BE BRUISED, BROKEN,
AND MAYBE A HEART THAT BLEEDS...BEFORE COMES ANY GIVEN MINISTRY ?
THO' ASK GOD FOR A HEDGE AROUND US...DOES IT OFTEN SEEM THAT
WE BUILD OUR OWN HEDGE, TO KEEP HIM AT A FAR DISTANCE ?
WHY ARE MERCIES EVER BEING POURED OUT AND WARMING A COLD HEART...
WHY SHELTER PROVIDED...DURING MANY FIERCE STORMS...
WHY OFTEN ; THORNS SEEMS TO BE...MORE THAN PASTURES OF GREEN ?
WHY DARK CLOUDS...MORE THAN THE SUN SHINING BRIGHTLY ?
WHY SO MUCH DISCIPINE...IT SEEMS TO TAKE, TO MAKE WHAT WAS MEANT TO BE ?
HAS THERE EVER CAME A TIME...
THAT YOU CRIED OUT...IS THERE NO MORE MERCY... LEFT FOR ME ?
O' WHY CAN'T ONE SEE, THAT HE IS SAVING YOU FROM THE PIT OF NO RETURN,
AND TEACHING YOU OF WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A COMFORTER, BY ALL THAT
ONE MAY ENDURE .
IT ALSO TEACHES, THAT CAN RUN TO THE MASTER AND SAVIOUR
THAT COMFORTS ...AS HE IS THE FOREVER CARING SHEPHERD...
THAT UNDERSTANDS, AND DRAWS EVER SO CLOSE, AS YOU ENDURE ~
DID HE NOT GO "BEFORE US," PREPARING TO LATER RECEIVE US,
OF WHERE HE IS...WE WILL JOIN HIM...AND ABIDE WITH HIM...FOREVER ~
WHILE WE YET REMAIN HERE...HE CAN STILL CALM THE WAVES OF FIERCE STORMS ~
AND HE ALREADY KNOWS ALL ABOUT OUR TOMORROWS...
AS WELL AS SHADOWS DARK, THAT MIGHT SURROUND, AND CAUSE ALARM...
AND HE FAITHFULLY ASSURES THE HEART...WE ARE NEVER LEFT ALONE ~
HE IS LIKE OUR SONG IN THE NITE...
REMAINS CLOSE BY...TIL' THE SUN DOES ARISE...
ANOTHER DAY ARRIVES...AND WE DIDN'T YET DIE...
... WHY ?
ONE THING ABOUT EMAIL,IS THE QUICKNESS OF SENDING OR RECEIVING...
DON'T YOU WISH THAT ANSWERS TO PRAYERS CAME AS QUICKLY ~
YOU KNOW WHERE THE LORD DWELLS, AND YET OFTEN IT SEEMS THAT HE
ISN'T ANSWERING AS HAD HOPED .
DO YOU HAVE FRIENDS, WHERE BY THEIR PRAYER LIFE IS SO FOCUSED IN UPON
WHAT THE LORD CAN DO...
AND MAYBE YOU PRAY TOO...BUT IT SEEMS THAT YOUR PUT ON HOLD ?
SOMEONE SENT ME A BOOKLET..."CHRIST OF EVERY CRISIS"...AND I THANK
WHOEVER DID SEND IT ! THEY EVEN PAID THE PRICE AND MAILING OF IT~
MORE OFTEN THAN NOT...AM JUST THANKFUL FOR ARISING TO A NEW DAY,
AND HONESTLY...KNOW NOT WHAT IT WILL BRING FORTH...BUT IT ISN'T LONG
BEFORE THE PHONE RINGS OR A KNOCK AT THE DOOR ~
WATCH ALL THE YOUNGER PEOPLE HEADING OFF TO WORK, OR KIDS TO SCHOOL,
AND EVEN PAUL JUMPING INTO GETTING A LESSON READY TO TEACH OTHERS
ALL THE EVER CHANGING ; OF ELECTRICAL PRINCIPLES...
WHILE I'M STILL LEARNING OF THE FATHER'S PRINCIPLES !
THINK THAT I'D HAVE IT ALL TOGETHER BY NOW... YES...
BUT HONESTLY...EVER DEPEND UPON PRAYERS SAID...BY FAMILY AND FRIENDS,
WHICH DOES HELP CARRY ME THRU, UP TO THE DAY'S END !
ONE THING THAT HAVE LEARNED...NONE CAN GO IT ALONE ~
IT WAS A REMARK THAT WAS MADE , OF MY BECOMING A HERMIT, THAT MADE
THE BELL GO OFF LIKE A FIRE SIREN...IN THE SOUL !
WE WILL NEED PEOPLE...AS LONG AS WE LIVE...AS WELL AS FRIENDSHIPS !
[ WHY DO SAY THIS ?]
THO' PETER PRAYED WHILE IN PRISON...OTHERS GATHERED IN A HOME...
WHICH IS EVIDENCE LEFT TO READ IN THE BIBLE.
HOW OFTEN DOES IT SEEM THAT WE HAD TO BE LED OUT OF SOMETHING, OR
SOME PLACE THAT HOLDS CAPTIVE ?
ONE THING HAVE LEARNED...PRAYER WARRIORS ARE A MUST...
AS WELL AS MENTORS...FOR EACH OF US !
THEY ARE THE ONES THAT CAN SEE PASS WHAT YOU MAY BE UNABLE TO SEE ~
ALL IS TEMPORARY HERE...COMPARED TO ETERNITY...
AND THERE'S NOTHING SWEETER, OR MORE COMFORTING...
THAN KNOWING THAT THERE ARE OTHERS PRAYING FOR YOU, OR FOR ME ~
THE OTHER DAY...AS MAYBE MANY OF YOU MIGHT HAVE HAD...DID REFLECT
UPON WHAT SEEMED AS A MYSTERY, NOT BEING ABLE TO UNDERSTAND YEARS
BACK...
" THE GREAT DELIVERANCE OUT OF...BY THE WORKS OF THE LORD'S HANDS,
THAT PRESERVED THE SOULS; UP TO THE PRESENT TIME, WHERE ARE NOW AT."
TYPED TO MY MENTOR A PERSONAL MESSAGE...WHILE IT SEEMED AS IF
MY SOUL WAS AS A STRANGER, UNTO MY CREATOR !
BUT AS TYPED, IT DIDN'T END WITH THE SAME SOUL'S EXPRESSED WORDS ~
.[as reading this morning...the soul knew it was meant to be...to remind me.]
WHEN MY SOUL FAINTED WITHIN ME..."I REMEMBERED THE LORD"
" AND MY PRAYER CAME IN UNTO THEE, INTO THINE HOLY TEMPLE."
" I WILL SACRIFICE UNTO THEE WITH THE VOICE OF THANKSGIVING ~"
IN THIS LAND...IT IS HARD TO SEE...
WHERE MANY CANNOT DISCERN BETWEEN THEIR RIGHTHAND OR THEIR LEFT...
BUT' O' THE HEART WAS ONCE AGAIN; REMINDED OF JOHN 3:16...
AND ALSO...DOES THE LORD REALLY DESIRE ...OF NONE TO PERISH ?
WHEN SEARCH MY OWN SOUL, THE ANSWER COMES...DID HE NOT SPARE
ONE... SUCH AS ME ~
HAVE OVER TIME LEARNED; AND HAVE COME TO KNOW... THAT HE IS A
GRACIOUS GOD, AND MERCIFUL, SLOW TO ANGER, AND OF GREAT KINDNESS,
UNTO THE VERY LEST ~
IF NOT FOR ANOTHER'S LABORING IN THE GOSPEL, WHERE WOULD ANY OF US
NOW BE ?
IF NOT FOR THE HOLY GHOST, THAT THE FATHER SENT IN JESUS' NAME...
THAT WILL TEACH YOU ALL THINGS...AND BRING ALL THINGS TO ONE'S
"REMEMBRANCE," ALL THAT THE LORD JESUS SAID...
COULD ANY SURVIVE IN THESE TIMES...AT HAND ?
TRULY...CAN ANY SURVIVE...WITHOUT THE COMFORTER THAT WAS SENT ?
WITH THE WORLD SEEMING SO UPSIDE DOWN...EVIL THAT SURROUNDS...
WHAT DRIVES ANY INTO THE WORD...MORE SO...THAN NOT...?
THE SOUL SAYS, MUST ABIDE IN HIS WORD...AS IT IS ALIVE...
AND IN A WORLD FULL OF HATE..O' MUST IN HIS LOVE ABIDE ~
"THESE THINGS OUR LORD COMMANDED...THAT WE LOVE ONE AND ANOTHER,"
[for a time, seemed as if was a stranger, when returned back to a Church]
O' SO EASY TO SEEM AS A STRANGER AMONG MANY...
BUT WHEN RUN TO THE FATHER... NOT UNTO THE FATHER, IS ONE A STRANGER ~
EPHESIANS 2...WILL BRING BACK , INTO "REMEMBRANCE."
"HISTORY"
THRU OUT YEARS, HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH FROM ONES NOW PASSED ON...
AS WELL AS OF OTHERS IN THE PAST ; OF THEIR TIME IN THE WAR ZONES...
AS WELL AS OF THE ONES IN HISTORY...IN THE BIBLE, AND WHAT TOOK PLACE
IN THEIR TIME , AND NATIONS.
MEN FROM ALL WALKS OF LIFE; WERE USED BY GOD TO WARN THE PEOPLE...
BEFORE... AND AFTER... MANY EVILS WOULD FALL UPON A NATION !
IS IT REALLY AS IMPORTANT, EVEN YET THIS VERY DAY; A DIRE NECSSITY ?
WHAT WAS THE MAIN DOWNFALL ? IT WAS THE DOWNFALL OF PURE RELIGION,
AND THE GROWING OF CORRUPTION !
THO' AM NOW ONE OF THE OLDER FOLKS, SO TO SPEAK...AM NOT DEAD YET...
AND CAN SEE WHERE CHANGES HAVE TAKEN PLACE IN SO MUCH...
AND IT'S HARD TO WATCH...WHAT THIS NATION HAS BECOME ~
IT'S LIKE AN ONGOING OF WHAT ONCE WAS ~
IT MEETS ONE, IN ALL AREAS OF LIFE...LIKE A REPEAT OF A NITEMARE...
AND THE DEEPEST CONCERN BECOMES...FOR ONES DO HOLD, SO DEAR ~
LIKE OFFSPRINGS OF FAMILIES OF HISTORY...IT DRIVES TO THE KNEES IN
MUCH PRAYERS ~
ONLY HAVE TO READ ... TO SEE WHAT HAPPENED BACK WHEN,
AS IT'S FULLY RECORDED...IN HISTORY ~
IS THERE REALLY AN ESCAPE, AS WATCH ALL THAT IS TAKING PLACE ?
IT SEEMS TO REALLY HIT HARD, AS APPROACHES WHAT IS CALLED
"MOTHER'S DAY" AND THE SOON COMING UP "FATHER'S DAY"...
~~~YET MUST NOT BE IN ALL GLOOM ! ~~~
STILL ALIVE, IS THE BOOK OF TRUTH...AND THERE IS YET MANY OF A TROOP,
THAT ARE SERVING AND LABORING...AND WINNING OTHERS UNTO THE TRUTH ~
" WHO CAN DESTROY THE GOSPEL TOTALLY ?"
WILL THE LORD LEAVE HIMSELF WITHOUT SERVANTS ...TO SPEAK ?
WHEN MAKE A COMMENT ON THE SUBJECT OF " GOD'S PRINCIPLES"...
CAN SPEAK AS ONE THAT WILL TELL YOU THAT ALL WEEK FOLLOWING,
IT WAS SPOKEN OF BY MEN OF GOD, BY WAY OF RADIO !
WHEN WENT TO VISIT A CHRISTIAN FRIEND IN THE HOSPITAL, THE MIND WAS SET
UPON ALREADY ...ON THE THOUGHT OF HOW COULD HELP,
AS KNEW ALOT ABOUT THE SICKNESS THEY MIGHT HAVE TO DEAL WITH,
BUT TESTS PROVED THAT THEY WAS OK...SO THAT WAS THE END OF THAT.
WANTED SO BAD TO TEACH IN WHAT WE CALL VBS...BUT IT WASN'T
MEANT TO BE...AND HAD TO ADMIT TO ANOTHER, THAT IT WAS JUST A WANT.
DURING ALL OF THIS, CAME ANOTHER THAT MENTIONED OF JUST COMING AND
BEING A "HELPER"...A PART OF ~ ..." A PART OF "...
DREAMS ARE HARD TO DIE...FOR SOME...THAT SEEMED IN CHARGE FOR MANY
OF A YEAR !
BUT AT THE END OF IT ALL...BECAME MORE AWARE OF HOW THE LORD CAN
ENCOURAGE THE SOUL...BRINGING FORTH OTHERS THAT NEED A FRIEND...
AND YOU CAN PROVIDE DURING THEIR TIME OF NEEDS ...AND IT SOFTENS THE
DEATH OF THE DREAM ~
IT TAKES AWAY THE "I WANT"...AND REPLACES WITH "NEEDY FRIENDS."
IT IS AN OPEN DOOR GIVEN... TO MINISTER TO "THEM."
IT ALSO BRINGS TO THE INNER SPIRIT, OF HOW OFTEN CRY OUT FOR GOD'S
HELP...AND OF HOW WE CALL JESUS OUR INTIMATE FRIEND...
WE FOLLOW...NOT WALK AHEAD OF HIM !
ONCE ARE OLDER...
DOES IT OFTEN SEEM, YOU ARE CARRIED AWAY LIKE A FLOOD;
AND CARRIED AWAY WITH IT ...IS YOUR DREAM...
OR; LIKE A BLOOM THAT DRIES UP AND DIES IN THE DAY'S ENDING ?
YET WHEN ARISE THE NEXT MORNING...THERE YOU ARE, IN THE POWER OF
ALL YOU CREATED...AND REMINDED IS THE SOUL; ARE YET AMONG THE LIVING,
AND SO IS ALIKE ... OF ANOTHER DOOR OPENING ~
O' SO GREAT YOU ARE IN YOUR POURED OUT LOVING PITY ~
THE SOUL LIFTS THE EYES UP AND SEES THE GREATNESS OF YOU BEING SO
CLOTHED WITH MAJESTY AND STRENGTH...AND THE WORKS OF THY HANDS...
AND WHATEVER THIS GRANTED NEW DAY MAY BRING FORTH...
WILL REJOICE, AS KNOW THAT YOU NEVER DESERT , ONCE HAVE GROWN OLD ~
ALL THAT CAN THINK IS..."YOU ARE...YOU ARE EVER IN CONTROL"...
"THE KING UPON HIS THRONE"
PSALMS 104
MAY THE 11 th...WERE NEWS REPORTS BY TV, AND NEWSPAPERS...
OF THE ENEMIES ATTACK UPON SOLDIERS/ AND THEIR DESIRE TO TAKE
AS MANY AS COULD...UNTO THEIR DEATH...AND WAS SO BENT IN DOING THAT !
DURING ALL OF THAT;WAS THE SCENE TAKING PLACE OUTSIDE IN THE YARD ~
WITH ALL THE RECONSTRUCTING OF THE EXPRESSWAY...AND OF ALSO TAKING
AWAY ALOT OF THE TREES...NATURE HAS CHOSEN THIS LITTLE LOT AS THEIR
PLACE OF ESCAPE !
HAVE 2 BIRD NESTS, WITH BABIES, AND A YOUNG BUNNIE THAT HOPS AROUND,
AND YOUNG SQUIRRELS EATING SEEDS PUT OUT FOR THEM...AND ALSO BIRDS
THAT KEEP ON SINGING...INSPITE OF THE GREAT NOISE ~
WITH WINDOWS OPEN....THEY CAN HEAR THE PREACHING/TEACHING/ AND ALSO
THE MUSIC ...BY RADIO...THAT PLAY IN BETWEEN ~
ALMOST LIKE HAVING ONE'S OWN FLOCK...IN UNITY !
NATURE AND HUMAN BEINGS ~
DOES NOT BOTH...KNOW WHOM IS THEIR CREATOR ?
" ALL FOR HIS OWN PLEASURE."
O' THE FEAR OF THE LORD IS THE BEGINNING OF WISDOM:
A GOOD UNDERSTANDING HAVE ALL THEY THAT DO HIS COMMANDMENTS;
HIS PRAISE ENDURETH FOREVER ~
THE SOUL HAS PRAYED, AS HEAR SPOKEN WORDS SO PERVERSE...
AND IN EARNEST; PRAY THAT WILL BE KEPT SAFE, WHILE YET IN THIS WORLD ~
O' THE WAITING, AS GROWING TOGETHER AMONG THE WHEAT AND THE TARES...
THE INNER CRIES, FOR THE ANGELS TO COME FORTH...TO SEPERATE ...
O' ...THE DEEP SEARCHING OUT...IN THE WORD FOR ANSWERS; DURING TIMES
OF ENDLESS TYPES OF WARS ~
EVEN TODAY;SOLDIERS AND VETS ALIKE; KNOW THAT FREEDOM IS NEVER FREE...
AND THE FLOCK, SPIRITUALLY KNOWS...OF WHEN THE TRUE SHEPHERD SPEAKS.
IS IT NOT YET TRUE, THAT OUT OF THE TREASURES OF THE HEART...
BRINGS FORTH GOOD THINGS; OR EVIIL... BRINGING FORTH BAD THINGS ?
THE SOULS KNOW THAT THERE IS HOPE,AND THERE'S VICTORY TO BE HAD...
AND CLING TO IT, AS IF LIFE TOTALLY DEPENDED UPON THAT...
AS WAR BATTLES ON... BETWEEN THE SPIRIT AND THE FLESH.
O' HOLY SPIRIT...LEAD, GUIDE AND DIRECT...IS THE MOST EARNEST REQUEST ;
AS AM AWARE THAT FREEDOM IS NOT FREE...AS DOES THE SOLDIERS AND VETS,
THAT RISKED THEIR OWN LIVES, TO RESCUE THE WOUNDED FROM DEATH,
DUE TO THE ENEMIES HATRED, AND HEARTS FILLED WITH RAGING WRATH.
O' IN THE COUNSEL OF THE LORD...IS A BURNING FIRE WITHIN THE HEARTS OF
ALL THAT WILL KEEP SOULS SAFE...DURING ANY KIND OF WAR ...
TIL' THE RETURN OF OUR CHRIST...THE TRUE AND FAITHFUL LORD OF LORDS ..
A WOMAN KNOWS WHAT LABOR PAINS ARE LIKE...
KNOWS HOW CHILDREN WILL GROW UP AND LEAVE HOME,
AND KNOWS THAT SOMEDAY...THEIR CHILDREN WILL TOO, GROW OLD.
HER DEEPEST HEART'S DESIRE FOR ONE AND ALL OF THEM IS TO GROW
IN WISDOM IN THE WORDS ...OF THE LORD~
WHEN RECEIVED A CARD FOR MOTHER'S DAY BY ONE...CALLED HER BY PHONE,
AND SAID; THAT THE GREATEST WAS THAT SHE KNEW THE MOTHER'S HEART,
AND AND THIS IS WHAT PRAY FOR EACH TO KNOW THE HEART OF
THE LORD ~
[ A WOMAN'S SOUL, SEEMS SO FILLED WITH WORDS, THAT OVERFLOWS.}
[poem]
ONCE HAVE FORMED A HABIT OF TIME SET ASIDE WITH THE LORD,
AND THINGS TAKE PLACE, WHERE IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO DO, AS DID BEFORE,
DO SENSE A GREAT LOSS... IT'S LIKE A WINTER'S FROST ...RIPPING AWAY
THE WARM CLOSNESS OF THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD.
YET IT'S NOT REALLY...HIS PRESENCE IS EVER THERE...HE IS A SPIRIT...
AND NOTHING CAN PREVENT HIS EVER DRAWING NEAR ~
CAN ANYTHING STOP THE WIND FROM BLOWING, OR THE SUN FROM ARISING...
AND WHOSE TIMING MUST CHANGE...IN ORDER TO MEET WITH HIM ...
WHERE THERE IS A WILL...THERE'S A WAY...DURING THIS LIFE'S JOURNEY ~
THERE IS SO MUCH TRYING TO DRAW AWAY ONE'S ATTENTION ...
AS WE DO LIVE IN A TIME OF GREAT ENDLESS TENSION...
AND A PLACE OF SILENCE SEEMS AS A IMPOSSIBILITY TO MANY ~
SO FAST HAS BECOME THE PACE OF LIVING, THE RUSHING HERE AND THERE,
AND MOUNTING SEEMS TO BE HEARTS, SO FILLED WITH ENDLESS CARES...
AND IT CAN BECOME, AS IF ARE OVERLOADED WITH WORLDLY AFFAIRS ~
IF EVER A TIME NEEDED IN HEARING THE WHISPERING OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, IT IS
"NOW"... NOT LATER, WHEN COMES THE PANGS OF SEVERE HARD LABOR ~
ONLY THE HOMESICK...YEARNS FOR THE COMFORT OF HOME...
AND SO IT IS; IN MAKING TIME,TO BE WITH THE COMFORTER OF ONE'S SOUL ~
IT'S THE SAME IN THE BREATH-TAKING AWE...AS THE WIND BLOWS...
ARISES A NEW SONG, IN THE WEARY HEART...AS ON THIS JOURNEY, WE GO .
WHAT MAY SEEM AS AN ETERNITY FOR NOW...ISN'T BUT A SHORT TIME...
AND WAITING CAN SEEM AS IF NEVER WILL BE THE COMING OF OUR CHRIST ~
"TIME" SEEMS TO DRAG IT'S FEET, AS A WORN DOWN TICK-TOCK...OF A CLOCK,
BUT NOT SO...FOR OUR LORD AND GOD !
HOW LONG DID SEARCH OUT, AS A STARVING REFUGE...FOR TRUTH ?
WHAT CAUSED THE HUNGER TO BECOME TAUGHT AND TO KNOW THE TRUTH ?
WHY IS REVELATION A FIERCE TUGGING AT THE MOST DEEPEST DESIRE
OF ONE'S HEART ?
WHAT IS IT THAT CAN MAKE SO CLEAR...THAT ARE LOST, AND NEED DIRECTIONS
IN ORDER TO KNOW...ALL THERE IS TO KNOW, OF THE ONE THAT CAN SHOW,
OR CAN REVEAL...WHY ARE LOST ?
CAN SPEND YEARS IN A SCHOOL...AND THEN ANOTHER TYPE OF SCHOOL,
ONE TEACHES , THEN ANOTHER ...AND THE LIST GOES ON AND ON...
YET REMAINS HIDDEN...THE WELL OF WATER, THAT QUENCHES THE DEEPEST
THIRST OF THE SOUL ~
THIS CAN DESCRIBE ANY LIFE, THAT BECOMES SO DETERMINDED TO FIND THE
NARROW ROAD...BEFORE THE GRAVE, SO DARK AND COLD ~
THE MAIN AIM IS TO WORSHIP ONE GOD; AND THEN SPOKEN WORDS REVEALED
THAT KNEW NOT ~
THIS CAN CHANGE THE WHOLE COURSE; AS ON THE JOURNEY TRAVEL...
PRAYING THAT ARE GIVEN TIME...TO LEARN OF WHAT SEEMS YET UNKNOWN ~
YEARS ARE SPENT...LABORING IN SEARCHING OUT THE INSPIRED BIBLE...
AND IT BECOMES THE FIXED GOAL.
WHY DOES THE LORD GIVE ANY THE TIME TO KNOW HIM, AND TO SPARE ONE'S
LIFE...TIL' THEY COME INTO UNDERSTANDING...IS REALLY TRULY AMAZING ~
OFTEN IT MAY TAKE MANY BATTLES, AND SCARS...BEFORE IS REVEALED WHY
THEY WERE ALLOWED...BY THE WILL OF THE LORD ...SAYS THE CRIPPLED ,
OR THE SCARRED HEARTS ~
HOW CAN COME INTO A DEEPER UNDERSTANDING...IF HAVE NO NEED OF
MINISTERING GIVEN...FOR HEALING ?
LIFE IS A JOURNEY, OF MUCH, THAT COMES UNEXPECTEDLY; UNFORESEEN.~
O' HOW WEAK WE HUMAN BEINGS SEEM TO BE, IN FACING REALITY !
IT OFTEN TAKES A TOTAL CRUSHING OF ALL THAT HELD ONTO...
AS SEEMS THAT ARE SO BENT IN THINGS, THAT ARE SO SELFISH OR OF SELF SERVING ~
O' TRULY; SUCH A DIRE NEED OF DELIVERANCE ...DO NEED ~
O' THE SEARCHING OUT OF EACH SOUL, IS A DIRE MUST, AS ON THIS JOURNEY ,
AND IT DOESN'T START WITH OTHERS; BUT WITHIN THE ME.
FROM THE DEPTHS OF THE SOUL...THESE FOLLOWING WORDS SPOKE;
TIL' DEATH...WILL NOT DEPART, FROM THE HOLY SPIRIT THAT CAN UTTER THE
WORDS...I CANNOT ~ IT'S THE SAME WITH THE OPENING OF THE HEART TO
RECEIVE UNDERSTANDING.
THE DEPENDING UPON HIM, IS THE MOST VITAL OF ALL ; BECAUSE HE IS REAL,
HE IS THE PROMISED ONE SENT AND WITHOUT HIM...WITH ALL, COULD NOT
DEAL WITH WHAT ALL THE DAY MAY HOLD.
AS REDISCOVERED ANOTHER OLD BOOK OF THE 1800'S...WAS REMINDED OF
HOW ONES LIVED, AND THEIR WORDS , NOW YELLOWISH PAPERS OF PRINT,
AND THERE WAS THAT 1 WORD ...OVER AND OVER AGAIN..."IF."
IF WE LOVE THE LORD...WILL NOT "WANT" TO STEAL,
OR TO TAKE HIS NAME IN VAIN...
"IF"...AND ON AND ON GOES THE LIST ~
SAT FOR A WHILE PONDERING OVER ALL OF THE WORDS , IN THE DEPTHS OF
THE SOUL...AND EACH DAY HAS BECOME TO ME, AS A MIRACLE OF LIFE,
FEEDING OFF OF THE BREAD AND DRINKING OF THE WINE...
AS WITHOUT THAT...JUST COULD NOT EVEN SURVIVE ~
IF NOT OF HEARING THE HOLY SPIRIT SPEAK...IT'S ALIKE ~
WHAT IS LIFE, WITHOUT HIS BREATHING INTO ONE'S SPIRIT... WORDS THAT GIVE
LIFE ? HIS OPENING OF THE SPIRITUAL EYES ?
CONSUMED BECAME OVERWHELMED WITH INNER THOUGHTS...
WHY DO ONES NOT WANT TO GRIEVE THE PROMISED ONE SENT FROM ON HIGH ?
O' THE PRICKING OF THE HEART, AND THE SOUL...THE PAIN OF IT ALL,
O' SO MANY WALLS BUILT AROUND...IN ORDER TO ESCAPE THY VOICE...
THE WANTS AND DESIRES ..."IF" NOT OF THE LORDS WANTS AND DESIRES,
LIFE BECOMES AS ONE OF VOID ~
SO EACH DAY...AS ARISE...IT WILL BECOME AS A MIRACLE, THAT ARE LEFT ALIVE,
SPARED ANOTHER DAY...TO PARTAKE OF THE BREAD AND THE WINE ~
TO HEAR THE VOICE PROMISED TO LEAD AND GUIDE...
AND THIS IS WHY...TIL' DEATH, STRIVE TO WALK NOT BY SIGHT,
BUT BY THE VOICE THAT WAS SENT FROM UPON HIGH ~
JUST RECENTLY, A MAN SAID TO ME; "I HAVE TRAVELED THE WORLD 7 TIMES
AROUND, AND HAVE SEEN ALOT."
MY RESPONSE FLOWED OUT AS A RIVER DEEP WITHIN , TO HIS COMMENT...
"I HAVE SEEN DEATH MANY TIMES... FACE TO FACE"...
AND HE CLOSED HIS MOUTH AND JUST WALKED AWAY ~
IF THERE IS ONE THING, WHERE BY IS NO ESCAPE...IT CAUSES OFTEN TO BE
MISUNDERSTOOD BY MANY OTHERS ...THAT SEEM TO BELIEVE THAT SEEING
THE WORLD, MAKES ONE WISE.
FROM THE 1ST RECORDED DEATH, UP TO THE PRESENT...A BURIAL WAS A MUST,
YET CAN ANY TRULY SAY THAT IT WAS A THING OF JOY OR PLEASURE ?
YET... IN A DIFFERENT, DEEPER SENSE...HOW PAINFUL IT IS,
TO THINK UPON NOT HAVING A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH ONE'S CREATOR ~
IT IS EASY TO SPEAK WORDS...HARDER TO DIE UNTO WHAT ONCE WERE...
IT'S EASY TO REJOICE WHEN ALL IS WELL; BUT WHAT ABOUT, WHEN ARE
PLACED IN A DESERT, WHERE THERE'S NO FOOD OR WATER ?
CAN THE SOUL RELATE TO THE ONE, THAT DID SUCH...
AND WHO WAS THAT ONE...THAT DID WEEP AT A TOMB ? " . . . . ."
O' SO MUCH HE DID, TO SHOW THAT HE WAS THE SON SENT BY THE FATHER,
AND EVER THANKED HIS FATHER, FOR "HEARING" HIM !
WHAT GLORY IS GIVEN TO THE FATHER, AND "PROOF" UNTO ONES AROUND,
AS COULDN'T ESCAPE WHAT THE EYES BACK THEN WITNESSED... SEEING THE UNWRAPPED , FROM THE CLOTHING OF DEATH ; FROM THE STING OF DEATH;
ARISING IN VICTORY...NOT SEEN WORLD WIDE; BUT... SO RECORDED IN THE
HOLY TEXT...FOR FOLLOWING GENERATIONS TO DRINK IN, OF WHAT IT MEANT ~
SO OFTEN, DO CRY OUT TO THE VICTOR OVER DEATH'S STING...
AS GROW WEAK IN THE SPIRIT, AS WATCH ONES DYING...
ONES THAT SEEM TO HAD BEEN SENT ALONG THE PATH OF THIS JOURNEY;
WHERE BY...RELATIONSHIPS HAVE FORMED IN A DEEPER SENSE...
AND, WHY IS IT SO PAINFUL, AS WATCH ONE THAT IS NEARING THEIR END ;
WHETHER ARE OF BLOOD KIN; OR ONE THAT THE HEART CALLS A FRIEND ?
WHY DO MANY SEEM TO RUN AWAY FROM REALITY OF LIFE...
AND DON'T WANT TO SEE....DEATH; FACE TO FACE ?
O' THE SPIRIT RISES WITHIN...AND THE TEARS FLOW, AS A RIVER DEEP,
MUCH IS KEPT WITHIN...AND SILENT, OFTEN DO REMAIN; OF THE GRIEF ~
YET WHEN IT OVERFLOWS THE BANKS...IT MUST BE RELEASED ~
LIKE A CAGED BIRD...OPENED BECOMES THE DOOR...AND ARE SET FREE,
AS CAN CRY OUT, AND KNOW THAT THE WORDS ARE HEARD BY THE VICTOR;
OVER DEATH'S STING.
IT'S NOT A VISION OR A DREAM...BUT A RELATIONSHIP THAT FORMS,
BETWEEN TWO HEARTS...THE DESIRE OF BEING USED BY ONE'S LORD...
"AND OF HIS BEING GLORIED BY IT ALL."
THERE'S A COMMENT MADE BY WAY OF RADIO, THAT TROUBLES THE SOUL;
LET US SEE MORE OF YOUR GLORY...AND THEN THE SOUND OF A HORN !
WHEN THINK UPON THE HOLINESS OF THE LORD...AND WHAT OTHERS DID, WHEN
IN THE PRESENCE OF HIM; THE VERY OPPOSITE TOOK PLACE AMONG MEN.
WHEN EVER THE PURE AWE IS NOT CONSUMING...AND THE UNWORTHINESS
OF SUCH IS NOT FIRST... IN THE SOUL; ARE ALREADY IN DEEP TROUBLE ~
WHEN IN A WORLD SUCH AS PRESENTLY ARE...AND AREN'T AWARE OF THE
WAR OF THE INVISIBLE TAKING PLACE...IS LIKE AN UNDONE PUZZLE.
THE RICH AND THE POOR ALIKE, ARE AS ONES HELPLESS...
AS ONLY THE LORD, BY HIS MIGHTY POWER CAN DELIVER OUT HIS PEOPLE
IN TIMES OF SUCH POURED OUT FORCES OF EVIL ~
O' LORD JESUS...FROM THE BEGINNING... BEFORE THIS EARTH EVEN WAS...
IN THEE...WILL THE SOUL TRUST...AS READ OF THY WORDS OF WISDOM !
TO LOVE THEE...IS LIFE...BUT TO HATE... IS DEATH ~
O' HOLY SPIRIT, DESIRE MORE THAN ANYTHING...TO BE AS WAS DESTINED TO BE,
FOR GREATLY HAS BEEN POURED THE LOVING KINDNESS AND THE LORD'S RICH
MERCY !
HAVE LEARNED THAT RICHES ARE NOT OF FOREVER...
AND HAVE LEARN WHAT IT MEANS TO ENDURE...
ALL THAT DO READ,IS NOT OF THIS WORLD; BUT SEARCHING OUT OF THE WORD.
THY WORD IS PURE...LIKE A CLEAR FLOWING RIVER...
LIKE A SONG OF GREAT REJOICING,
AS WATCHING THE SUN ARISING IN THE MORNING...
SUCH A PLEASANT SIGHT OF THE EYES...AM BEHOLDING ~
MAY ALL THAT THE BELOVED SPOKE, FILL THE CUP TIL' IT'S OVERFLOWING...
TIL' THE TIME COMES OF THE GREAT FEAST SET UPON THE KING'S TABLE,
THE GATHERING...TOGETHER OF HIS OWN...FOR EVER MORE... |
